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ALISON HATHORNE DEMING: 
And welcome.

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Many of you already know, and
a few of you don't yet know,

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that the sad news is that,
because of health problems,

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Adélia Prado has been unable
to travel up here from Brazil

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for tonight's reading and
the other events this week.

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Nevertheless, her translator
Ellen Watson is here.

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And we intend to
make this a night

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and a week of celebration
and homage to Prado's work.

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And I hope that
we can all manage

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to send collective wishes
for her good health

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and many new poems.

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We will be able to
bring her voice to you

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through a little
audio technology.

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Ellen's brought a tape that
has a few poems read by Adélia

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and, I think, a few
other comments by her,

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so that you'll get a
sense of her voice,

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the music of the
Portuguese, and, hopefully,

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a sense of her spirit
from hearing her voice.

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I'd like to make a
couple of announcements

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about other events
that are happening

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in the community in the
next couple of weeks.

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Many of you would be interested
to know that Chax Press has

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started a new reading
series called Here

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and Now, which will be holding
readings at the Tucson Museum

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of Art.

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The first will be Friday,
October 23, at 8 o'clock.

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And it will be a reading by Tom
Mandel and Beth Baruch Joselow.

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I hope I pronounced
her name right.

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I'm not sure that I have.

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And on Sunday, November
1, at 7 o'clock,

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the Lamplight
Reading Series, which

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meets downtown at Bentley's,
will be sponsoring a reading

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by Charles Alexander
of Chax Press,

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and yours truly, Alison Deming.

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Also, finally, in the
way of announcements,

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we do have The Alphabet in the
Park, Ellen Watson's really

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marvelous translations
of Prado's work,

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for sale after the reading.

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And if you do not know, there
will be a symposium on Friday

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and Saturday, organized
by Maria José Barbosa,

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on the work of Prado and other
Luso-African-Brazilian poetry.

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That symposium is
open to the public.

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So if any of you are interested
and you don't know about it,

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please see me or Isla or
Maria José or Ellen after

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the reading, and we'll give
you more information on that.

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A lot of people have
helped plan this week.

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And even though we don't
have Adélia with us,

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I'd like to thank people who've
put in a particular effort

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and vision to put together
this celebration of her work.

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The Faculty of
Humanities, the Department

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of Spanish and Portuguese,
Tucson Pima Arts Council,

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the Latin American Studies
Center, and the Women's Studies

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program.

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One woman in particular,
for her love of poetry,

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particularly of Prado's, and her
hard work and vision in putting

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together this celebration of
work, is Maria José Barbosa,

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of the Department of
Portuguese and Spanish.

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Even when we learned the
unfortunate news that Adélia

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couldn't be with us, Maria
José found words from another

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Brazilian poet to keep us
in the mood to celebrate.

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And I'll share those
words with you.

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"We have lost our wings
but not our desire to fly."

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As you know, Prado is among
Brazil's most distinguished

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poets.

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She's written five books
of poetry and poetic prose.

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Ellen Watson described
her work this afternoon

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as work in which there are
arms that refuse nothing.

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She's both sensual and
a poet of the mind,

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idiomatic and disconcerting.

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Many of you know that her
countryman, Carlos Drummond de

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Andrade, announced her arrival
as a poet of importance

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in Brazil in his
newspaper column

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by saying that there was a poet
in Minas Gerais who was taking

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dictation from St. Francis.

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In our country, where the
erotic and the spiritual

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are fiercely and
politically polarized,

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Prado's is a poetry we need.

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And we can thank, in
particular, Ellen Watson.

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The work of the
translator, as she says,

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is so often invisible.

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But tonight we
celebrate her, as well,

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for bringing this work to us,
passionate and quirky poems

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that can feed all
of our spirits.

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Please welcome, Ellen Watson.
[APPLAUSE]

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ELLEN DORÉ WATSON: This is intimidating,
I'm very happy to be here.

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I'm very sad not to be here
standing next to Adélia.

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Some 4 and 1/2 years
ago, when my daughter,

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who was named after Adélia--

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Adélia is her godmother--

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was only eight weeks old,
Adélia came to this country

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for the first time.

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And we did a reading
tour through New England

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and New York City.

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And it was truly exciting to
stand side by side with her

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and celebrate the poetry.

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So I'd like to feel like
she's with us tonight.

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The Alphabet in the Park is
made up of selections from

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Adélia's first three
books of poetry.

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And I'm going to
begin with three poems

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from the first book,
which is called

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Bagagem, which means baggage.

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"Seduction"

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"Poetry catches me
with her toothed wheel

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and forces me to
listen, stock-still,

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to her extravagant discourse.

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Poetry embraces me
behind the garden wall.

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She picks up her skirt and
lets me see, loving and loony.

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Bad things happen, I tell her.

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I too am a child of God.

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Allow me my despair.

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Her answer is to draw her
hot tongue across my neck.

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She says "rod" to calm me.

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She says "stone," "geometry."

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She gets careless
and turns tender.

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I take advantage and sneak off.

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I run and she runs faster.

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I yell and she yells louder,
seven demons stronger.

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She catches me.

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Making deep grooves
from tip to toe,

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poetry's toothed wheel
is made of steel."

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"Seductive Sadness Winks at Me."

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"I'm looking for the
saddest thing which,

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once found, will never be lost
again because it will follow

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me, more loyal than a
dog, the ghost of a dog,

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sadness beyond words.

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I have three choices.

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The first, a man, still
alive, calls me to his bedside

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and says, in his softest voice,
pray for me to sleep, will you?

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Or I dream I'm
beating a little boy.

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I beat him and beat him
until my arm is decomposing

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and he's black and blue.

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I beat him some more, and
he laughs without anger.

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He laughs at me who beat him.

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In the last, and I personally
create this horror,

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the siren shrieks, calling a man
who's already dead, and keeps

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shrieking through the night
till dawn and he doesn't return.

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And the siren insists.

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And her voice is human.

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If that's not enough, try this.

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I lift my son by
his sensitive organs

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and he kisses me on the face."

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"Two Ways"

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"From inside geometry, God
looks at me and I am terrified.

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He makes the incubus
descend on me.

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I yell for Mama.

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I hide behind the door where
Papa hangs his dirty shirt.

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They give me sugar
water to calm me.

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I speak the words of prayers.

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But there's another way.

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If I sense he's
peeking at me, I think

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about brands of cigarettes.

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I think about a man in
a red cape going out

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in the middle of the night to
worship the blessed sacrament.

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I think about hand-rolled
tobacco, train whistles,

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a farm woman with a
basket of pequi fruit,

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all aroma and yellow.

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Before he knows it,
there I am in his lap.

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I pull on his white beard.

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He throws me the
ball of the world.

