OK.
This next poem is called "A Walk in the Park."
It's a little bit longer, and it starts
because I was thinking about--
I was thinking about Plato's Republic.
And in book 10 of Plato's Republic,
this really weird thing happens.
He spends nine chapters talking about the perfect city-state,
which, by the way, he said the poets should be kicked out
of because we tell lies.
But in book 10, he suddenly tells you the myth of Er,
E-R. Er is a soldier who's died, and he goes to the afterlife.
And he is given the gift of coming back
to the world of the living to tell us
all what the afterlife is like.
And as Plato is relaying this myth,
he describes this thing called the Wheel of Necessity,
which is a spindle that turns the orbit
threads of the planets.
And this turning spindle is the primary mover
of the souls of the dead into their next bodies on Earth,
a poem about embodiment.
And this Wheel of Necessity is attended by the goddess
Necessity in her threefold form, The Fates, who maybe some of us
are more familiar with, who spin, measure,
and cut each length of life.
So I'm thinking about this while I'm walking in a park,
and you're going to come with me.
"A Walk in the Park."
To be born again, you need
an incarnation specialist-- a team
from the Bureau of Needles
to thread you through--
Your next life
turns
on an axle of light--
which Plato likens
to a turning
spindle-- what was that?
I mean I knew
what a spindle was
from fairytales-- how it could
draw blood
from a testing finger, put a kingdom
to sleep--
but what
did it actually do, how
did a spindle look
in real life?
I didn't know.
As with
so many things--
there was fact and there was
a believed-in dream.
Everyone had them back
in the ancient day,
spindles.
When we had to weave
our living-shrouds
by hand.
"A slender rounded rod
with tapered ends," Google said.
Plato's,
so heavy with thread,
when viewed from the side,
looked like a top--
though most diagrams assumed
the hawk-lord view.
Moon threads, threads of the planets, earth thread.
Your thread.
Everyone else's.
Nested one
inside the other, a roulette
machine--
If a thread could be spun from liquid light was what
I kept thinking--
imagining a sluice
of electric souls
between the earth wheel's rims--
there "I"
was a piece of water, Necessity
wheeled it around--
Necessity,
who was married to Time,
according to the Greeks--
Mother of the Fates.
Who would measure and cut your
paradise/shithole extra life.
Well we all have ways of thinking about
why,
metaphysically-speaking, anyone's born--
though the answer's always Life's
I AM THAT I AM
--how it hurls and breaks!
on Death's No there
there--
--which sounded kind of Buddhist.
According to the teachings we were all
each other's dream.
And soon able to vanish--
out of the real
without having to die, whoever's
got the cash-- to pay
the brainier ones
to perfect
a Heaven upload-- to cut
the flesh-tether
and merge
with the Cloud.
Well we all have ways of constructing
Paradise.
To walk alone deep in thought
in a city park
was mine
for several minutes,
thinking about spindles.
Before the vigilance
of my genderdoom
kicked in.
And there it was, the fact
of my body--
All the nerves in my scalp
and the back of my neck,
alive--
How it moved through space, how close
it had strayed
toward concealing trees, my
female body--
Jewish body-- inside my
White body-- dreaming
it was bodiless
and free--
to decide--
how and when and if to fill the body's hungers--
how and when and if to walk in thought
through the wilderness--
before Death comes with its Fascist hat.
Its Park Murder Misogyny hat.
Its Year Ten in a Nursing Home stink
hat--
However spun
my thread.
Anyway--
[COUGHS] Excuse me.
Anyway,
it's peaceful here
in the park, at midday,
if a little deserted.
I've moved to the path that winds
closer to the street.
Thinking again, as I always do,
about body and soul.
How they
infuse each other.
How they
hate each other.
How most people pledge allegiance
to one or the other.
How painful it was!
To be
such a split
creature--