WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.885 align:middle line:84% The cover of this book is actually my dad's lighter. 00:00:02.885 --> 00:00:04.860 align:middle line:84% I mean, it's a photo of my dad's lighter. 00:00:04.860 --> 00:00:06.180 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:06.180 --> 00:00:08.520 align:middle line:84% I had a friend take it, and I kind of-- 00:00:08.520 --> 00:00:09.210 align:middle line:90% It's broken? 00:00:09.210 --> 00:00:09.750 align:middle line:90% What's that? 00:00:09.750 --> 00:00:10.560 align:middle line:90% It's broken? 00:00:10.560 --> 00:00:11.890 align:middle line:90% It's broken. 00:00:11.890 --> 00:00:13.350 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:13.350 --> 00:00:15.540 align:middle line:84% Right now, it's on my mantle in my house. 00:00:15.540 --> 00:00:17.400 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:17.400 --> 00:00:20.100 align:middle line:90% How are we doing on time? 00:00:20.100 --> 00:00:20.988 align:middle line:90% Did I start at 7:00? 00:00:20.988 --> 00:00:21.780 align:middle line:90% You're doing great. 00:00:21.780 --> 00:00:22.945 align:middle line:90% Good Lord. 00:00:22.945 --> 00:00:23.445 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:23.445 --> 00:00:24.420 align:middle line:90% Yeah, all right. 00:00:24.420 --> 00:00:29.020 align:middle line:90% 00:00:29.020 --> 00:00:29.930 align:middle line:90% It was 7:15. 00:00:29.930 --> 00:00:30.430 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:30.430 --> 00:00:31.900 align:middle line:90% Was it 7:15? 00:00:31.900 --> 00:00:32.810 align:middle line:90% Thank God. 00:00:32.810 --> 00:00:33.310 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:33.310 --> 00:00:33.810 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:00:33.810 --> 00:00:36.850 align:middle line:84% I looked at the clock and thought, oh no. 00:00:36.850 --> 00:00:37.600 align:middle line:90% OK, perfect. 00:00:37.600 --> 00:00:40.270 align:middle line:90% Thanks for telling me that. 00:00:40.270 --> 00:00:41.680 align:middle line:90% This one's called "Pomelos." 00:00:41.680 --> 00:00:42.880 align:middle line:90% Do you know that fruit? 00:00:42.880 --> 00:00:44.020 align:middle line:90% Pomelo? 00:00:44.020 --> 00:00:46.330 align:middle line:84% I think it might actually be pronounced "pom-uh-low." 00:00:46.330 --> 00:00:49.075 align:middle line:84% When I was doing the audio book for this book, 00:00:49.075 --> 00:00:53.025 align:middle line:84% the director was like, I don't think that's what it's called. 00:00:53.025 --> 00:00:54.400 align:middle line:84% But she was really cool about it. 00:00:54.400 --> 00:00:56.233 align:middle line:84% She was like, you pronounce it how you want. 00:00:56.233 --> 00:00:58.390 align:middle line:90% And so, I will-- 00:00:58.390 --> 00:00:59.260 align:middle line:90% "puh-meh-lows." 00:00:59.260 --> 00:01:01.840 align:middle line:84% And this is sort of after a Natasha Trethewey poem 00:01:01.840 --> 00:01:03.860 align:middle line:84% that I really love called "Myth." 00:01:03.860 --> 00:01:06.100 align:middle line:84% It's a mirror poem, and it starts-- 00:01:06.100 --> 00:01:08.650 align:middle line:84% the lines go in one direction, and then they 00:01:08.650 --> 00:01:11.320 align:middle line:84% go in reverse order until the end of the poem. 00:01:11.320 --> 00:01:13.060 align:middle line:90% And it starts with the line-- 00:01:13.060 --> 00:01:15.220 align:middle line:84% "I was asleep while you were dying." 00:01:15.220 --> 00:01:16.660 align:middle line:90% And it's about her mom. 00:01:16.660 --> 00:01:20.800 align:middle line:84% And so this poem starts, sort of, with a line like that. 00:01:20.800 --> 00:01:23.740 align:middle line:84% "I think I was in California when you died. 00:01:23.740 --> 00:01:25.640 align:middle line:84% There was a window, the cop said, 00:01:25.640 --> 00:01:28.000 align:middle line:90% But we can't be sure. 00:01:28.000 --> 00:01:28.930 align:middle line:90% Maybe it happened 00:01:28.930 --> 00:01:31.330 align:middle line:84% While K and I were having sneaky sex 00:01:31.330 --> 00:01:33.850 align:middle line:84% Then linking up with friends we missed, friends 00:01:33.850 --> 00:01:35.760 align:middle line:90% from when we used to live there. 00:01:35.760 --> 00:01:37.470 align:middle line:84% Or while getting hammered touring 00:01:37.470 --> 00:01:38.610 align:middle line:90% Our old spots-- 00:01:38.610 --> 00:01:39.900 align:middle line:90% Baggy's, Heart 00:01:39.900 --> 00:01:42.540 align:middle line:84% And Dagger, Eli's Mile High-- and we tried 00:01:42.540 --> 00:01:44.520 align:middle line:84% To call it, but when we got back, 00:01:44.520 --> 00:01:46.290 align:middle line:84% The neighbors were still dancing in their 00:01:46.290 --> 00:01:48.510 align:middle line:84% Halloween best so we started swigging 00:01:48.510 --> 00:01:51.270 align:middle line:84% From a plastic handle and sharing cigs 00:01:51.270 --> 00:01:53.490 align:middle line:84% And shout-singing Baby's black balloon 00:01:53.490 --> 00:01:54.510 align:middle line:90% Makes her fly. 00:01:54.510 --> 00:01:56.590 align:middle line:90% Maybe then. 00:01:56.590 --> 00:01:57.090 align:middle line:90% Or when 00:01:57.090 --> 00:01:59.190 align:middle line:84% A bearded man in sequins piggybacked 00:01:59.190 --> 00:02:02.040 align:middle line:84% Our friend and we reached on tiptoe 00:02:02.040 --> 00:02:11.370 align:middle line:84% To pull ripe pomelos from the dark--" 00:02:11.370 --> 00:02:12.880 align:middle line:84% It's weird how important that feels. 00:02:12.880 --> 00:02:13.380 align:middle line:90% You know? 00:02:13.380 --> 00:02:16.827 align:middle line:84% Where was I exactly when he died? 00:02:16.827 --> 00:02:18.660 align:middle line:84% And you don't get to know in a lot of cases. 00:02:18.660 --> 00:02:18.870 align:middle line:90% Right? 00:02:18.870 --> 00:02:19.890 align:middle line:90% You don't get to know. 00:02:19.890 --> 00:02:22.610 align:middle line:90% But it nags at you.