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And it turns out I lied to you,
that was not the last letter.

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See, I do this thing when
I give readings, where

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I try to let the book drive.

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I always say that the
writing knows more than us.

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And I wholeheartedly
believe that.

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I follow the pen, I follow the
energy, I'm just listening.

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And I'm making sure this is
actually the last letter.

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"Dear Diego, in my
dreams we finally find

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a way to get together
and drive to the ocean.

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We bring everything we need.

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We discuss the constellations
of streetlights, and neon signs.

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The boats and books that create
these circuitous archives

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of association.

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I teach you to roll a joint
and you break the bible down,

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while the waves explain
the infinite universe.

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I show you the ways I've
learned to reverse death

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or you teach me how
to talk to the living.

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We write poetry together
in these meetings,

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they happen at the
lip of the continent.

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Every night at the
edge of my dreams,

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between this body and what
lies beyond this place,

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we dance while
oscillating gravity.

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We make many moons.

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I play you all these songs I
keep writing but can't record.

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You forgive me for my
dark days of sinning,

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and I forgive you for thinking
it could be that simple.

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We talk about healing with you
speaking of a wound and a lamb,

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and I try to explain the
many wounds of colonization.

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The ocean punctures our
every sentence with infinity.

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The inky, black, midnight
melds ocean to heaven.

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We swig heavy handed
from the void,

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I tell you about the
many deaths I've died

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and my many afterlives.

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You tell me about the limits
of man, the myth of maturity.

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We talk so long, our words
start to spill out like sand,

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and the sun never
comes up again.

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We keep drinking from the void.

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I tell you how I'm
scared of dying,

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how deep down I keep
forgetting about my body.

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How I can only see
myself in words.

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You tell me about your lack
of body, the empty freedoms

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of purgatory.

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We become synonyms
for one another.

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We talk so long
lightning strikes twice,

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and we become glass on
the last of the coastline.

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The moon looks upon us,
polishing our dreams

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into something resembling a
mirror, only more luminous.

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We talk until the ocean
takes the mountains,

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until the fire and the
flood pass and everything

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grows quiet again.

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We speak in silence
back and forth forming

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a Mobius strip of information.

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Dharma, back and forth.

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Dharma, forever
exclaiming, expounding,

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and examining the
self of no-self,

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the mirror archive of
eternity, the space between us,

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the time before you set foot on
that first boat out of Spain,

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the time before we
both become buried

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by the sand of our
words, all while adorning

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the ineffable, this elastic
eternity of sound and fury

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signifying nothing.

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A warm and empty nothing.

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And eventually, we talk
back and forth so long

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the ocean begins to sink.

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We speak new tongues
of water and wave.

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We keep talking through
the mess of masculinities

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and colonization.

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We keep learning.

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Eventually, we develop
into a language of clouds.

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Now we learn rain.

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We learn the many
realities of water.

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We drift lonely as a
cloud combining molecules

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until there is a consciousness
alive in the atmosphere,

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an awareness of learning and
relearning this commitment

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to sincerity we've always had.

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It continues to warm the
language we're making.

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We talk so long.

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We invent the word eon.

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And you add an 's' and
I laugh an eternity.

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We never stop talking long
enough to figure anything out.

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We let the language grow and
morph into what is needed.

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We dream long enough to sleep
in the deepest of sleeps,

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the sleeps of dreams.

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And it's there that we finally
find each other, Diego.

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It's there that we can rest
in the heart of the process,

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in the seed of the ongoing,
forever learning, untangling,

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rereading, adorning the
infinite in the language

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of our own making.

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And I have this dream
where eventually--"

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[APPLAUSE]

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