WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.850 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.850 --> 00:00:06.070 align:middle line:84% Thank you Lois Shelton and your great Poetry 00:00:06.070 --> 00:00:11.740 align:middle line:90% Center for bringing me here. 00:00:11.740 --> 00:00:17.230 align:middle line:84% A poet I've always admired, Robert Frost, 00:00:17.230 --> 00:00:20.860 align:middle line:84% once gave some advice to anybody fool 00:00:20.860 --> 00:00:23.330 align:middle line:84% enough to stand up in public and say, hey, 00:00:23.330 --> 00:00:24.400 align:middle line:90% look at me I'm a poet. 00:00:24.400 --> 00:00:30.670 align:middle line:84% Frost said, you want to start by reading something funny so 00:00:30.670 --> 00:00:34.810 align:middle line:84% that the people won't think that you take yourself 00:00:34.810 --> 00:00:40.390 align:middle line:84% too seriously, but I'm not going to do that tonight. 00:00:40.390 --> 00:00:43.600 align:middle line:84% I have never had this problem somehow, 00:00:43.600 --> 00:00:47.390 align:middle line:84% but my problem is usually the opposite. 00:00:47.390 --> 00:00:51.550 align:middle line:84% I have trouble persuading anybody that I'm serious. 00:00:51.550 --> 00:00:57.580 align:middle line:84% And I guess some of the confusion in my own head 00:00:57.580 --> 00:01:00.280 align:middle line:84% comes from the fact that I really 00:01:00.280 --> 00:01:06.880 align:middle line:84% don't know the difference between so-called light verse 00:01:06.880 --> 00:01:09.430 align:middle line:90% and serious poetry. 00:01:09.430 --> 00:01:12.760 align:middle line:84% I've always liked the kind of poetry 00:01:12.760 --> 00:01:18.280 align:middle line:84% in which seriousness and levity are 00:01:18.280 --> 00:01:19.930 align:middle line:90% kind of all mixed up together. 00:01:19.930 --> 00:01:26.830 align:middle line:84% Poems like Andrew Marvell's "To His Coy Mistress": 00:01:26.830 --> 00:01:29.410 align:middle line:84% had we but world enough and time. 00:01:29.410 --> 00:01:36.850 align:middle line:84% That funny poem, which is also so moving and touching. 00:01:36.850 --> 00:01:41.950 align:middle line:84% And in humor, my touchstone for humor 00:01:41.950 --> 00:01:47.920 align:middle line:84% has always been that scene at the start of Charles Chaplin's 00:01:47.920 --> 00:01:53.050 align:middle line:84% classic film Limelight, which if you 00:01:53.050 --> 00:01:58.150 align:middle line:84% happen to recall it shows Charlie Chaplin as a broken 00:01:58.150 --> 00:02:02.290 align:middle line:84% down vaudeville hoofer living in a ratty 00:02:02.290 --> 00:02:04.750 align:middle line:90% boarding house in London. 00:02:04.750 --> 00:02:10.570 align:middle line:84% And the opening scene shows Claire Bloom 00:02:10.570 --> 00:02:14.620 align:middle line:84% playing a young actress who in despair 00:02:14.620 --> 00:02:17.680 align:middle line:84% because she can't get parts on stage 00:02:17.680 --> 00:02:20.320 align:middle line:90% has decided to end it all. 00:02:20.320 --> 00:02:24.850 align:middle line:84% And she's sniffing the gas from the gas jet 00:02:24.850 --> 00:02:27.760 align:middle line:90% trying to take her own life. 00:02:27.760 --> 00:02:31.930 align:middle line:84% Chaplin comes home drunk, but the camera 00:02:31.930 --> 00:02:34.700 align:middle line:84% shows him coming in the front door. 00:02:34.700 --> 00:02:39.310 align:middle line:84% And the first thing he does he sniffs 00:02:39.310 --> 00:02:44.620 align:middle line:84% and he smells the gas from Claire Bloom's suicide attempt. 