WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.910 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.910 --> 00:00:02.594 align:middle line:90% The next step [INAUDIBLE]. 00:00:02.594 --> 00:00:05.250 align:middle line:90% 00:00:05.250 --> 00:00:07.380 align:middle line:90% Oh, excuse me. 00:00:07.380 --> 00:00:08.220 align:middle line:90% The next one is-- 00:00:08.220 --> 00:00:14.700 align:middle line:90% 00:00:14.700 --> 00:00:16.710 align:middle line:84% I went to a funeral of a boy who had 00:00:16.710 --> 00:00:18.870 align:middle line:90% been killed by a blast, and-- 00:00:18.870 --> 00:00:25.356 align:middle line:90% 00:00:25.356 --> 00:00:27.800 align:middle line:90% I don't know where it is. 00:00:27.800 --> 00:00:32.240 align:middle line:90% 00:00:32.240 --> 00:00:33.930 align:middle line:90% I think I know it. 00:00:33.930 --> 00:00:37.220 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:00:37.220 --> 00:00:39.450 align:middle line:90% OK. 00:00:39.450 --> 00:00:42.180 align:middle line:84% And it's funny you being there, and then I 00:00:42.180 --> 00:00:45.450 align:middle line:84% would call home and find out what I actually saw 00:00:45.450 --> 00:00:48.120 align:middle line:84% and translate it to television back home 00:00:48.120 --> 00:00:50.910 align:middle line:90% and what they chose to show. 00:00:50.910 --> 00:00:53.220 align:middle line:84% And they showed a scene from this funeral, 00:00:53.220 --> 00:00:56.760 align:middle line:84% and it was just a very sedate thing. 00:00:56.760 --> 00:00:58.260 align:middle line:84% If you'd been there long enough, you 00:00:58.260 --> 00:01:01.275 align:middle line:84% would see the mother totally lose control. 00:01:01.275 --> 00:01:05.645 align:middle line:90% 00:01:05.645 --> 00:01:07.020 align:middle line:84% You know I hate to do this, but I 00:01:07.020 --> 00:01:09.330 align:middle line:84% am going to try and find it because it's something 00:01:09.330 --> 00:01:11.400 align:middle line:84% that I don't want to screw up, and you guys don't 00:01:11.400 --> 00:01:13.830 align:middle line:90% want me to screw it up, right? 00:01:13.830 --> 00:01:17.250 align:middle line:90% We don't want you to do it. 00:01:17.250 --> 00:01:17.970 align:middle line:90% God. 00:01:17.970 --> 00:01:19.050 align:middle line:90% Where are my E's? 00:01:19.050 --> 00:01:21.750 align:middle line:90% Did somebody take my E's? 00:01:21.750 --> 00:01:22.620 align:middle line:90% How anal is this? 00:01:22.620 --> 00:01:26.190 align:middle line:90% I have this all like in plastic. 00:01:26.190 --> 00:01:28.560 align:middle line:90% Well I think I could do it. 00:01:28.560 --> 00:01:30.690 align:middle line:90% You guys be patient with me. 00:01:30.690 --> 00:01:33.360 align:middle line:90% 00:01:33.360 --> 00:01:36.120 align:middle line:84% The gritty film that CNN will treasure 00:01:36.120 --> 00:01:38.100 align:middle line:90% will show her this way. 00:01:38.100 --> 00:01:40.770 align:middle line:84% A mother, her glazed and bulging eyes 00:01:40.770 --> 00:01:42.210 align:middle line:84% locked in the shimmer that creeps 00:01:42.210 --> 00:01:45.750 align:middle line:84% toward weeping, pudgy body eased into metronome, 00:01:45.750 --> 00:01:48.330 align:middle line:84% the boom and click of her tight new dress shoes 00:01:48.330 --> 00:01:52.020 align:middle line:84% giving the bored choir a texture to climb. 00:01:52.020 --> 00:01:54.090 align:middle line:90% Thank God she's not a howler. 