WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.300 align:middle line:90% 00:00:01.300 --> 00:00:01.800 align:middle line:90% "Stop." 00:00:01.800 --> 00:00:06.770 align:middle line:90% 00:00:06.770 --> 00:00:09.290 align:middle line:90% "Not my voice. 00:00:09.290 --> 00:00:10.815 align:middle line:90% It's not in my voice. 00:00:10.815 --> 00:00:11.315 align:middle line:90% Stop. 00:00:11.315 --> 00:00:14.440 align:middle line:90% 00:00:14.440 --> 00:00:16.290 align:middle line:84% I always like to have a little quiet time 00:00:16.290 --> 00:00:19.440 align:middle line:90% after the lunch dishes are-- 00:00:19.440 --> 00:00:24.410 align:middle line:84% And yesterday when we came in here after we ate we didn't-- 00:00:24.410 --> 00:00:26.540 align:middle line:84% We both of us wish you could visit more often, 00:00:26.540 --> 00:00:30.160 align:middle line:90% but we understand how you-- 00:00:30.160 --> 00:00:32.650 align:middle line:84% I see in the mirror that I don't look very presentable, 00:00:32.650 --> 00:00:35.730 align:middle line:90% it's hard at my age to-- 00:00:35.730 --> 00:00:40.910 align:middle line:84% Let me brush my hair for just a minute, I'll do it while-- 00:00:40.910 --> 00:00:44.360 align:middle line:84% Sit there by the window, just push that embroidery-- 00:00:44.360 --> 00:00:45.560 align:middle line:90% No, to the other side. 00:00:45.560 --> 00:00:48.620 align:middle line:90% Let me do it, I don't-- 00:00:48.620 --> 00:00:54.420 align:middle line:84% I sometimes wonder why do I have this mirror in here, I hate-- 00:00:54.420 --> 00:00:56.130 align:middle line:84% Sometimes it feels like there was someone 00:00:56.130 --> 00:00:59.134 align:middle line:90% else who lived my life, and I-- 00:00:59.134 --> 00:01:04.459 align:middle line:84% I had to quit my business school nights those years ago, when-- 00:01:04.459 --> 00:01:07.520 align:middle line:84% In those days, I could copy a new dress in the store window 00:01:07.520 --> 00:01:10.000 align:middle line:90% as soon-- 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:12.520 align:middle line:84% It's as though it all happened to someone else and I 00:01:12.520 --> 00:01:15.280 align:middle line:90% myself haven't gotten-- 00:01:15.280 --> 00:01:18.820 align:middle line:84% I can remember a job interview, it was at the Old City building 00:01:18.820 --> 00:01:22.000 align:middle line:84% so many years ago, there were five-- 00:01:22.000 --> 00:01:25.660 align:middle line:84% I worked for Mr. Collins till you were born, then he-- 00:01:25.660 --> 00:01:28.960 align:middle line:84% Well, that's the way it was in those days, it wasn't like-- 00:01:28.960 --> 00:01:33.010 align:middle line:84% But you don't know how strong a mother's love-- 00:01:33.010 --> 00:01:38.020 align:middle line:84% It puts roots into your own flesh, and you can never-- 00:01:38.020 --> 00:01:42.430 align:middle line:84% Remember the time you hid under my bed, and you said-- 00:01:42.430 --> 00:01:44.590 align:middle line:84% when Gloria and you were only babies, 00:01:44.590 --> 00:01:48.490 align:middle line:84% you know, you came six years after Billy, he-- 00:01:48.490 --> 00:01:49.990 align:middle line:84% Of course, it would have been easier 00:01:49.990 --> 00:01:52.210 align:middle line:84% if things had turned out different for your father 00:01:52.210 --> 00:01:55.120 align:middle line:90% because with three of you to-- 00:01:55.120 --> 00:01:57.310 align:middle line:84% He was a popular man in those days, 00:01:57.310 --> 00:01:59.290 align:middle line:84% could have gone into the upstairs office. 00:01:59.290 --> 00:02:02.600 align:middle line:90% I'm not saying everything was-- 00:02:02.600 --> 00:02:06.360 align:middle line:84% Oh, that was before any of you were born, I don't want-- 00:02:06.360 --> 00:02:10.660 align:middle line:84% But you've come so far, it's wonderful to have-- 00:02:10.660 --> 00:02:14.860 align:middle line:84% Although I can never stop wondering what Billy-- 00:02:14.860 --> 00:02:17.800 align:middle line:84% Who knows, you can't think about-- 00:02:17.800 --> 00:02:22.900 align:middle line:84% Late at night sometimes after your father's asleep, I still-- 00:02:22.900 --> 00:02:26.770 align:middle line:84% We got a letter from a Colonel somebody, but I-- 00:02:26.770 --> 00:02:30.060 align:middle line:84% You know I don't like to talk about the-- 00:02:30.060 --> 00:02:32.730 align:middle line:84% I can't help remembering the going away party for him 00:02:32.730 --> 00:02:35.760 align:middle line:84% when little Gloria gave him those-- 00:02:35.760 --> 00:02:37.830 align:middle line:90% but please let's not-- 00:02:37.830 --> 00:02:40.230 