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I throw it back."

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I'm going to read
two more poems.

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And after each reading
of the English,

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I'm going to hope the tape
works and play Adélia reading

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the Portuguese.

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This is called
"Successive Deaths."

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"When my sister died,
I cried a great deal

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and was quickly consoled.

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There was a new dress and
a thicket in the backyard

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where I could exist.

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When my mother died, I
was consoled more slowly.

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There was a newfound uneasiness.

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My breasts were shaped like two
hillocks and I was quite naked.

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I crossed my arms over
them when I cried.

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When my father died, I
was never again consoled.

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I hunted up old
pictures, visited

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acquaintances, relatives
who would remind me

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of how he talked, his
way of pursing his lips

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and of being certain.

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I imitated the way his body
curled in his last sleep

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and repeated the words he
said when I touched his feet.

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Never mind, they're all right.

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Who will console me?

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My breasts fulfilled
their promise

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and the thicket where I
exist is the genuine burning

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bush of memory."

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[AUDIO PLAYBACK]

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As Mortes Sucessivas.

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Quando minha irmã morreu eu chorei muito
e me consolei depressa.

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Tinha um vestido novo
e moitas no quintal aonde eu ia existir.

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Quando minha mãe morreu,
me consolei mais lento.

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Tinha uma perturbação recém-achada:

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meus seios conformavam dois montículos
e eu fiquei muito nua.

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Cruzando os braços sobre eles
é que eu chorava.

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Quando meu pai morreu,
nunca mais me consolei.

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Busquei retratos, procurei conhecidos,

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parentes, que me lembrassem sua fala,

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seu modo de apertar os lábios
e ter certeza.

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Reproduzi o encolhido do seu corpo
em seu último sono

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e repeti as palavras
que ele disse quando toquei seus pés:

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"Deixa, tá bom assim."

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Quem me consolará desta lembrança?

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Meus seios se cumpriram

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e as moitas onde existo
são pura sarça ardente de memória.
[END PLAYBACK]

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Sorry for the
quality of the tape.

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There's a little buzzing.

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But it was not made,
really, to be reproduced.

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This is called
"Concerted Effort."

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"The flat iron was invented
because of eternal life.

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Or else, why bother to
crease the trousers,

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if every ending is
worm-eaten wood,

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bones so clean there's
no need for nausea?

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Which is also why many
physicians hatch soliloquies,

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good governments
govern with justice,

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and I'm wearing a low-cut dress.

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My desire for the handsome
young man lives on.

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It's written on my fingernails
and grows with their roots.

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Can a woman have 20 orgasms?

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I don't worry
about such details.

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I want love, superior love.

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I can tolerate
only seven sorrows.

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One more and I go numb
playing my guitar.

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Cemeteries are holy ground.

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That's why they
attract me, after I

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get over being repelled.

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Even if people insist,
look, there where

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your father was, a splinter
of rotting wood, ribbons

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of cloth and dust.

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He's crossed over, I say.

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This silence is a trick,
sheer expectation.

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It's exactly what hope is
when it doesn't rattle.

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I know all about the burial,
the lapse, the autopsy.

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I realize there are
drowning victims, chopping

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blocks, forged signatures.

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But why do you think
pendulums swing?

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After the grave, the
clock goes on ticking.

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Someone makes coffee.

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Everybody drinks it.

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The boy went blind.

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His mother went crazy the
day after, silly the second.

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And by the third, was
on the front porch

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leafing through a
fashion magazine

00:13:40.130 --> 00:13:44.170 align:middle line:84%
because she wants a cool
dress to scare off the heat.

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I had intended to whine, to
throw up my arms, tempted

00:13:48.180 --> 00:13:50.610 align:middle line:90%
to sin against the Holy Spirit.

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But life won't let me.

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And what I say ends
up brimming with joy."

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Now we've moved into
the second book,

00:14:03.130 --> 00:14:06.900 align:middle line:84%
which is entitled O
Coracao Disparado,

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which I sort of loosely
translated when I used it

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for a title of a bilingual chap
book that Livingston University

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Press put out previous to this
book, as The Headlong Heart,

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which I almost wish I had saved
for this book because it really

00:14:23.400 --> 00:14:27.630 align:middle line:84%
does capture for me a lot about
Adélia's headlong-ness and her

00:14:27.630 --> 00:14:28.860 align:middle line:90%
very, very large heart.

00:14:28.860 --> 00:14:32.130 align:middle line:90%


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This poem is a poem about
writer's block and a very large

00:14:37.080 --> 00:14:38.010 align:middle line:90%
dry spell.

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And one of the wonderful
things that happens sometimes,

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if you're very lucky, you end
up writing a poem about how

00:14:45.210 --> 00:14:48.250 align:middle line:90%
you can't write a poem.

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It's called "Not Even
One Line in December."

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"I never want to desire
death unless out of holiness,

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calling it 'sister,'
as Saint Francis did.

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Almost the 25th
and not one line.

00:15:03.480 --> 00:15:06.720 align:middle line:84%
My hips moving back
and forth, and me not

00:15:06.720 --> 00:15:09.150 align:middle line:90%
trying to contain the wiggle.

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I should have walked
like this my whole life

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if I wanted to
conquer the world.

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Dusky butterflies, trash,
pebbles, soapy water seeping

00:15:19.600 --> 00:15:22.780 align:middle line:84%
from the wall, things
offer themselves up to me

00:15:22.780 --> 00:15:25.210 align:middle line:90%
as I roam the neighborhood.

00:15:25.210 --> 00:15:28.690 align:middle line:84%
A little girl watches from
her tiled porch, and not

00:15:28.690 --> 00:15:30.760 align:middle line:90%
even a line.

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My work is important
because it's all I have.

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In a three-bedroom house
with a tired backyard,

00:15:38.480 --> 00:15:42.410 align:middle line:84%
the soul keeps
moaning, ah, life.

00:15:42.410 --> 00:15:47.420 align:middle line:84%
The idea of suicide appears
and floats past the TV antenna

00:15:47.420 --> 00:15:51.740 align:middle line:84%
but keeps coming back,
and not even a line.

00:15:51.740 --> 00:15:54.260 align:middle line:84%
I need to confess
to a man of God.

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I committed gluttony.

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I craved the details of
other people's frailties.

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And, even though
I have a husband,

00:16:00.830 --> 00:16:03.350 align:middle line:90%
I explored my own body.

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Not even one line in December,
and I was born for this.

00:16:07.970 --> 00:16:11.060 align:middle line:90%
My soul longs to copulate.

00:16:11.060 --> 00:16:13.310 align:middle line:90%
The wise men rush past me.

00:16:13.310 --> 00:16:15.140 align:middle line:90%
The star is in hiding.

