WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.730 align:middle line:90% 00:00:04.730 --> 00:00:07.400 align:middle line:84% So my book it opens and it moves through these sections 00:00:07.400 --> 00:00:10.940 align:middle line:84% where I'm really hoping to redefine or to define 00:00:10.940 --> 00:00:14.210 align:middle line:84% some terms that have defined my life. 00:00:14.210 --> 00:00:16.940 align:middle line:84% And that are so much the language of hip hop 00:00:16.940 --> 00:00:19.700 align:middle line:84% and the language of the streets is so beautiful because it 00:00:19.700 --> 00:00:23.420 align:middle line:84% takes these things that exist like trap or like dope 00:00:23.420 --> 00:00:24.830 align:middle line:84% and these are the things that are 00:00:24.830 --> 00:00:28.070 align:middle line:84% so much a part of our lives and our lexicon 00:00:28.070 --> 00:00:31.640 align:middle line:84% and create entirely new meanings for them, right? 00:00:31.640 --> 00:00:35.140 align:middle line:84% And so that's what some of this is hoping to do. 00:00:35.140 --> 00:00:39.370 align:middle line:90% CCDC South Tower, 6th Floor. 00:00:39.370 --> 00:00:42.880 align:middle line:84% "The fourth time you get locked up, nothing comes by surprise. 00:00:42.880 --> 00:00:46.210 align:middle line:84% Not the cop who rips out your piercings or the cold smell 00:00:46.210 --> 00:00:48.310 align:middle line:90% of piss in the holding cell. 00:00:48.310 --> 00:00:50.950 align:middle line:84% You already know how the phones work and who to call. 00:00:50.950 --> 00:00:52.930 align:middle line:90% You know they talk fast. 00:00:52.930 --> 00:00:55.450 align:middle line:84% You've seen sunshine seep through the receiver 00:00:55.450 --> 00:00:57.970 align:middle line:84% and leave a man drenched in his grief. 00:00:57.970 --> 00:00:59.800 align:middle line:84% The fourth time you get locked up, 00:00:59.800 --> 00:01:04.090 align:middle line:84% you might try to pretend it's normal like a long DMV trip. 00:01:04.090 --> 00:01:07.570 align:middle line:84% You might say things like this happens to everyone 00:01:07.570 --> 00:01:09.430 align:middle line:90% who is Black or Brown. 00:01:09.430 --> 00:01:13.330 align:middle line:84% You don't waste time watching the door or pacing for warmth. 00:01:13.330 --> 00:01:15.655 align:middle line:84% You pull your arms inside your shirt and sit. 00:01:15.655 --> 00:01:17.390 align:middle line:84% You know you're going to have to sleep. 00:01:17.390 --> 00:01:19.990 align:middle line:84% You know they're going to keep you at least a week. 00:01:19.990 --> 00:01:25.000 align:middle line:84% The fourth time, you know the slow gray beat of captivity. 00:01:25.000 --> 00:01:27.730 align:middle line:84% You don't learn so well the rhythm is drumming through you 00:01:27.730 --> 00:01:32.110 align:middle line:84% like a pulse, so low you don't feel it, keeping you alive. 00:01:32.110 --> 00:01:34.255 align:middle line:84% You're not picky about food because you 00:01:34.255 --> 00:01:35.710 align:middle line:90% know what choice you have. 00:01:35.710 --> 00:01:38.530 align:middle line:84% You take what you can, trade strawberry cakes 00:01:38.530 --> 00:01:42.280 align:middle line:84% like rose gold bricks and choose coffee, and fruit, and a pill 00:01:42.280 --> 00:01:44.350 align:middle line:90% to help you sleep for a day. 00:01:44.350 --> 00:01:46.052 align:middle line:84% The fourth time they take you, you 00:01:46.052 --> 00:01:48.610 align:middle line:84% know the dry expanse of consciousness 00:01:48.610 --> 00:01:50.650 align:middle line:90% and the oasis of dreams. 00:01:50.650 --> 00:01:52.930 align:middle line:84% You know no one knows why they are here 00:01:52.930 --> 00:01:54.910 align:middle line:90% or when they will be called. 00:01:54.910 --> 00:01:59.890 align:middle line:84% Don't come back as a jinx and never just an empty promise. 00:01:59.890 --> 00:02:02.800 align:middle line:84% You know silence is a word you can keep. 00:02:02.800 --> 00:02:06.130 align:middle line:84% Best to roll it up and quietly toss your blues. 00:02:06.130 --> 00:02:07.900 align:middle line:84% The fourth time they get you, you 00:02:07.900 --> 00:02:10.840 align:middle line:84% know well how society cages good and sick people 00:02:10.840 --> 00:02:14.440 align:middle line:84% and calls it just, how cages feel just like society 00:02:14.440 --> 00:02:16.210 align:middle line:90% to the people who fill them. 00:02:16.210 --> 00:02:18.940 align:middle line:84% We all find a way to live in our prison. 00:02:18.940 --> 00:02:21.220 align:middle line:84% We ignore the meals skipped, scream 00:02:21.220 --> 00:02:25.490 align:middle line:84% in traffic in the shower, scrap flesh for pride and survival. 00:02:25.490 --> 00:02:27.460 align:middle line:90% We spit blood and sacrifice." 00:02:27.460 --> 00:02:36.880 align:middle line:90% 00:02:36.880 --> 00:02:40.020 align:middle line:84% You know CCDC is where they shoot Cops. 00:02:40.020 --> 00:02:44.987 align:middle line:84% They filmed Cops at CCDC and most, not most-- 00:02:44.987 --> 00:02:47.070 align:middle line:84% I don't want to say most, because I don't actually 00:02:47.070 --> 00:02:49.528 align:middle line:84% remember the statistics on this, but I learned at one point 00:02:49.528 --> 00:02:52.020 align:middle line:84% that a lot of the footage you see 00:02:52.020 --> 00:02:53.790 align:middle line:84% of people who are incarcerated is actually 00:02:53.790 --> 00:02:55.890 align:middle line:84% coming from Clark County Jail here 00:02:55.890 --> 00:02:59.070 align:middle line:84% in Las Vegas because they have practices that allow cameras, 00:02:59.070 --> 00:03:01.770 align:middle line:90% and footage, and stuff. 00:03:01.770 --> 00:03:02.530 align:middle line:90% Mad interesting. 00:03:02.530 --> 00:03:04.405 align:middle line:84% If you watch 13th, a lot of the people there, 00:03:04.405 --> 00:03:06.230 align:middle line:90% they're from here. 00:03:06.230 --> 00:03:07.000 align:middle line:90%