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Now, feel free to heckle.

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That was not a good [INAUDIBLE].

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What?

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There.

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[LAUGHTER]

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That's what I like to hear.

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This dream, I think,
is about grad school.

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Or maybe it's autobiographical
about me right here, right now.

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All the dreams are
in second person.

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I write them for people.

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And I bike around and
deliver them to them.

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And contrary to what Susan
said, I didn't invent dreams.

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[LAUGHTER]

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You are a clown.

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Sorry.

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You are in clown school,

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Learning juggling
and unicycling,

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Pantomime and buffoonery.

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But now you have advanced

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To the upper levels of the
clown school curriculum,

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Working on theory of clown

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And clownetics and
critical clownery.

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In one class, you must clown an
overripe mango on a bare table

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Without touching the fruit,
without saying the word mango.

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The true clown is inside.

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Your instructor
repeats mantra-like

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As she walks through the room.

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In the next class, you
have a guest lecturer,

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A clown who has been clowning
professionally for 80 years.

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The instructor
introduces the old clown.

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The clown walks to the podium.

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You and the other clown
students clap politely.

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The clown moves the podium
to the side of the room

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Then sits on a stool.

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He pantomimes a
mirror before him,

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Pantomiming, looking at himself

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And examining his
wrinkles and flaws

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Until you and the clown
students are transformed

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Into his mirror, the nexus
of the old clown's anxieties.

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Then the clown pantomimes

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Removing the clown
makeup from his face

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As he wipes his
hand on his face,

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A stripe of his face disappears.

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You can see the far
wall right through him.

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He mimes wiping his face again.

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And his nose and
right eye disappear.

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He mimes wiping his face again.

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And there goes his
cheek and his ear.

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Soon he has no face at all.

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And he moves on to
his neck and chest,

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Working his way slowly
and methodically,

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Wiping away his body

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Until he has erased
his entire self

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In the mirror of your gaze.

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And it is not until he
has disappeared entirely

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That you realize you
are heavier, more full,

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More full of the world you
always knew you were a part of

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But never wanted
to be a part of.

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