WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.070 align:middle line:90% 00:00:04.070 --> 00:00:07.530 align:middle line:84% Woman with amputated breast awaits PET scan results. 00:00:07.530 --> 00:00:12.920 align:middle line:84% So, typically the way it goes when you have cancer 00:00:12.920 --> 00:00:16.710 align:middle line:84% is that depending on how fast your tumor grows, 00:00:16.710 --> 00:00:20.403 align:middle line:84% you have your surgery to remove the tumor or amputation, 00:00:20.403 --> 00:00:22.070 align:middle line:84% whatever it happens to be, and then they 00:00:22.070 --> 00:00:25.410 align:middle line:84% do an analysis, a pathology report. 00:00:25.410 --> 00:00:28.400 align:middle line:84% And in that pathology report in breast cancer, 00:00:28.400 --> 00:00:30.230 align:middle line:84% and many other forms of cancer, they 00:00:30.230 --> 00:00:32.119 align:middle line:84% note whether or not the cancer has 00:00:32.119 --> 00:00:33.930 align:middle line:90% spread into your lymph nodes. 00:00:33.930 --> 00:00:36.390 align:middle line:84% Once the cancer has spread into your lymph nodes, 00:00:36.390 --> 00:00:39.860 align:middle line:84% the chances are-- the lymph nodes are the unsung part 00:00:39.860 --> 00:00:42.540 align:middle line:90% of your circulatory system. 00:00:42.540 --> 00:00:45.450 align:middle line:84% They're the shadow part of your circulatory system. 00:00:45.450 --> 00:00:49.530 align:middle line:84% And because of that, lymph goes everywhere in your body. 00:00:49.530 --> 00:00:52.410 align:middle line:84% So if cancer cells are in your lymph nodes, it's very likely, 00:00:52.410 --> 00:00:56.390 align:middle line:84% or it's more likely than if they just stay in one place 00:00:56.390 --> 00:00:58.170 align:middle line:84% that it has spread through your body. 00:00:58.170 --> 00:01:00.330 align:middle line:84% So at that point, you get a PET scan. 00:01:00.330 --> 00:01:02.630 align:middle line:84% So for me, this was after my chemotherapy 00:01:02.630 --> 00:01:04.650 align:middle line:84% to try to shrink the tumor, which didn't work. 00:01:04.650 --> 00:01:06.110 align:middle line:84% And then after my mastectomy, they 00:01:06.110 --> 00:01:08.640 align:middle line:84% found that my cancer had gone into the lymph nodes, 00:01:08.640 --> 00:01:11.070 align:middle line:84% and so they did the PET scan results. 00:01:11.070 --> 00:01:14.210 align:middle line:84% And at this point, it was two weeks between the PET scan 00:01:14.210 --> 00:01:17.850 align:middle line:84% and the results, which at this point 00:01:17.850 --> 00:01:19.090 align:middle line:90% I was waiting to find out-- 00:01:19.090 --> 00:01:21.900 align:middle line:84% I knew I was stage 3, it was possible I was stage 4, which 00:01:21.900 --> 00:01:24.030 align:middle line:90% is an incurable form of cancer. 00:01:24.030 --> 00:01:27.610 align:middle line:84% It was a really stressful couple of weeks. 00:01:27.610 --> 00:01:31.600 align:middle line:84% And for any of you out there who knows what this is like, 00:01:31.600 --> 00:01:33.413 align:middle line:84% I wish you a lifetime of no PETs. 00:01:33.413 --> 00:01:34.330 align:middle line:90% That's what I call it. 00:01:34.330 --> 00:01:34.830 align:middle line:90% No PETs. 00:01:34.830 --> 00:01:37.180 align:middle line:84% I'm going in for mine on February 6, 00:01:37.180 --> 00:01:38.470 align:middle line:90% so no PETs for any of us. 00:01:38.470 --> 00:01:40.050 align:middle line:90% No PETs. 00:01:40.050 --> 00:01:44.260 align:middle line:84% The waiting, sleek as otters, slips between your lips. 00:01:44.260 --> 00:01:47.790 align:middle line:84% Without the waiting, who can know when spring will come, 00:01:47.790 --> 00:01:49.140 align:middle line:90% or snow? 00:01:49.140 --> 00:01:51.990 align:middle line:84% Heading south, the geese all beat the waiting 00:01:51.990 --> 00:01:53.290 align:middle line:90% with their wings. 00:01:53.290 --> 00:01:57.190 align:middle line:84% Turn on the light at 2:00 AM, the waiting stands, 00:01:57.190 --> 00:01:58.500 align:middle line:90% hand on your head. 00:01:58.500 --> 00:02:01.380 align:middle line:90% A most maternal haunting. 00:02:01.380 --> 00:02:05.610 align:middle line:84% Swimming, the human body humps along, each dive in time 00:02:05.610 --> 00:02:07.690 align:middle line:90% ends so close to its beginning. 00:02:07.690 --> 00:02:10.169 align:middle line:90% Help me to spell waiting? 00:02:10.169 --> 00:02:11.760 align:middle line:90% I forget. 00:02:11.760 --> 00:02:15.910 align:middle line:84% And whom can I tell how much I want to live? 00:02:15.910 --> 00:02:19.050 align:middle line:90% I want to live. 00:02:19.050 --> 00:02:24.010 align:middle line:84% A stone, the waiting weights my body into stone. 00:02:24.010 --> 00:02:25.150 align:middle line:90% What's left? 00:02:25.150 --> 00:02:28.370 align:middle line:90% Almost a palindrome. 00:02:28.370 --> 00:02:29.000 align:middle line:90%