WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.940 align:middle line:90% "March 3." 00:00:01.940 --> 00:00:14.020 align:middle line:84% I'm kind of-- and we had a snowstorm in New York 00:00:14.020 --> 00:00:16.630 align:middle line:84% that the mayor was not ready for, 00:00:16.630 --> 00:00:19.190 align:middle line:84% and the whole city got completely shut down. 00:00:19.190 --> 00:00:22.300 align:middle line:84% And so the next time we were going to have a snowstorm, 00:00:22.300 --> 00:00:24.260 align:middle line:90% they were like, I got this. 00:00:24.260 --> 00:00:27.250 align:middle line:84% And so they shut the city down, and we didn't have a snowstorm. 00:00:27.250 --> 00:00:28.900 align:middle line:90% It was so great. 00:00:28.900 --> 00:00:30.730 align:middle line:84% So I was teaching at NYU at the time, 00:00:30.730 --> 00:00:35.140 align:middle line:84% and I had my snow day in bed by myself writing a poem. 00:00:35.140 --> 00:00:38.030 align:middle line:90% "The quick exchange of email"-- 00:00:38.030 --> 00:00:39.130 align:middle line:90% Think maybe that. 00:00:39.130 --> 00:00:42.850 align:middle line:84% "The quick exchange of emails between the former lovers 00:00:42.850 --> 00:00:44.650 align:middle line:90% creates a soft hole in the day. 00:00:44.650 --> 00:00:46.810 align:middle line:84% And the night before, it snowed, but it 00:00:46.810 --> 00:00:49.120 align:middle line:84% was supposed to be larger, and everything's closed. 00:00:49.120 --> 00:00:52.510 align:middle line:84% The streets are wet, I hear, and I won't step into them. 00:00:52.510 --> 00:00:55.510 align:middle line:84% One poem for today, but no-- many little ones. 00:00:55.510 --> 00:00:57.950 align:middle line:84% The coffee slightly altered is good. 00:00:57.950 --> 00:01:00.460 align:middle line:84% My bare feet in bed, ready to work. 00:01:00.460 --> 00:01:03.890 align:middle line:84% I work in the field of dreams where I've met you many times. 00:01:03.890 --> 00:01:05.650 align:middle line:84% I feel closer to you this morning, 00:01:05.650 --> 00:01:08.980 align:middle line:84% and probably last night, when the doorway slightly 00:01:08.980 --> 00:01:12.710 align:middle line:84% opened because of our notes, was flooded with ghosts. 00:01:12.710 --> 00:01:15.440 align:middle line:84% When I was young, I liked the emptiness of my home. 00:01:15.440 --> 00:01:19.280 align:middle line:84% And now, like it or not, there is this sweet accumulation. 00:01:19.280 --> 00:01:22.580 align:middle line:84% The cameras, all that everything I do can't touch the single 00:01:22.580 --> 00:01:24.830 align:middle line:84% statement of breeze, and loss, and quaint beauty-- 00:01:24.830 --> 00:01:26.850 align:middle line:84% things I've had since I was a kid-- 00:01:26.850 --> 00:01:28.340 align:middle line:90% the secrets of my home. 00:01:28.340 --> 00:01:31.220 align:middle line:84% I feel condemned by this chaotic museum of stuff. 00:01:31.220 --> 00:01:34.070 align:middle line:84% And yes, I desire to photograph it-- the bowls you like, 00:01:34.070 --> 00:01:36.530 align:middle line:84% the cup you touched, and me in a t-shirt that 00:01:36.530 --> 00:01:39.640 align:middle line:84% used to be special, and now I carouse in bed with myself 00:01:39.640 --> 00:01:40.140 align:middle line:90% in it. 00:01:40.140 --> 00:01:43.130 align:middle line:84% I don't know if this will ever be different, 00:01:43.130 --> 00:01:45.860 align:middle line:90% and that is the feeling of this. 00:01:45.860 --> 00:01:48.680 align:middle line:84% I feel like a tree-- the invisible parts of friendship, 00:01:48.680 --> 00:01:51.020 align:middle line:84% and drinking together, and mourning. 00:01:51.020 --> 00:01:54.080 align:middle line:84% One empty wall is the least I can do for myself. 00:01:54.080 --> 00:01:57.620 align:middle line:84% Late at night, I enjoyed the brown pages of a cowboy show. 00:01:57.620 --> 00:02:00.020 align:middle line:84% TV on my lap till practically dawn. 00:02:00.020 --> 00:02:02.570 align:middle line:84% Interesting-- written by a gambler. 00:02:02.570 --> 00:02:04.100 align:middle line:90% Oh, I have so many shows-- 00:02:04.100 --> 00:02:05.180 align:middle line:90% one in Florence. 00:02:05.180 --> 00:02:06.800 align:middle line:84% One day, you were taking a shower. 00:02:06.800 --> 00:02:10.280 align:middle line:84% I think I thought I loved this television because it's 00:02:10.280 --> 00:02:12.680 align:middle line:84% become the way to love the road of becoming. 00:02:12.680 --> 00:02:15.830 align:middle line:84% Is a screen belonging on it in my dream? 00:02:15.830 --> 00:02:18.540 align:middle line:84% The excellent moments-- the man barges in and says, 00:02:18.540 --> 00:02:19.970 align:middle line:90% do you ever think about film? 00:02:19.970 --> 00:02:23.270 align:middle line:84% The poetry of accident haunts like a circus tent 00:02:23.270 --> 00:02:24.320 align:middle line:90% over my days. 00:02:24.320 --> 00:02:26.690 align:middle line:90% And that fades in a new one. 00:02:26.690 --> 00:02:29.060 align:middle line:90% I began to write about dying. 00:02:29.060 --> 00:02:30.890 align:middle line:90% This story ends. 00:02:30.890 --> 00:02:32.540 align:middle line:84% It begins to be part of the plot. 00:02:32.540 --> 00:02:34.460 align:middle line:84% And do I love you for your distance from it, 00:02:34.460 --> 00:02:36.890 align:middle line:84% or could I love you because you are close, 00:02:36.890 --> 00:02:39.420 align:middle line:84% or you're exciting, different, so smart? 00:02:39.420 --> 00:02:40.550 align:middle line:90% I love myself. 00:02:40.550 --> 00:02:44.420 align:middle line:84% The squeaky little voice that says, in here, owning the void 00:02:44.420 --> 00:02:45.530 align:middle line:90% and grooving on it. 00:02:45.530 --> 00:02:47.180 align:middle line:90% Voiceover, you're not so bad. 00:02:47.180 --> 00:02:49.130 align:middle line:90% And then I begin to work. 00:02:49.130 --> 00:02:52.190 align:middle line:84% My dead mother is around my lover, not far. 00:02:52.190 --> 00:02:54.680 align:middle line:84% Keeping you here by not calling anyone-- 00:02:54.680 --> 00:02:56.930 align:middle line:90% is that the tub in which I die? 00:02:56.930 --> 00:02:57.920 align:middle line:90% Weir-dooo. 00:02:57.920 --> 00:02:59.420 align:middle line:90% Woo, woo, woo. 00:02:59.420 --> 00:03:00.440 align:middle line:90% What's that bird? 00:03:00.440 --> 00:03:04.420 align:middle line:84% Because I don't have kids, and this is such a blessing." 00:03:04.420 --> 00:03:06.000 align:middle line:90%