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[APPLAUSE]

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Oh my goodness.

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Bea, thank you so much
for that introduction.

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It means a lot to me.

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Thank you, everybody,
for coming.

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This has been such a
fun visit to Tucson.

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I love it here.

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I'm going to move
into the cottage.

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I don't know if
anybody told you.

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Thank you so much,
Paco, for inviting me.

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And thank you to everybody
for your hospitality.

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It really has been
such a fun time.

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Thank you, Tyler, and Paola,
and Ander, and Sarah I'm

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so happy to read with you.

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I'm going to read from the
manuscript that Bea mentioned.

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Right now it's
called The Big Score.

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It's going to be called The Big
Score until it's a real book,

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then it's going to
have a different name.

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I had to-- I realized that I
could not stop writing the book

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until I figured out what
was the big score all along.

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It never came, and the
manuscript is 250,000 words.

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That would be, I don't know,
700 pages or something printed.

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They won't let me do that.

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I don't think.

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So I'm going to read--

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I'm going to read from
the prologue of this book

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at this point that lays out,
it's been an anchor point for me

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as the book has changed.

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I started writing it in 2021,
when White Magic was just

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about to come out,
and it was a lot

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to have this book coming out.

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Another book about the
worst things that had ever

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happened to me, and
talking about it

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and thinking about it without
being able to leave my house,

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being sick with
something mysterious.

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I didn't know what it was,
and had been sick for a year,

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and I decided,
I'm going to write

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about the thing that is furthest
from trauma, which is money.

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[LAUGHTER]

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And I was going to
write about money.

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I wasn't going to write anything
about myself and my problems.

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I was going to do what my
grad students and I call

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living for the essay.

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It's basically what it
sounds like on the tin.

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You change your life around so
that you can write about it.

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So I'm going to read
from the very beginning

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and then a couple of spots later
so you can see where it goes.

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