00:02:44.620 --> 00:02:51.730 align:middle line:84% And he looks at his shoe to see if he stepped on something. 00:02:51.730 --> 00:02:57.010 align:middle line:84% And that to me is a great moment in movies. 00:02:57.010 --> 00:03:01.220 align:middle line:84% You don't know whether to laugh or cry. 00:03:01.220 --> 00:03:09.020 align:middle line:84% The fact of Chaplin's looking for dog dirt at the same moment 00:03:09.020 --> 00:03:17.010 align:middle line:84% that a life is at stake leaves you in a curious suspense. 00:03:17.010 --> 00:03:23.390 align:middle line:84% It is this kind of I don't know what to call it, is it humor? 00:03:23.390 --> 00:03:26.190 align:middle line:90% Whatever it is I like it. 00:03:26.190 --> 00:03:29.330 align:middle line:84% And I think that is part of my problem. 00:03:29.330 --> 00:03:37.520 align:middle line:84% Well, rather than run on about this problem in the abstract, 00:03:37.520 --> 00:03:44.660 align:middle line:84% I'd like to read you a few poems, some early, some late. 00:03:44.660 --> 00:03:47.300 align:middle line:84% This is an early one that may illustrate 00:03:47.300 --> 00:03:48.540 align:middle line:90% what I'm talking about. 00:03:48.540 --> 00:03:51.500 align:middle line:90% It's called "First Confession." 00:03:51.500 --> 00:03:57.110 align:middle line:84% And it is a memory of a Roman Catholic boyhood in Dover, New 00:03:57.110 --> 00:04:01.880 align:middle line:84% Jersey, when at the belated age of 12 00:04:01.880 --> 00:04:08.720 align:middle line:84% I made my first holy communion and first confession. 00:04:08.720 --> 00:04:13.640 align:middle line:84% In those days, confessing your sins to the priest 00:04:13.640 --> 00:04:19.100 align:middle line:84% was a matter of squatting in a dark confession booth 00:04:19.100 --> 00:04:25.490 align:middle line:84% and telling this terrifying presence 00:04:25.490 --> 00:04:29.900 align:middle line:84% all these dirty little secrets that you had saved up 00:04:29.900 --> 00:04:31.650 align:middle line:90% all your life. 00:04:31.650 --> 00:04:35.540 align:middle line:84% And I knew that in the darkness sitting 00:04:35.540 --> 00:04:39.410 align:middle line:84% there to listen to my dirty little secrets 00:04:39.410 --> 00:04:43.880 align:middle line:84% was Father Mahoney, the most terrifying looking 00:04:43.880 --> 00:04:46.410 align:middle line:90% priest I had ever seen. 00:04:46.410 --> 00:04:52.160 align:middle line:84% Now Father Mahoney had had some kind of liver trouble 00:04:52.160 --> 00:04:56.160 align:middle line:84% so that all his hair had fallen out, 00:04:56.160 --> 00:05:02.180 align:middle line:84% leaving his bald head all sort of pock marked and cratered 00:05:02.180 --> 00:05:05.360 align:middle line:90% like the surface of the moon. 00:05:05.360 --> 00:05:09.330 align:middle line:84% And when you knelt down in the dark, 00:05:09.330 --> 00:05:13.970 align:middle line:84% in the confession box to spill your sins, 00:05:13.970 --> 00:05:20.000 align:middle line:84% you saw Father Mahoney's bald pocked head leaning down 00:05:20.000 --> 00:05:22.130 align:middle line:90% to hear your confession. 00:05:22.130 --> 00:05:26.120 align:middle line:84% It was as if the moon or some planet 00:05:26.120 --> 00:05:29.930 align:middle line:84% was bending down to listen to you. 00:05:29.930 --> 00:05:34.670 align:middle line:84% Oh, it was just an overwhelming thing. 