WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.020 align:middle line:90% 00:00:01.020 --> 00:00:07.290 align:middle line:84% To Tucson, well, long ago, mythic Tucson poems, 00:00:07.290 --> 00:00:09.300 align:middle line:90% this is called The Arroyo. 00:00:09.300 --> 00:00:12.240 align:middle line:90% It has the F-word in it. 00:00:12.240 --> 00:00:16.770 align:middle line:84% But it's part of a text, as you'll see, that-- 00:00:16.770 --> 00:00:19.140 align:middle line:90% a received text. 00:00:19.140 --> 00:00:20.760 align:middle line:90% Disclaimer. 00:00:20.760 --> 00:00:23.190 align:middle line:90% The Arroyo. 00:00:23.190 --> 00:00:29.730 align:middle line:84% The perspective of lines or innocence, I love other bodies. 00:00:29.730 --> 00:00:34.500 align:middle line:84% They always seemed to know the secret before I did. 00:00:34.500 --> 00:00:37.680 align:middle line:84% My mother has come outside to hang up towels. 00:00:37.680 --> 00:00:38.970 align:middle line:90% Cannon. 00:00:38.970 --> 00:00:40.800 align:middle line:90% I'm in my nada body. 00:00:40.800 --> 00:00:43.980 align:middle line:84% I'm about 10, dragging magnets through sand 00:00:43.980 --> 00:00:49.380 align:middle line:84% in the arroyo to gather garnets from iron filings. 00:00:49.380 --> 00:00:55.650 align:middle line:84% For others it's the ditch, or the wash, or drainage ditch. 00:00:55.650 --> 00:00:59.490 align:middle line:84% She's the thin expert at hanging out daily life. 00:00:59.490 --> 00:01:03.690 align:middle line:84% Squinting, I see she's either a one or a zero who 00:01:03.690 --> 00:01:06.510 align:middle line:90% never makes a mistake outdoors. 00:01:06.510 --> 00:01:11.550 align:middle line:84% Pink towels, shorts, sock, sock, sock, sock. 00:01:11.550 --> 00:01:15.880 align:middle line:84% The sun is the mistake that works. 00:01:15.880 --> 00:01:18.640 align:middle line:84% The dragging, then the filings, then picking out 00:01:18.640 --> 00:01:21.040 align:middle line:84% garnets with tweezers in the hundred degree 00:01:21.040 --> 00:01:22.600 align:middle line:90% heat of the arroyo. 00:01:22.600 --> 00:01:24.280 align:middle line:90% She calls my name. 00:01:24.280 --> 00:01:25.210 align:middle line:90% It brightens. 00:01:25.210 --> 00:01:27.910 align:middle line:90% It's years before my period. 00:01:27.910 --> 00:01:30.340 align:middle line:84% Chrome glint of the abandoned fender. 00:01:30.340 --> 00:01:33.760 align:middle line:84% The doll's head softens near the jar. 00:01:33.760 --> 00:01:36.670 align:middle line:84% These garments have backward facets. 00:01:36.670 --> 00:01:39.400 align:middle line:90% The present tense saddens them. 00:01:39.400 --> 00:01:43.360 align:middle line:84% Before the flash flood, I can make it to the end of the arroyo 00:01:43.360 --> 00:01:45.730 align:middle line:84% where the hollow chalk couple has been 00:01:45.730 --> 00:01:49.780 align:middle line:90% shown having sex on a rock. 00:01:49.780 --> 00:01:53.890 align:middle line:84% If knowing alternates with seeing, dragging magnets 00:01:53.890 --> 00:01:55.780 align:middle line:84% through the sand, thinking of them 00:01:55.780 --> 00:01:58.330 align:middle line:90% is the place where I am not. 00:01:58.330 --> 00:02:01.210 align:middle line:84% Childhood is one of our low points. 00:02:01.210 --> 00:02:05.050 align:middle line:84% When I cough, the doves fly away. 00:02:05.050 --> 00:02:09.820 align:middle line:84% She hangs up clothes, her nada, her single humming. 