WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.850 align:middle line:90% 00:00:01.850 --> 00:00:03.695 align:middle line:84% "Consequences Upon Arrival (ii)." 00:00:03.695 --> 00:00:06.390 align:middle line:90% 00:00:06.390 --> 00:00:08.790 align:middle line:84% "We woke into the morning undressed. 00:00:08.790 --> 00:00:12.330 align:middle line:84% Every thought washed of color and their chains rusted over. 00:00:12.330 --> 00:00:15.330 align:middle line:84% Wind howled and fell and whispered beneath the brush. 00:00:15.330 --> 00:00:18.240 align:middle line:84% And we with it, bottoming on purpose. 00:00:18.240 --> 00:00:20.630 align:middle line:90% But that was not our gift. 00:00:20.630 --> 00:00:22.070 align:middle line:90% Without softness. 00:00:22.070 --> 00:00:23.510 align:middle line:90% Without thesis. 00:00:23.510 --> 00:00:26.180 align:middle line:84% It was difficult to understand the reach of the occasion 00:00:26.180 --> 00:00:29.360 align:middle line:90% or to whom we owed the honor. 00:00:29.360 --> 00:00:32.549 align:middle line:84% Our only meaningful thought flooded crevasses of pain. 00:00:32.549 --> 00:00:33.980 align:middle line:90% Pain that was simple. 00:00:33.980 --> 00:00:36.950 align:middle line:84% Fundamental as the air before rain. 00:00:36.950 --> 00:00:39.110 align:middle line:84% The circumstances formed around our suffering 00:00:39.110 --> 00:00:41.760 align:middle line:84% decayed from the point of initiation inward. 00:00:41.760 --> 00:00:44.840 align:middle line:84% This so abandonment became common. 00:00:44.840 --> 00:00:47.780 align:middle line:84% We trained our ears to wake and comprehend the hour. 00:00:47.780 --> 00:00:52.400 align:middle line:84% Deliver oxygen. Rest one foot in its light. 00:00:52.400 --> 00:00:55.130 align:middle line:84% We rose our heads only to say, fuck learnedness. 00:00:55.130 --> 00:00:56.990 align:middle line:84% Behavior that could only exist in the mouth 00:00:56.990 --> 00:00:58.120 align:middle line:90% acquired by failure. 00:00:58.120 --> 00:01:00.350 align:middle line:84% To articulate and reform the needle 00:01:00.350 --> 00:01:02.570 align:middle line:84% drawn up into the roof of its suffering. 00:01:02.570 --> 00:01:04.220 align:middle line:90% We weren't going back-- 00:01:04.220 --> 00:01:07.460 align:middle line:84% not one night, we said-- to that disease-shaded landscape. 00:01:07.460 --> 00:01:09.860 align:middle line:84% That puss in sheep's clothing, though desire 00:01:09.860 --> 00:01:13.420 align:middle line:90% was tied to its awning. 00:01:13.420 --> 00:01:15.580 align:middle line:90% Context required no record. 00:01:15.580 --> 00:01:17.680 align:middle line:90% Met us squarely in our eyes. 00:01:17.680 --> 00:01:18.970 align:middle line:90% The eye that awned. 00:01:18.970 --> 00:01:20.440 align:middle line:90% The loud, immeasurable eye. 00:01:20.440 --> 00:01:22.180 align:middle line:84% The eye hugging the feet of our failure 00:01:22.180 --> 00:01:25.330 align:middle line:84% required a trust that could only be offered between streams. 00:01:25.330 --> 00:01:29.250 align:middle line:84% Or given in the rivers that fed themselves. 00:01:29.250 --> 00:01:31.740 align:middle line:84% We woke with dreams pulled through a fine, intelligent 00:01:31.740 --> 00:01:32.670 align:middle line:90% point. 00:01:32.670 --> 00:01:36.670 align:middle line:84% This thorn was a fundamental characteristic of our sides. 00:01:36.670 --> 00:01:39.310 align:middle line:84% History was outlined in our ruin of stitches, 00:01:39.310 --> 00:01:43.900 align:middle line:84% re-scaled specifically as though we weren't there. 00:01:43.900 --> 00:01:46.510 align:middle line:84% Language returned through the appearance of clouds. 00:01:46.510 --> 00:01:47.290 align:middle line:90% Furtive. 00:01:47.290 --> 00:01:49.600 align:middle line:84% Deeply shadowed and offering nothing. 00:01:49.600 --> 00:01:51.040 align:middle line:90% We stood adjacent. 00:01:51.040 --> 00:01:53.380 align:middle line:90% Looked up and rubbed our arms. 00:01:53.380 --> 00:01:55.810 align:middle line:84% While not offensive, it's inappropriate to remain 00:01:55.810 --> 00:01:57.610 align:middle line:84% in the procession and offer nothing. 00:01:57.610 --> 00:01:58.960 align:middle line:90% Not shade nor rosettes. 00:01:58.960 --> 00:02:00.550 align:middle line:90% No part in restoring the fence. 00:02:00.550 --> 00:02:03.940 align:middle line:90% Neither the most obvious: rain. 00:02:03.940 --> 00:02:05.968 align:middle line:84% We should start a committee someone said. 00:02:05.968 --> 00:02:07.510 align:middle line:84% THE COMMITTEE TO COMBAT LANGUAGE THAT 00:02:07.510 --> 00:02:10.210 align:middle line:84% DOES NOT OFFER RAIN, of which the goals and bylaws 00:02:10.210 --> 00:02:14.870 align:middle line:84% would be as erotic as they were without a single tooth. 00:02:14.870 --> 00:02:17.810 align:middle line:84% We woke to vandalism relative to the committee. 00:02:17.810 --> 00:02:20.755 align:middle line:84% Someones it seemed were, in their quiet nighttime way, 00:02:20.755 --> 00:02:22.880 align:middle line:84% against what they interpreted as the public shaming 00:02:22.880 --> 00:02:25.010 align:middle line:90% of non-productive existence. 00:02:25.010 --> 00:02:29.380 align:middle line:84% For the first time in memory, accountability was on the table. 00:02:29.380 --> 00:02:31.140 align:middle line:90% It was bulbous and moist. 00:02:31.140 --> 00:02:33.120 align:middle line:84% It absorbed all of the blame, which 00:02:33.120 --> 00:02:36.300 align:middle line:84% it absorbed all of the blame which was not at all called for. 00:02:36.300 --> 00:02:39.150 align:middle line:84% It said, I have introduced ideological context. 00:02:39.150 --> 00:02:40.620 align:middle line:90% I ruined the stitches. 00:02:40.620 --> 00:02:41.940 align:middle line:90% I don't feel seen. 00:02:41.940 --> 00:02:43.560 align:middle line:90% I'm absorbed by failure. 00:02:43.560 --> 00:02:45.390 align:middle line:84% I drink from the river and feel nothing. 00:02:45.390 --> 00:02:46.410 align:middle line:90% My gaze depletes. 00:02:46.410 --> 00:02:49.790 align:middle line:84% It is me to whom you owe great honor." 00:02:49.790 --> 00:02:54.000 align:middle line:90%