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Woman with amputated breast
awaits PET scan results.

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So, typically the way it
goes when you have cancer

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is that depending on how
fast your tumor grows,

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you have your surgery to
remove the tumor or amputation,

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whatever it happens
to be, and then they

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do an analysis, a
pathology report.

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And in that pathology
report in breast cancer,

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and many other forms
of cancer, they

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note whether or
not the cancer has

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spread into your lymph nodes.

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Once the cancer has spread
into your lymph nodes,

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the chances are-- the lymph
nodes are the unsung part

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of your circulatory system.

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They're the shadow part of
your circulatory system.

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And because of that, lymph
goes everywhere in your body.

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So if cancer cells are in your
lymph nodes, it's very likely,

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or it's more likely than if
they just stay in one place

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that it has spread
through your body.

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So at that point,
you get a PET scan.

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So for me, this was
after my chemotherapy

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to try to shrink the
tumor, which didn't work.

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And then after my
mastectomy, they

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found that my cancer had
gone into the lymph nodes,

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and so they did the
PET scan results.

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And at this point, it was two
weeks between the PET scan

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and the results,
which at this point

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I was waiting to find out--

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I knew I was stage 3, it was
possible I was stage 4, which

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is an incurable form of cancer.

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It was a really stressful
couple of weeks.

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And for any of you out there
who knows what this is like,

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I wish you a
lifetime of no PETs.

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That's what I call it.

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No PETs.

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I'm going in for
mine on February 6,

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so no PETs for any of us.

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No PETs.

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The waiting, sleek as otters,
slips between your lips.

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Without the waiting, who can
know when spring will come,

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or snow?

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Heading south, the geese
all beat the waiting

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with their wings.

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Turn on the light at 2:00
AM, the waiting stands,

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hand on your head.

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A most maternal haunting.

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Swimming, the human body
humps along, each dive in time

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ends so close to its beginning.

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Help me to spell waiting?

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I forget.

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And whom can I tell how
much I want to live?

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I want to live.

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A stone, the waiting
weights my body into stone.

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What's left?

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Almost a palindrome.

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