00:02:09.820 --> 00:02:12.880 align:middle line:84% When she turns sideways, she is gone. 00:02:12.880 --> 00:02:16.900 align:middle line:84% Pinch bird, beak, clothespins, she uses my whole name 00:02:16.900 --> 00:02:18.910 align:middle line:90% to call me in. 00:02:18.910 --> 00:02:20.200 align:middle line:90% A power comes up. 00:02:20.200 --> 00:02:21.790 align:middle line:90% It's in between the voices. 00:02:21.790 --> 00:02:25.690 align:middle line:84% It says, you can stop making sense. 00:02:25.690 --> 00:02:28.540 align:middle line:84% The hollow chalk couple, oh, when I see them, 00:02:28.540 --> 00:02:30.520 align:middle line:90% I will touch their penis. 00:02:30.520 --> 00:02:35.140 align:middle line:84% It is the small blue tombstone turned sideways. 00:02:35.140 --> 00:02:38.080 align:middle line:84% Touching it is the invention of the new. 00:02:38.080 --> 00:02:42.730 align:middle line:84% Touching the signs next to them: fuck, dick, heart, heart, heart, 00:02:42.730 --> 00:02:44.740 align:middle line:90% is the both invention. 00:02:44.740 --> 00:02:49.630 align:middle line:84% Sex, and more exciting than doing it without talking. 00:02:49.630 --> 00:02:52.390 align:middle line:84% I looked for the one who sought me without measure 00:02:52.390 --> 00:02:54.310 align:middle line:90% and the waters broke away. 00:02:54.310 --> 00:02:57.580 align:middle line:84% Waited for one who called, but she had gone in. 00:02:57.580 --> 00:03:03.130 align:middle line:84% I called my love much later the same when I was not him. 00:03:03.130 --> 00:03:06.940 align:middle line:84% The doll has become soft when left for about 20 minutes. 00:03:06.940 --> 00:03:11.440 align:middle line:84% White stars take over the eyes, our garnets on wax paper 00:03:11.440 --> 00:03:13.660 align:middle line:90% like minstrel blood. 00:03:13.660 --> 00:03:17.680 align:middle line:84% Floods will come over the Earth, but the hollow's better. 00:03:17.680 --> 00:03:21.100 align:middle line:84% Winds replace the chalk couple with sand. 00:03:21.100 --> 00:03:23.680 align:middle line:90% The hawk sweeps and is gone. 00:03:23.680 --> 00:03:28.090 align:middle line:84% Coyote, various night viceroys with yellow eyes. 00:03:28.090 --> 00:03:32.170 align:middle line:84% Hollow body fills later in legs with specks of time, 00:03:32.170 --> 00:03:37.000 align:middle line:84% boys with wandering and orderly hands, laughter, such as oh D., 00:03:37.000 --> 00:03:40.120 align:middle line:90% oh P., oh L., oh P., oh A. 00:03:40.120 --> 00:03:42.190 align:middle line:90% I loved other bodies. 00:03:42.190 --> 00:03:46.060 align:middle line:84% Even those I did not love, those of this generation, 00:03:46.060 --> 00:03:50.860 align:middle line:84% we all, cruel lovers and kind when stoned in the South 00:03:50.860 --> 00:03:52.480 align:middle line:90% and beaches between. 00:03:52.480 --> 00:03:56.770 align:middle line:84% And the faceless chalk couple haunts me now, taut, 00:03:56.770 --> 00:04:00.490 align:middle line:84% touch, language with the north hand, flesh with the right. 00:04:00.490 --> 00:04:03.280 align:middle line:84% Even three decades later, in danger 00:04:03.280 --> 00:04:07.450 align:middle line:84% of sort of the new disease and terror of backward, 00:04:07.450 --> 00:04:10.300 align:middle line:84% convinced oneself is not the way to live 00:04:10.300 --> 00:04:13.000 align:middle line:90% because we are lived through. 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:17.140 align:middle line:90% Not to fail what was left blank. 00:04:17.140 --> 00:04:21.160 align:middle line:84% I gather the little jars of the elements to show her, 00:04:21.160 --> 00:04:24.850 align:middle line:84% within pure joy exists a kind of hollow, 00:04:24.850 --> 00:04:28.980 align:middle line:84% the inverse river, the opposite water. 00:04:28.980 --> 00:04:29.480 align:middle line:90%