00:16:15.140 --> 00:16:17.375 align:middle line:84%
It's raining
torrents in Brazil."

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I don't think I ever played
the second poem that Adélia was

00:16:23.490 --> 00:16:29.520 align:middle line:84%
supposed to read, which
was "Concerted Effort,"

00:16:29.520 --> 00:16:32.040 align:middle line:84%
the one that starts with the
flat iron that was invented

00:16:32.040 --> 00:16:35.880 align:middle line:84%
for eternal life and ends with
"what I say ends up brimming

00:16:35.880 --> 00:16:36.390 align:middle line:90%
with joy."

00:16:36.390 --> 00:16:37.530 align:middle line:90%
So I'll play that now.

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[AUDIO PLAYBACK]

00:16:42.016 --> 00:16:43.536 align:middle line:90%
O Alfabeto no Parque.

00:16:43.536 --> 00:16:46.000 align:middle line:90%
Eu sei escrever. Escrevo...

00:16:46.000 --> 00:16:47.000 align:middle line:90%
[END PLAYBACK]

00:16:47.140 --> 00:16:49.500 align:middle line:90%
I did play it?

00:16:49.000 --> 00:16:52.750 align:middle line:90%

00:16:52.750 --> 00:16:56.380 align:middle line:84%
I didn't read "The Alphabet
in the Park" is what happened.

00:16:56.380 --> 00:16:59.448 align:middle line:84%
Excuse me, I can't
read my own notes.

00:16:59.448 --> 00:17:01.240 align:middle line:84%
I will now read "The
Alphabet in the Park,"

00:17:01.240 --> 00:17:05.740 align:middle line:84%
and then Adélia will read
"The Alphabet in the Park."

00:17:05.740 --> 00:17:07.240 align:middle line:90%
"I know how to write.

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I write letters, shopping
lists, school compositions

00:17:11.500 --> 00:17:13.720 align:middle line:84%
about the lovely walk
to grandmother's farm

00:17:13.720 --> 00:17:17.410 align:middle line:84%
which never existed because
she was poor as Job.

00:17:17.410 --> 00:17:20.290 align:middle line:84%
But I write
inexplicable things too.

00:17:20.290 --> 00:17:21.790 align:middle line:90%
I want to be happy.

00:17:21.790 --> 00:17:23.170 align:middle line:90%
That's yellow.

00:17:23.170 --> 00:17:24.430 align:middle line:90%
And I'm not.

00:17:24.430 --> 00:17:26.170 align:middle line:90%
That's pain.

00:17:26.170 --> 00:17:29.350 align:middle line:84%
Get away from me,
sadness, stammering bell,

00:17:29.350 --> 00:17:33.980 align:middle line:84%
people saying between sobs,
I can't take it anymore.

00:17:33.980 --> 00:17:37.450 align:middle line:84%
I live on something called
the terrestrial globe, where

00:17:37.450 --> 00:17:40.270 align:middle line:84%
we cry more than the
volume of waters called

00:17:40.270 --> 00:17:43.450 align:middle line:84%
the sea, which is where
each river carries

00:17:43.450 --> 00:17:45.530 align:middle line:90%
its batch of tears.

00:17:45.530 --> 00:17:49.300 align:middle line:84%
People go hungry
here, hate each other.

00:17:49.300 --> 00:17:51.460 align:middle line:84%
People are happy
here, surrounded

00:17:51.460 --> 00:17:54.250 align:middle line:90%
by miraculous inventions.

00:17:54.250 --> 00:17:58.270 align:middle line:84%
Imagine a certain Ferris wheel
whose ride makes you dizzy,

00:17:58.270 --> 00:18:01.510 align:middle line:84%
lights, music,
lovers in ecstasy.

00:18:01.510 --> 00:18:02.770 align:middle line:90%
It's terrific.

00:18:02.770 --> 00:18:06.250 align:middle line:84%
On one side the boys,
on the other the girls.

00:18:06.250 --> 00:18:08.560 align:middle line:84%
Me, crazy to get
married and sleep

00:18:08.560 --> 00:18:11.710 align:middle line:84%
with my husband in our little
bedroom in an old house

00:18:11.710 --> 00:18:13.750 align:middle line:90%
with a wood floor.

00:18:13.750 --> 00:18:15.880 align:middle line:84%
There's no way not
to think about death

00:18:15.880 --> 00:18:20.260 align:middle line:84%
among so much deliciousness
and want to be eternal.

00:18:20.260 --> 00:18:24.050 align:middle line:84%
I'm happy and I'm
sad, half and half.

00:18:24.050 --> 00:18:26.500 align:middle line:84%
You take everything too
seriously, said mother.

00:18:26.500 --> 00:18:27.530 align:middle line:90%
Go for a walk.

00:18:27.530 --> 00:18:28.510 align:middle line:90%
Enjoy yourself.

00:18:28.510 --> 00:18:30.510 align:middle line:90%
Take in a movie.

00:18:30.510 --> 00:18:33.210 align:middle line:84%
Mother doesn't realize that
movies are like grandfather

00:18:33.210 --> 00:18:35.610 align:middle line:90%
said, just people going by.

00:18:35.610 --> 00:18:38.880 align:middle line:84%
If you've seen one,
you've seen them all.

00:18:38.880 --> 00:18:42.780 align:middle line:84%
Excuse the expression, but
I want to fall in life.

00:18:42.780 --> 00:18:46.620 align:middle line:84%
I want to stay in the park,
the singer's voice sweetening

00:18:46.620 --> 00:18:48.070 align:middle line:90%
the afternoon.

00:18:48.070 --> 00:18:50.760 align:middle line:90%
So I write afternoon.

00:18:50.760 --> 00:18:54.423 align:middle line:90%
Not the word, the thing."

00:18:54.423 --> 00:18:55.090 align:middle line:90%
[AUDIO PLAYBACK]

00:18:55.241 --> 00:18:58.131 align:middle line:90%
-- cartas, bilhetes, lista de compras,

00:18:58.524 --> 00:19:01.165 align:middle line:84%
composição escolar
narrando o belo passeio

00:19:01.165 --> 00:19:05.029 align:middle line:84%
à fazenda de vovó que nunca existiu
porque ela era pobre como Jó.

00:19:05.677 --> 00:19:11.671 align:middle line:84%
Mas escrevo também coisas inexplicáveis:
quero ser feliz, isto é amarelo.

00:19:12.139 --> 00:19:14.962 align:middle line:90%
E não consigo, isto é dor.

00:19:15.817 --> 00:19:18.795 align:middle line:90%
Vai-te de mim, tristeza, sino gago,

00:19:18.949 --> 00:19:22.950 align:middle line:84%
pessoas dizendo entre soluços:
"Não aguento mais."

