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Late Morning.

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I was still in my
white nightgown.

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And James had drawn me
down to sit on his lap.

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And I was looking
over his shoulder

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through the hall
into the living room.

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And he was looking over
my shoulder into the trees

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through the open
window, I imagine.

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And we sat like that
for a few minutes

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without saying much of anything.

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My cheek pressed lightly
against his cheek.

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And my brother John was dead.

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Suddenly, close and
distinct, it seemed finished.

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As if time were a room I
could gaze clear across.

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Four years since I lifted his
hand from the sheets on his bed

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and it cooled in my hand.

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A little breeze through the
open window, James's warm cheek,

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a brightness in the windy
trees, as I remember.

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Crumbs and dishes
still on the table.

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And a small glass
bottle of milk,

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and an open jar of raspberry.