WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.570 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.570 --> 00:00:04.800 align:middle line:84% I'll read a poem by a friend of mine, Marie Howe. 00:00:04.800 --> 00:00:09.240 align:middle line:84% She's written a lot of really truly wonderful poems 00:00:09.240 --> 00:00:11.130 align:middle line:84% about the death of her brother by AIDS. 00:00:11.130 --> 00:00:14.310 align:middle line:84% And they're just, of course, just about human life too. 00:00:14.310 --> 00:00:16.470 align:middle line:84% But that's sort of in the background. 00:00:16.470 --> 00:00:19.710 align:middle line:84% It's that sort of absence of a person who was once here 00:00:19.710 --> 00:00:22.050 align:middle line:84% is in the background, as I guess it always is. 00:00:22.050 --> 00:00:24.870 align:middle line:84% It's called "Buddy," which is the name of a dog. 00:00:24.870 --> 00:00:25.500 align:middle line:90% "Buddy" 00:00:25.500 --> 00:00:27.610 align:middle line:90% 00:00:27.610 --> 00:00:31.990 align:middle line:84% "Andy sees us to the door, and Buddy is suddenly 00:00:31.990 --> 00:00:37.300 align:middle line:84% all over him, leaping and barking because Andy said walk. 00:00:37.300 --> 00:00:43.840 align:middle line:84% Are you going to walk home, he said to me. 00:00:43.840 --> 00:00:47.110 align:middle line:90% And Buddy thinks him and now. 00:00:47.110 --> 00:00:49.960 align:middle line:90% And he's wrong. 00:00:49.960 --> 00:00:52.150 align:middle line:84% He doesn't understand the difference 00:00:52.150 --> 00:00:56.230 align:middle line:84% between sign and symbol, like we do, 00:00:56.230 --> 00:00:59.470 align:middle line:84% the thing and the word for the thing, how 00:00:59.470 --> 00:01:03.040 align:middle line:84% we can talk about something when it's not even there, 00:01:03.040 --> 00:01:08.260 align:middle line:84% without it actually happening, the way I talk about John. 00:01:08.260 --> 00:01:10.630 align:middle line:90% Andy meant soon. 00:01:10.630 --> 00:01:13.150 align:middle line:90% He meant me. 00:01:13.150 --> 00:01:18.520 align:middle line:84% As for Buddy, Andy meant later, when he was good and ready, 00:01:18.520 --> 00:01:20.200 align:middle line:90% he said. 00:01:20.200 --> 00:01:22.630 align:middle line:90% Buddy doesn't understand. 00:01:22.630 --> 00:01:28.660 align:middle line:84% He's in a state of agitation and grief, scratching at the door. 00:01:28.660 --> 00:01:33.010 align:middle line:84% If one of us said 'Andy' when Andy wasn't there, 00:01:33.010 --> 00:01:36.490 align:middle line:84% that silly Buddy would probably jump up barking 00:01:36.490 --> 00:01:39.090 align:middle line:90% and begin looking for him." 00:01:39.090 --> 00:01:40.000 align:middle line:90%