00:05:34.670 --> 00:05:39.380 align:middle line:84% Well, all that is in the poem, so here it is. 00:05:39.380 --> 00:05:41.120 align:middle line:90% First confession. 00:05:41.120 --> 00:05:44.870 align:middle line:84% It's got the kid me creeping timidly 00:05:44.870 --> 00:05:50.350 align:middle line:84% down the aisle of the church toward the confession box. 00:05:50.350 --> 00:05:53.170 align:middle line:90% Blood thudded in my ears. 00:05:53.170 --> 00:05:58.750 align:middle line:84% I scuffed, steps stubborn, toward the telltale booth 00:05:58.750 --> 00:06:02.320 align:middle line:84% beyond whose curtained portal coughed 00:06:02.320 --> 00:06:06.460 align:middle line:90% the robed repositor of truth. 00:06:06.460 --> 00:06:09.250 align:middle line:84% Oh, I should just bust in a moment 00:06:09.250 --> 00:06:17.620 align:middle line:84% here and explain that the robed repositor of truth-- 00:06:17.620 --> 00:06:21.220 align:middle line:84% that this is just a highfalutin way of saying the priest. 00:06:21.220 --> 00:06:24.100 align:middle line:90% 00:06:24.100 --> 00:06:26.800 align:middle line:84% This is an old poem, very early poem. 00:06:26.800 --> 00:06:29.290 align:middle line:84% I think if I were writing it today, 00:06:29.290 --> 00:06:33.940 align:middle line:84% I wouldn't say the robed repositor of truth. 00:06:33.940 --> 00:06:39.700 align:middle line:84% I would figure out a way to say the priest. 00:06:39.700 --> 00:06:45.040 align:middle line:84% But I find as maybe you poets have 00:06:45.040 --> 00:06:50.140 align:middle line:84% found that when a poem gets past a certain age, 00:06:50.140 --> 00:06:53.620 align:middle line:84% it's hard to go back and fix it up 00:06:53.620 --> 00:06:57.430 align:middle line:84% without lousing up what little bit of good may still be in it. 00:06:57.430 --> 00:07:00.970 align:middle line:84% So anyway, the robed repositor of truth and he 00:07:00.970 --> 00:07:04.480 align:middle line:84% opens the slat of his confession box. 00:07:04.480 --> 00:07:10.420 align:middle line:84% The slat shot back, the universe bowed down his cratered dome 00:07:10.420 --> 00:07:15.010 align:middle line:84% to hear enumerated my each curse. 00:07:15.010 --> 00:07:21.640 align:middle line:84% The sip snatched from my old man's beer, my sloth, pride, 00:07:21.640 --> 00:07:25.480 align:middle line:84% envy, lechery, the dime held back 00:07:25.480 --> 00:07:30.400 align:middle line:84% from Peter's pants with which I bribed my girl 00:07:30.400 --> 00:07:34.970 align:middle line:84% to pee that I might spy her instruments. 00:07:34.970 --> 00:07:37.600 align:middle line:90% 00:07:37.600 --> 00:07:40.900 align:middle line:90% Now comes the judgment. 00:07:40.900 --> 00:07:44.380 align:middle line:84% Hovering scale pans, when I've done, 00:07:44.380 --> 00:07:47.920 align:middle line:84% settle their balance slow as silt, 00:07:47.920 --> 00:07:51.670 align:middle line:84% while in the restless dark I burned bright 00:07:51.670 --> 00:07:57.250 align:middle line:84% as a brimstone in my guilt, until as one feeds birds, 00:07:57.250 --> 00:08:02.350 align:middle line:84% he told: seven Our Fathers and one Hail, which 00:08:02.350 --> 00:08:09.040 align:middle line:84% I, to double scrub my soul, intoned twice at the altar rail 00:08:09.040 --> 00:08:16.270 align:middle line:84% where Sunday in seraphic light I knelt as full of grace as most 00:08:16.270 --> 00:08:21.490 align:middle line:84% and stuck my tongue out at the priest, a fresh roost 00:08:21.490 --> 00:08:24.000 align:middle line:90% for the Holy Ghost. 00:08:24.000 --> 00:08:34.000 align:middle line:90%