00:19:23.399 --> 00:19:26.567 align:middle line:84%
Moro num lugar chamado globo terrestre
onde se chora mais

00:19:26.567 --> 00:19:29.358 align:middle line:84%
que o volume das águas
denominadas mar,

00:19:29.939 --> 00:19:32.965 align:middle line:84%
para onde levam os rios
outro tanto de lágrimas.

00:19:32.965 --> 00:19:36.249 align:middle line:90%
Aqui se passa fome. Aqui se odeia.

00:19:36.680 --> 00:19:40.883 align:middle line:84%
Aqui se é feliz,
no meio de invenções miraculosas.

00:19:41.228 --> 00:19:43.922 align:middle line:90%
Imagine que uma dita roda-gigante

00:19:43.922 --> 00:19:50.857 align:middle line:84%
propicia passeios e vertigens entre luzes,
música, namorados em êxtase.

00:19:51.418 --> 00:19:54.999 align:middle line:84%
Como é bom! De um lado os rapazes,
do outro lado as moças,

00:19:54.999 --> 00:19:57.692 align:middle line:84%
eu louca pra casar
e dormir com meu marido

00:19:57.692 --> 00:20:01.176 align:middle line:84%
no quartinho de uma casa antiga
com soalho de tábua.

00:20:02.113 --> 00:20:07.554 align:middle line:84%
Não há como não pensar na morte,
entre tantas delícias, querer ser eterno.

00:20:07.789 --> 00:20:10.540 align:middle line:90%
Sou alegre e sou triste, meio a meio.

00:20:10.941 --> 00:20:16.075 align:middle line:84%
Levas tudo a peito, diz minha mãe,
dá uma volta, distrai-te, vai ao cinema.

00:20:16.636 --> 00:20:19.580 align:middle line:84%
A mãe não sabe,
cinema é como dizia o avô:

00:20:19.580 --> 00:20:23.091 align:middle line:84%
"Cinema é gente passando.
Viu uma vez, viu todas."

00:20:23.828 --> 00:20:26.296 align:middle line:84%
Com perdão da palavra,
quero cair na vida.

00:20:26.493 --> 00:20:31.046 align:middle line:84%
Quero ficar no parque,
a voz do cantor açucarando a tarde…

00:20:31.216 --> 00:20:36.203 align:middle line:84%
Assim escrevo: tarde.
Não a palavra. A coisa.


00:20:36.775 --> 00:20:38.000 align:middle line:90%
[END PLAYBACK]

00:20:38.000 --> 00:20:43.880 align:middle line:90%


00:20:43.880 --> 00:20:47.650 align:middle line:90%
"A Man Inhabited a House"

00:20:47.650 --> 00:20:52.090 align:middle line:84%
Death's charm, its disastrous
spell, is due to life,

00:20:52.090 --> 00:20:55.120 align:middle line:84%
because heaven is to the
west of my father's house,

00:20:55.120 --> 00:20:59.860 align:middle line:84%
where reside all the riches
of the world and my soul.

00:20:59.860 --> 00:21:01.840 align:middle line:84%
There's a corner
of the room where

00:21:01.840 --> 00:21:05.140 align:middle line:84%
I go to eat secretly,
plate in hand,

00:21:05.140 --> 00:21:08.920 align:middle line:84%
from whence I see Jerusalem,
its sparkling domes,

00:21:08.920 --> 00:21:11.770 align:middle line:90%
the rows of Jericho in bloom.

00:21:11.770 --> 00:21:15.700 align:middle line:84%
From that perspective,
grave diseases look tame,

00:21:15.700 --> 00:21:18.250 align:middle line:84%
my cousin and her
five bastard children

00:21:18.250 --> 00:21:23.950 align:middle line:84%
innocent, gun shots,
alcohol, carelessness,

00:21:23.950 --> 00:21:28.900 align:middle line:84%
even fear settle in a cup of
tea and sink to the bottom,

00:21:28.900 --> 00:21:34.560 align:middle line:84%
thick with compassion and
sugar, indefatigable patience.

00:21:34.560 --> 00:21:37.500 align:middle line:84%
The bruised medicinal
herbs add an aroma

00:21:37.500 --> 00:21:41.520 align:middle line:84%
to the holiness of the struggle
to repeat oh, god, yes.

00:21:41.520 --> 00:21:43.530 align:middle line:90%
Yes, my body is weak.

00:21:43.530 --> 00:21:47.460 align:middle line:84%
Yes, I miss my bicycle,
the way I would dash off

00:21:47.460 --> 00:21:50.550 align:middle line:84%
into the street, flaunting
my invincible dominion

00:21:50.550 --> 00:21:52.590 align:middle line:90%
over gullies and stones.

00:21:52.590 --> 00:21:55.470 align:middle line:90%
Yes, youth affects me this much.

00:21:55.470 --> 00:21:57.870 align:middle line:84%
Yes, and my weariness,
which is nothing

00:21:57.870 --> 00:22:00.480 align:middle line:84%
at all compared to what
you suffered for me,

00:22:00.480 --> 00:22:02.700 align:middle line:90%
oh father on the cross.

00:22:02.700 --> 00:22:05.320 align:middle line:90%
Does the body feel pain?

00:22:05.320 --> 00:22:07.060 align:middle line:90%
This is what I ate.

00:22:07.060 --> 00:22:11.230 align:middle line:84%
Plain rice, beans,
and raw onion.

00:22:11.230 --> 00:22:13.900 align:middle line:84%
But the plate had
a painted border.

00:22:13.900 --> 00:22:17.620 align:middle line:84%
The spoon was tarnishing,
but there were forget-me-nots

00:22:17.620 --> 00:22:19.720 align:middle line:90%
engraved on the handle.

00:22:19.720 --> 00:22:22.060 align:middle line:90%
The body experiences joy.

00:22:22.060 --> 00:22:28.360 align:middle line:84%
The tongue eats it, bright,
hot, unquestionable as suns.

00:22:28.360 --> 00:22:30.130 align:middle line:90%
Do we die?

00:22:30.130 --> 00:22:32.260 align:middle line:84%
I understand
mathematics better."

00:22:32.260 --> 00:22:36.850 align:middle line:90%


00:22:36.850 --> 00:22:41.110 align:middle line:84%
Adélia is a wonderful person
of appetite for lots and lots

00:22:41.110 --> 00:22:41.810 align:middle line:90%
of things.

00:22:41.810 --> 00:22:43.870 align:middle line:84%
And one of the
things I think maybe

00:22:43.870 --> 00:22:46.030 align:middle line:84%
that I start the
introduction in this book

00:22:46.030 --> 00:22:49.970 align:middle line:84%
was my first moment
of meeting her.

