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So this is the new book vibe.

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We're getting to know
each other right now.

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"Why I so wise?

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It wasn't so much a
doubled consciousness,

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but more akin to a doubled gaze.

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I didn't leave my body
when it would happen,

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but it was like I could see
myself seeing them see me.

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And I must admit, I
got a rise out of it.

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Their feelings of insecurity.

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They were so
obviously intimidated

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by the work they knew
they could never do

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and would never be able to make.

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This is how beasts are made.

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Oum kalthoum sings to the
one I saw before I saw,

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in the body before the body
worries she will tear the veil.

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On the floor of a dimly
lit gym's basketball court,

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I learn Pilates method was
born in a prisoner of war camp.

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Be long, belong,
be long, belong.

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Respectability
was the first form

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of erasure, which is
to say obliteration

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not objectification.

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By the time we are
adults, we have become

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edited versions of ourselves.

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To delete is to deny.

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My editor seems to have
a typo in her name.

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She keeps insisting
it is with a w.

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An emphasis on the w.

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The typo is the correction.

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I have stopped wondering
how we will meet.

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It is easy to leave
what is already gone.

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I know because I have left so
much or else it has left me.

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What is a man
without patriarchy?

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Who decides if the
sacrifice was worth it?

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The one being sacrificed
for, or the one

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doing the sacrificing, or is
it the one being sacrificed?

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If so, how have you participated
in your own objectification.

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This is an actor portrayal.

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Whispers and all
the world's a stage.

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Even my outfits have
become formulaic.

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Exposed minus unexposed
equals some semblance

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of respectability.

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Immigration theory is the
cousin of game theory or grass

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is greener theory.

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May we each live to
see our own death,

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our own imminent irrelevancy.

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I've lived to see many
of my acquaintances

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become commodities.

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LLC, doe see doe, doe see day.

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The grass is synthetic.

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Doe, ray me.

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I grew like a
Himalayan pine tree.

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I no longer watch the news.

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I used to be involved
in making it, pulling

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B-roll from a decade ago to
tell the same story today.

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My parents reported it
to me over the telephone.

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They say, today, they
saw a man fleeing Aleppo

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with a cat that looks like
theirs perched on his shoulder.

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They say when it is
our turn to flee,

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they will carry the
cat in the same way.

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And I think it is easier to live
destruction than to watch it.

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I live the consequences
of that revelation.

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This is the part where we
dream of a pacifist military."

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