00:01:54.090 --> 00:01:58.080 align:middle line:84% This will please the masses who clicked their remotes, perceive 00:01:58.080 --> 00:02:01.170 align:middle line:84% her into their homes over dinners of sticky rice 00:02:01.170 --> 00:02:03.210 align:middle line:90% and saucy chunks of meat. 00:02:03.210 --> 00:02:05.400 align:middle line:84% Calmly boxed and neatly huge, she 00:02:05.400 --> 00:02:08.280 align:middle line:84% is dignity byte, incapable of ruining the family 00:02:08.280 --> 00:02:12.720 align:middle line:84% hour by baring her teeth and demanding what she has lost. 00:02:12.720 --> 00:02:15.300 align:middle line:84% But here, propped sweaty in this tiny church, 00:02:15.300 --> 00:02:18.060 align:middle line:84% we wheeze in the must of closeness and death, 00:02:18.060 --> 00:02:20.550 align:middle line:84% swat away the gorged and sluggish flies 00:02:20.550 --> 00:02:23.940 align:middle line:84% who gossip buzz, whisper in our skin with spindly legs, 00:02:23.940 --> 00:02:26.910 align:middle line:84% dance wildly on the dead boy's nose. 00:02:26.910 --> 00:02:30.240 align:middle line:84% He was 13, grace turning his back to the bomb 00:02:30.240 --> 00:02:31.980 align:middle line:90% just before the blast. 00:02:31.980 --> 00:02:33.750 align:middle line:84% Beneath the thin sheet that covers 00:02:33.750 --> 00:02:35.610 align:middle line:84% the place where his legs should be 00:02:35.610 --> 00:02:38.760 align:middle line:90% there is the rustle of nothing. 00:02:38.760 --> 00:02:42.030 align:middle line:84% Damn those tattered gym shoes and loaded pants legs, 00:02:42.030 --> 00:02:44.850 align:middle line:90% stuffed with paper and sticks. 00:02:44.850 --> 00:02:48.840 align:middle line:84% But his torso is sweet memory, the fuel of mothers. 00:02:48.840 --> 00:02:53.790 align:middle line:84% Ignore the singed eyebrow, the missing cheek. 00:02:53.790 --> 00:02:57.390 align:middle line:84% The fly trapped in the tight nap of hair, 00:02:57.390 --> 00:03:00.132 align:middle line:90% his mother's blistered focus. 00:03:00.132 --> 00:03:01.500 align:middle line:90% Oh God. 00:03:01.500 --> 00:03:03.156 align:middle line:90% I knew this was going to happen. 00:03:03.156 --> 00:03:05.910 align:middle line:90% 00:03:05.910 --> 00:03:08.880 align:middle line:84% The doomed fly trapped in the tight crown of hair, 00:03:08.880 --> 00:03:10.485 align:middle line:90% his mother's blistered focus. 00:03:10.485 --> 00:03:13.440 align:middle line:90% 00:03:13.440 --> 00:03:17.160 align:middle line:84% As the casket is carried away by six boys in identical wingtip 00:03:17.160 --> 00:03:20.730 align:middle line:84% shirts, the mother screams and buckles. 00:03:20.730 --> 00:03:22.770 align:middle line:90% Her hands roar and flail. 00:03:22.770 --> 00:03:24.510 align:middle line:90% Paperback bibles fly. 00:03:24.510 --> 00:03:28.380 align:middle line:84% Her mouth opens broad, silence on-- 00:03:28.380 --> 00:03:31.260 align:middle line:84% Her mouth opens wide and soundless on raw teeth. 00:03:31.260 --> 00:03:33.300 align:middle line:84% Head twisted until neck wails and she 00:03:33.300 --> 00:03:35.790 align:middle line:84% is carried, a squirming X, a woman at 00:03:35.790 --> 00:03:37.980 align:middle line:90% each man, a hand at each foot. 00:03:37.980 --> 00:03:42.750 align:middle line:84% One dry breast popped loose, already a shoe gone. 00:03:42.750 --> 00:03:45.750 align:middle line:84% Already a shoe gone, already a foot gone. 00:03:45.750 --> 00:03:47.100 align:middle line:90% A leg. 00:03:47.100 --> 00:03:51.330 align:middle line:84% Already a leg gone, two legs, a life. 00:03:51.330 --> 00:03:53.220 align:middle line:90% Already her son gone. 00:03:53.220 --> 00:03:55.200 align:middle line:90% The moon following. 00:03:55.200 --> 00:03:59.175 align:middle line:84% Twice stuffing her whole heart with paper, paper and sticks. 00:03:59.175 --> 00:04:08.810 align:middle line:90% 00:04:08.810 --> 00:04:10.970 align:middle line:90% I apologize, guys.