00:22:49.970 --> 00:22:51.820 align:middle line:84%
I had gotten a grant
to go to Brazil

00:22:51.820 --> 00:22:54.400 align:middle line:84%
and bring my collected
versions of her poems

00:22:54.400 --> 00:22:56.260 align:middle line:90%
and talk to her about them.

00:22:56.260 --> 00:23:01.180 align:middle line:84%
And I flew to Belo Horizonte
and took a bus to Divínopolis,

00:23:01.180 --> 00:23:04.240 align:middle line:84%
where she lives, and
took a cab to her house.

00:23:04.240 --> 00:23:08.590 align:middle line:84%
And I was tired and dusty and
exhausted, and nervous as hell.

00:23:08.590 --> 00:23:11.650 align:middle line:90%
And she opened the door.

00:23:11.650 --> 00:23:14.350 align:middle line:84%
And in my total nervousness,
I walked in and said,

00:23:14.350 --> 00:23:17.380 align:middle line:90%
I'm starving.

00:23:17.380 --> 00:23:21.070 align:middle line:84%
And as soon as it was out of my
mouth, I was totally mortified.

00:23:21.070 --> 00:23:22.750 align:middle line:84%
And I couldn't
believe I had just

00:23:22.750 --> 00:23:26.050 align:middle line:84%
met this person I had wanted
to meet for five years.

00:23:26.050 --> 00:23:28.750 align:middle line:84%
And it was the best thing
I could possibly have done.

00:23:28.750 --> 00:23:30.550 align:middle line:90%
She said, come on in!

00:23:30.550 --> 00:23:34.300 align:middle line:84%
And there was always beans and
rice in the oven to put on top

00:23:34.300 --> 00:23:34.870 align:middle line:90%
and heat up.

00:23:34.870 --> 00:23:37.870 align:middle line:84%
And she said, the only
other gringa I ever met

00:23:37.870 --> 00:23:40.990 align:middle line:84%
was taking Pepto-Bismol
all the time

00:23:40.990 --> 00:23:42.890 align:middle line:84%
and wouldn't eat
any Brazilian food.

00:23:42.890 --> 00:23:44.980 align:middle line:84%
And I sat down and
ate a humongous plate

00:23:44.980 --> 00:23:45.730 align:middle line:90%
of rice and beans.

00:23:45.730 --> 00:23:48.550 align:middle line:84%
And she said, I know we're
going to get along just fine.

00:23:48.550 --> 00:23:56.640 align:middle line:90%


00:23:56.640 --> 00:23:58.830 align:middle line:90%
This is called "Neighborhood."

00:23:58.830 --> 00:24:02.160 align:middle line:84%
There's a little
food in here too.

00:24:02.160 --> 00:24:04.140 align:middle line:90%
"Neighborhood."

00:24:04.140 --> 00:24:06.000 align:middle line:84%
"The young man has
finished his lunch

00:24:06.000 --> 00:24:08.910 align:middle line:84%
and is picking his
teeth behind his hand.

00:24:08.910 --> 00:24:12.540 align:middle line:84%
The bird scratches in the cage,
showering him with canary seed

00:24:12.540 --> 00:24:14.930 align:middle line:90%
and bird droppings.

00:24:14.930 --> 00:24:18.140 align:middle line:84%
I consider picking
one's teeth unsightly.

00:24:18.140 --> 00:24:21.440 align:middle line:84%
He only went to primary school
and his bad grammar grates

00:24:21.440 --> 00:24:22.490 align:middle line:90%
on me.

00:24:22.490 --> 00:24:26.450 align:middle line:84%
But he's got a man's rump so
seductive I fall desperately

00:24:26.450 --> 00:24:28.340 align:middle line:90%
in love with him.

00:24:28.340 --> 00:24:31.160 align:middle line:84%
Young men like him like
to wolf their food.

00:24:31.160 --> 00:24:33.290 align:middle line:84%
Beef and rice, a
slice of tomato,

00:24:33.290 --> 00:24:35.930 align:middle line:84%
and off to the movies with
that face of invincible

00:24:35.930 --> 00:24:38.540 align:middle line:90%
weakness for capital sins.

00:24:38.540 --> 00:24:42.410 align:middle line:84%
I feel so intimate,
simple, so touchable

00:24:42.410 --> 00:24:46.250 align:middle line:84%
because of love, a slow
samba, because of the fact

00:24:46.250 --> 00:24:48.860 align:middle line:84%
that we're going to
die and a refrigerator

00:24:48.860 --> 00:24:50.600 align:middle line:90%
is a wonderful thing.

00:24:50.600 --> 00:24:53.240 align:middle line:84%
And the crucifix
his mother gave him,

00:24:53.240 --> 00:24:56.660 align:middle line:84%
its gold chain against
that frail chest,

00:24:56.660 --> 00:24:59.510 align:middle line:84%
he scrapes at his teeth
with the toothpick.

00:24:59.510 --> 00:25:01.805 align:middle line:84%
He scrapes at my
strumpet heart."

00:25:01.805 --> 00:25:07.600 align:middle line:90%


00:25:07.600 --> 00:25:16.150 align:middle line:84%
Now I'll break from the poems
that are in this collection

00:25:16.150 --> 00:25:19.000 align:middle line:84%
and read just a little
sampling, just three poems

00:25:19.000 --> 00:25:24.440 align:middle line:84%
from books that came out after
I compiled the selection.

00:25:24.440 --> 00:25:27.860 align:middle line:84%
This is from a book called
O Pelicano, The Pelican.

00:25:27.860 --> 00:25:29.860 align:middle line:84%
And it's called "The
Transcription of the Body."

00:25:29.860 --> 00:25:32.710 align:middle line:90%


00:25:32.710 --> 00:25:35.440 align:middle line:84%
"I was in love with
love and waited for it

00:25:35.440 --> 00:25:38.620 align:middle line:84%
under the trees, a
virgin among the lilies.

00:25:38.620 --> 00:25:40.630 align:middle line:90%
I held fast.

00:25:40.630 --> 00:25:44.170 align:middle line:84%
Now I see it was a
dubious fire I endured,

00:25:44.170 --> 00:25:48.310 align:middle line:84%
the same one endured by the
tough women who came before me.

00:25:48.310 --> 00:25:51.610 align:middle line:84%
And it wasn't demons who
placed a halo over my head

00:25:51.610 --> 00:25:55.480 align:middle line:84%
and infuriated my mother,
my mother long dead,

00:25:55.480 --> 00:25:59.620 align:middle line:84%
my poor mother, her
wedding dress a shroud.

00:25:59.620 --> 00:26:02.290 align:middle line:84%
And it wasn't necessary
to be so pale.