align:middle line:90% stop. 00:02:40.230 --> 00:02:42.690 align:middle line:84% Wouldn't you like to go out see some of your old friends, 00:02:42.690 --> 00:02:44.220 align:middle line:90% are you-- 00:02:44.220 --> 00:02:47.820 align:middle line:84% I have to tell you, I never liked that boy because he-- 00:02:47.820 --> 00:02:52.080 align:middle line:84% No, don't talk about that, I asked you before when-- 00:02:52.080 --> 00:02:53.640 align:middle line:84% I want you to tell me what's happened 00:02:53.640 --> 00:02:56.580 align:middle line:84% to your old friends, Rod and Morris and Phil 00:02:56.580 --> 00:02:58.440 align:middle line:90% and that other boy who-- 00:02:58.440 --> 00:03:01.620 align:middle line:90% No, not Billy's friends. 00:03:01.620 --> 00:03:05.675 align:middle line:84% Your father won't even go visit his grave, but I-- 00:03:05.675 --> 00:03:07.050 align:middle line:84% Remember when we used to take you 00:03:07.050 --> 00:03:09.150 align:middle line:84% with us to that little roadside zoo way 00:03:09.150 --> 00:03:12.600 align:middle line:84% out in Draco County when you were all-- 00:03:12.600 --> 00:03:15.540 align:middle line:90% And that family roadhouse near-- 00:03:15.540 --> 00:03:18.660 align:middle line:84% Shuffleboard, we used to play on those long, narrow strips 00:03:18.660 --> 00:03:21.030 align:middle line:90% of cement with-- 00:03:21.030 --> 00:03:25.330 align:middle line:84% I'd drink a beer in those days, but your father-- 00:03:25.330 --> 00:03:27.400 align:middle line:84% Of course, he and I never danced. 00:03:27.400 --> 00:03:30.220 align:middle line:84% And when I thought of my mother saving so hard for my lessons 00:03:30.220 --> 00:03:31.510 align:middle line:90% that she-- 00:03:31.510 --> 00:03:35.890 align:middle line:84% Madam Isabel, everyone called her, but I-- 00:03:35.890 --> 00:03:37.510 align:middle line:84% It used to be a nice part of town 00:03:37.510 --> 00:03:40.660 align:middle line:84% before you know everything got so-- 00:03:40.660 --> 00:03:42.280 align:middle line:84% Why don't you go find your father 00:03:42.280 --> 00:03:45.680 align:middle line:84% and tell him to pick some tomatoes for-- 00:03:45.680 --> 00:03:49.340 align:middle line:84% I used to be a great one for gardening, but he-- 00:03:49.340 --> 00:03:54.220 align:middle line:84% You can't understand, where is Billy-- 00:03:54.220 --> 00:03:58.920 align:middle line:84% I know I should believe, but if he's just 19 forever, then-- 00:03:58.920 --> 00:04:01.500 align:middle line:84% Where's Gloria for that matter and-- 00:04:01.500 --> 00:04:04.830 align:middle line:84% Just drifting for the longest time, and she wouldn't-- 00:04:04.830 --> 00:04:07.320 align:middle line:90% We were afraid she wasn't-- 00:04:07.320 --> 00:04:10.470 align:middle line:84% Most of the time you're not even-- 00:04:10.470 --> 00:04:11.130 align:middle line:90% You will? 00:04:11.130 --> 00:04:13.690 align:middle line:90% Will you promise me you'll-- 00:04:13.690 --> 00:04:14.800 align:middle line:90% I need to take a nap. 00:04:14.800 --> 00:04:18.560 align:middle line:84% When I think about some things, it makes me-- 00:04:18.560 --> 00:04:20.390 align:middle line:84% He's probably sitting on the back porch 00:04:20.390 --> 00:04:21.740 align:middle line:90% by himself waiting for you. 00:04:21.740 --> 00:04:25.310 align:middle line:90% He never-- no, I-- 00:04:25.310 --> 00:04:27.420 align:middle line:90% no, I told you I-- 00:04:27.420 --> 00:04:31.493 align:middle line:84% I've told you, I don't think it helps any to say-- 00:04:31.493 --> 00:04:33.660 align:middle line:84% Well, I'm a little better than your father at least. 00:04:33.660 --> 00:04:36.690 align:middle line:90% Look at him the way he-- 00:04:36.690 --> 00:04:37.710 align:middle line:90% I got over that. 00:04:37.710 --> 00:04:40.890 align:middle line:84% I heard from her again last month, she's-- 00:04:40.890 --> 00:04:44.310 align:middle line:84% He hasn't talked to her, he won't since-- 00:04:44.310 --> 00:04:46.500 align:middle line:90% Why did there have to be-- 00:04:46.500 --> 00:04:49.230 align:middle line:90% I can't even count all the-- 00:04:49.230 --> 00:04:51.270 align:middle line:90% I'm all right, I-- 00:04:51.270 --> 00:04:54.360 align:middle line:84% would put that embroidery back where-- 00:04:54.360 --> 00:04:56.160 align:middle line:90% I'm all right. 00:04:56.160 --> 00:04:59.540 align:middle line:90% If I could just--" 00:04:59.540 --> 00:05:00.440 align:middle line:90% Wow. 00:05:00.440 --> 00:05:01.870 align:middle line:90% Take us out, man. 00:05:01.870 --> 00:05:03.420 align:middle line:90% Oh. 00:05:03.420 --> 00:05:06.000 align:middle line:90%