00:26:02.290 --> 00:26:05.560 align:middle line:84%
And it didn't save her
to be so temperate.

00:26:05.560 --> 00:26:10.090 align:middle line:84%
It was all a mistake,
ash hawked as treasure.

00:26:10.090 --> 00:26:12.940 align:middle line:90%
What was in the box was nothing.

00:26:12.940 --> 00:26:17.320 align:middle line:84%
The soul, yes, was murky
and no one could see it."

00:26:17.320 --> 00:26:20.520 align:middle line:90%


00:26:20.520 --> 00:26:24.630 align:middle line:84%
"Forms," this is from a
book called A Faca no Peito,

00:26:24.630 --> 00:26:29.160 align:middle line:84%
Knife in the Breast,
or Knife in the Chest.

00:26:29.160 --> 00:26:31.600 align:middle line:84%
"There's only one way
to say to someone,

00:26:31.600 --> 00:26:34.290 align:middle line:90%
I can't get you out of my head.

00:26:34.290 --> 00:26:37.170 align:middle line:84%
The cello string
vibrates all by itself

00:26:37.170 --> 00:26:38.820 align:middle line:90%
beneath an invisible bow.

00:26:38.820 --> 00:26:43.480 align:middle line:84%
And sins disappear like
mice caught in the act.

00:26:43.480 --> 00:26:45.700 align:middle line:84%
My heart is
astounding because it

00:26:45.700 --> 00:26:50.290 align:middle line:84%
beats and is filled with blood
and is going to stop someday.

00:26:50.290 --> 00:26:52.210 align:middle line:84%
And because it
becomes a pathetic

00:26:52.210 --> 00:26:57.670 align:middle line:84%
drum when you whisper in my ear,
I can't get you out of my head.

00:26:57.670 --> 00:27:01.600 align:middle line:84%
Splotches of light on the
wall, a small vase with three

00:27:01.600 --> 00:27:05.770 align:middle line:84%
plastic roses, everything
in the world is perfect,

00:27:05.770 --> 00:27:07.090 align:middle line:90%
and death is love."

00:27:07.090 --> 00:27:12.820 align:middle line:90%


00:27:12.820 --> 00:27:15.970 align:middle line:84%
And the last one of this group,
also from A Faca no Peito

00:27:15.970 --> 00:27:18.745 align:middle line:84%
is called "The Tenacious
Devil Who Doesn't Exist."

00:27:18.745 --> 00:27:22.850 align:middle line:90%


00:27:22.850 --> 00:27:26.720 align:middle line:84%
"God's glory is greater
than this plane in the sky.

00:27:26.720 --> 00:27:30.410 align:middle line:84%
And his love, which is
where my fear comes from,

00:27:30.410 --> 00:27:34.640 align:middle line:84%
that sea of delights where
airplanes crash and ships are

00:27:34.640 --> 00:27:37.260 align:middle line:90%
wrecked, oh, I know so well.

00:27:37.260 --> 00:27:39.410 align:middle line:84%
And I also know what
a disastrous thing it

00:27:39.410 --> 00:27:45.910 align:middle line:84%
is to be the body of time, to
exist, the intermittent terror.

00:27:45.910 --> 00:27:50.710 align:middle line:84%
Jonathan, if death is love,
then why, if I'm so sure,

00:27:50.710 --> 00:27:52.990 align:middle line:90%
am I still afraid?

00:27:52.990 --> 00:27:56.730 align:middle line:84%
How can a fish be
happy when I'm not?

00:27:56.730 --> 00:28:00.150 align:middle line:84%
Strange, this business
of being human.

00:28:00.150 --> 00:28:03.540 align:middle line:84%
I opened the door one
evening and there was a toad,

00:28:03.540 --> 00:28:06.900 align:middle line:84%
with his throbbing
gullet, a gentle toad.

00:28:06.900 --> 00:28:11.280 align:middle line:84%
And I thought, it's Jonathan
in disguise, come to visit me.

00:28:11.280 --> 00:28:13.470 align:middle line:84%
Even so, I shooed
him away with a broom

00:28:13.470 --> 00:28:16.570 align:middle line:90%
and went to watch television.

00:28:16.570 --> 00:28:19.590 align:middle line:84%
I want to be holy like
Agnes, who flies on the wings

00:28:19.590 --> 00:28:23.910 align:middle line:84%
of beetles, singing to soothe
me with her little girl's voice,

00:28:23.910 --> 00:28:26.340 align:middle line:84%
'Cast off the chains
around your neck,

00:28:26.340 --> 00:28:29.340 align:middle line:90%
oh captive daughter of Zion.'

00:28:29.340 --> 00:28:33.420 align:middle line:84%
Airplanes are scary
because God is in them.

00:28:33.420 --> 00:28:36.540 align:middle line:84%
Embrace me, God, with
your flesh and blood arm.

00:28:36.540 --> 00:28:39.390 align:middle line:84%
Sing with your mouth
to keep me innocent."

00:28:39.390 --> 00:28:47.800 align:middle line:90%


00:28:47.800 --> 00:28:51.110 align:middle line:84%
Finally, some poems from the
third book represented here,

00:28:51.110 --> 00:28:53.890 align:middle line:84%
which is called "Terra
de Santa Cruz," which

00:28:53.890 --> 00:28:55.630 align:middle line:84%
is "The Land of the
Holy Cross," which

00:28:55.630 --> 00:28:59.280 align:middle line:84%
was an early name for
the country of Brazil.

00:28:59.280 --> 00:29:01.350 align:middle line:84%
And if I can get
it straight, I'm

00:29:01.350 --> 00:29:05.920 align:middle line:84%
going to do these
two bilingually.

00:29:05.920 --> 00:29:10.060 align:middle line:84%
The first one is called "Legend
with the Word 'Map.'" And it

00:29:10.060 --> 00:29:14.290 align:middle line:84%
has a sort of a story that
really tickles Adélia.

00:29:14.290 --> 00:29:16.603 align:middle line:90%
I think this was in a--

00:29:16.603 --> 00:29:18.520 align:middle line:84%
it came out in English
in a literary magazine.

00:29:18.520 --> 00:29:20.260 align:middle line:90%
I think it was APR.

00:29:20.260 --> 00:29:24.530 align:middle line:84%
And a letter came to APR to
Adélia and was forwarded--

00:29:24.530 --> 00:29:26.780 align:middle line:84%
without my knowledge because
it was addressed to her--

00:29:26.780 --> 00:29:28.660 align:middle line:90%
was forwarded to Brazil.

00:29:28.660 --> 00:29:32.810 align:middle line:84%
And she got this letter from
an unknown fan in the United

00:29:32.810 --> 00:29:34.373 align:middle line:90%
States, which was in English.

00:29:34.373 --> 00:29:36.040 align:middle line:84%
And she had to look
all over Divinopolis

00:29:36.040 --> 00:29:37.900 align:middle line:84%
to find someone who could
translate it for her.

00:29:37.900 --> 00:29:38.900 align:middle line:90%
And she had this letter.

00:29:38.900 --> 00:29:40.570 align:middle line:84%
She wanted to know
what was in it

00:29:40.570 --> 00:29:44.710 align:middle line:84%
And it was from this
guy who was a map freak.

00:29:44.710 --> 00:29:47.740 align:middle line:84%
And he wrote this incredible
letter about how astounded

00:29:47.740 --> 00:29:50.230 align:middle line:84%
he was to find that there was
someone way down in Brazil

00:29:50.230 --> 00:29:54.010 align:middle line:84%
writing a poem about
how she felt about maps.

00:29:54.010 --> 00:29:56.260 align:middle line:84%
And Adélia was so incredibly
thrilled with this that

00:29:56.260 --> 00:29:58.840 align:middle line:84%
everywhere we went in the US,
this had to be on the list

00:29:58.840 --> 00:30:01.180 align:middle line:90%
of the poems that we would read.

00:30:01.180 --> 00:30:01.930 align:middle line:90%
I do like it.

00:30:01.930 --> 00:30:04.360 align:middle line:90%
It was particularly fun for her.

00:30:04.360 --> 00:30:07.140 align:middle line:84%
It's called "Legend
with the Word Map."

00:30:07.140 --> 00:30:12.750 align:middle line:84%
"Thebes, Midian, Mount
Horeb, Sphinx-like names.

00:30:12.750 --> 00:30:17.580 align:middle line:84%
Idumea, Ephraim, Gilead,
stories that don't

00:30:17.580 --> 00:30:20.670 align:middle line:90%
demand my undivided attention.

00:30:20.670 --> 00:30:24.450 align:middle line:84%
Maps relax me, the deserts
more than the oceans

00:30:24.450 --> 00:30:27.480 align:middle line:84%
I don't dive into because,
even on maps, they're

00:30:27.480 --> 00:30:31.200 align:middle line:90%
deep, voracious, untamed.

00:30:31.200 --> 00:30:34.050 align:middle line:90%
How can we conceive of a map?

00:30:34.050 --> 00:30:36.780 align:middle line:84%
Here rivers, here
mountains, ridges,

00:30:36.780 --> 00:30:41.090 align:middle line:84%
gulfs, or woodlands
as scary as the sea.

00:30:41.090 --> 00:30:43.610 align:middle line:84%
The legends of maps
are so beautiful they

00:30:43.610 --> 00:30:45.950 align:middle line:90%
make travel superfluous.

00:30:45.950 --> 00:30:47.480 align:middle line:90%
You're crazy, they tell me.

00:30:47.480 --> 00:30:49.490 align:middle line:90%
A map is a map.

00:30:49.490 --> 00:30:51.350 align:middle line:90%
I'm not, I reply.

00:30:51.350 --> 00:30:55.280 align:middle line:84%
A map is the certainty
that the place exists.

00:30:55.280 --> 00:30:59.270 align:middle line:90%
Maps contain blood and treasure.

00:30:59.270 --> 00:31:02.915 align:middle line:84%
God talks to us in the map,
in his geographic voice."


00:31:05.218 --> 00:31:09.938 align:middle line:90%
[AUDIO PLAYBACK]

00:31:10.479 --> 00:31:13.424 align:middle line:90%
... se chama "Legenda com a Palavra Mapa".

00:31:14.542 --> 00:31:19.050 align:middle line:84%
Tebas, Madian, Monte Hor,
esfingéticos nomes.

00:31:19.743 --> 00:31:24.706 align:middle line:84%
Iduméia, Efraim, Gilead,
histórias que dispensam meu concurso.

00:31:25.291 --> 00:31:27.041 align:middle line:90%
Os mapas me descansam,

00:31:27.830 --> 00:31:30.547 align:middle line:84%
mais em seus desertos
que em seus mares,

00:31:30.547 --> 00:31:35.195 align:middle line:84%
onde não mergulho
porque mesmo nos mapas são profundos,

00:31:35.195 --> 00:31:38.603 align:middle line:90%
voraginosos, indomesticáveis.

00:31:39.086 --> 00:31:41.806 align:middle line:90%
Como pode o homem conceber o mapa?

00:31:41.806 --> 00:31:48.212 align:middle line:84%
Aqui rios, aqui montanhas, cordilheiras,
golfos, aqui florestas,

00:31:48.212 --> 00:31:50.561 align:middle line:90%
tão assustadoras quanto os mares.

00:31:50.917 --> 00:31:55.436 align:middle line:84%
As legendas dos mapas são tão belas
que dispensam as viagens.

00:31:56.164 --> 00:31:59.858 align:middle line:84%
Você está louca, dizem-me,
um mapa é um mapa.

00:31:59.858 --> 00:32:01.894 align:middle line:90%
Não estou, respondo.

00:32:01.894 --> 00:32:05.534 align:middle line:84%
O mapa é a certeza
de que existe o lugar,

00:32:05.883 --> 00:32:08.790 align:middle line:90%
o mapa guarda sangue e tesouros.

00:32:08.963 --> 00:32:13.016 align:middle line:84%
Deus nos fala no mapa
com sua voz geógrafa.

00:32:13.938 --> 00:32:14.890 align:middle line:90%
[END PLAYBACK]

00:32:14.890 --> 00:32:18.700 align:middle line:90%


00:32:18.700 --> 00:32:21.640 align:middle line:84%
And this is the title
poem of that volume,

00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:25.080 align:middle line:90%
"The Land of the Holy Cross."

00:32:25.080 --> 00:32:27.270 align:middle line:84%
"At my golden
wedding anniversary,

00:32:27.270 --> 00:32:31.110 align:middle line:84%
greedy as the grandchildren,
I'm going to eat sweets.

00:32:31.110 --> 00:32:33.810 align:middle line:84%
I will not look
serene, like portraits

00:32:33.810 --> 00:32:36.720 align:middle line:84%
of women who ate
and spoke little

00:32:36.720 --> 00:32:39.180 align:middle line:84%
because the monk killed
himself in the thicket

00:32:39.180 --> 00:32:41.280 align:middle line:90%
outside the abbey.

00:32:41.280 --> 00:32:44.910 align:middle line:84%
It's been said before, there
will be no consolation.

00:32:44.910 --> 00:32:51.300 align:middle line:84%
And there was, music,
poetry, strolls.

00:32:51.300 --> 00:32:53.310 align:middle line:84%
Love has rhythms
which are not those

00:32:53.310 --> 00:32:59.020 align:middle line:84%
of sadness, the shape of
waves, impulse, running water.

00:32:59.020 --> 00:33:02.620 align:middle line:84%
Well then, what do I say
to the man, to the train,

00:33:02.620 --> 00:33:04.630 align:middle line:84%
to the little boy
waiting for me,

00:33:04.630 --> 00:33:08.070 align:middle line:84%
to the myrtle tree
blooming out of season?

00:33:08.070 --> 00:33:12.130 align:middle line:84%
Contemplating the
impossible makes you crazy.

00:33:12.130 --> 00:33:15.300 align:middle line:84%
I'm a lowly tapeworm
in God's intestine.

00:33:15.300 --> 00:33:16.590 align:middle line:90%
Well then.

00:33:16.590 --> 00:33:18.150 align:middle line:90%
Well then.

00:33:18.150 --> 00:33:19.680 align:middle line:90%
Well then?

00:33:19.680 --> 00:33:23.730 align:middle line:84%
Where were the custodian,
the steward, the gatekeeper?

00:33:23.730 --> 00:33:25.800 align:middle line:84%
Where was the rest
of the brotherhood

00:33:25.800 --> 00:33:28.350 align:middle line:84%
when you went out,
unlucky Brazilian boy,

00:33:28.350 --> 00:33:30.510 align:middle line:90%
to meet that tree?

00:33:30.510 --> 00:33:32.610 align:middle line:90%
I am my own enemy.

00:33:32.610 --> 00:33:36.300 align:middle line:84%
Torturers go crazy in
the end, eat excrement,

00:33:36.300 --> 00:33:39.210 align:middle line:90%
hate their own obscene gestures.

00:33:39.210 --> 00:33:42.210 align:middle line:90%
Unjust regimes fester.

00:33:42.210 --> 00:33:45.570 align:middle line:84%
While you were walking around
in circles, divided soul,

00:33:45.570 --> 00:33:50.280 align:middle line:84%
what was she doing, saint and
sinner, our mother church?

00:33:50.280 --> 00:33:54.540 align:middle line:84%
Promoting bingo, blessing
new buildings, naturally.

00:33:54.540 --> 00:33:57.090 align:middle line:90%
But still, she produced you.

00:33:57.090 --> 00:34:00.210 align:middle line:84%
No one dares deny it,
you and other saints

00:34:00.210 --> 00:34:03.510 align:middle line:90%
who leave behind marked Bibles.

00:34:03.510 --> 00:34:06.750 align:middle line:84%
We carry within us our
own death sentence.

00:34:06.750 --> 00:34:08.790 align:middle line:90%
Love one another.

00:34:08.790 --> 00:34:11.489 align:middle line:84%
He who said whosoever
believeth in me

00:34:11.489 --> 00:34:15.989 align:middle line:84%
shall have everlasting life, he
too swung from a piece of wood

00:34:15.989 --> 00:34:18.449 align:middle line:90%
like a fruit of scorn.

00:34:18.449 --> 00:34:22.980 align:middle line:84%
Nothing, nothing that
is human is grand.

00:34:22.980 --> 00:34:26.070 align:middle line:84%
A little girl interrupts,
pounding at the door,

00:34:26.070 --> 00:34:28.320 align:middle line:90%
asking for vine cuttings.

00:34:28.320 --> 00:34:30.840 align:middle line:90%
My hair stands on end.

00:34:30.840 --> 00:34:34.469 align:middle line:84%
Like a torturer, I yank
out the cutting, the eyes,

00:34:34.469 --> 00:34:36.420 align:middle line:90%
the entrails of the intruder.

00:34:36.420 --> 00:34:40.560 align:middle line:84%
And no better than Job,
I repent my nonsense.

00:34:40.560 --> 00:34:45.179 align:middle line:84%
There's always someone to
ask Judas which tree is best.

00:34:45.179 --> 00:34:50.760 align:middle line:84%
Lucid mad men, mad saints,
those to whom more was given,

00:34:50.760 --> 00:34:56.489 align:middle line:84%
the almost sublime ones, my
biggest grandeur is to ask,

00:34:56.489 --> 00:34:59.700 align:middle line:90%
will there be consolation?

00:34:59.700 --> 00:35:01.650 align:middle line:90%
These would fit in a thimble.

00:35:01.650 --> 00:35:05.190 align:middle line:84%
My faith, my life,
and my greatest fear,

00:35:05.190 --> 00:35:07.920 align:middle line:90%
which is traveling by bus.

00:35:07.920 --> 00:35:12.180 align:middle line:84%
Temptation tests me and
almost makes me happy.

00:35:12.180 --> 00:35:14.760 align:middle line:84%
It's good to ask
help of our Lord

00:35:14.760 --> 00:35:18.720 align:middle line:84%
God of the army, our God
who is a big mother hen.

00:35:18.720 --> 00:35:22.320 align:middle line:84%
He tucks us under his
wing and warms us.

00:35:22.320 --> 00:35:25.570 align:middle line:84%
But first, he leaves
us helpless in the rain

00:35:25.570 --> 00:35:29.340 align:middle line:84%
so we'll learn to trust in
him and not in ourselves."

00:35:29.340 --> 00:35:34.893 align:middle line:90%


00:35:34.893 --> 00:35:35.560 align:middle line:90%
[AUDIO PLAYBACK]

00:35:35.560 --> 00:35:36.954 align:middle line:90%
Terra de Santa Cruz.

00:35:37.602 --> 00:35:42.566 align:middle line:84%
Nas minhas bodas de ouro,
esganada como os netos, vou comer os doces.

00:35:43.050 --> 00:35:47.616 align:middle line:84%
Não terei a serenidade dos retratos
de mulheres que pouco falaram ou comeram.

00:35:47.942 --> 00:35:51.884 align:middle line:84%
Porque o frade se matou
no pequeno bosque fora do seu convento.

00:35:52.406 --> 00:35:55.782 align:middle line:84%
De outras vezes já disse:
não haverá consolo.

00:35:55.782 --> 00:35:59.501 align:middle line:90%
E houve: música, poema, passeatas.

00:35:59.945 --> 00:36:06.787 align:middle line:84%
O amor tem ritmos que não são de tristeza:
forma de ondas, ímpeto, água corrente.

00:36:07.058 --> 00:36:12.249 align:middle line:84%
E agora? Que digo ao homem, ao trem,
ao menino que me espera,

00:36:12.643 --> 00:36:15.095 align:middle line:90%
à jabuticabeira em flores, temporã?

00:36:15.660 --> 00:36:18.275 align:middle line:90%
Contemplar o impossível enlouquece.

00:36:18.275 --> 00:36:23.611 align:middle line:84%
Sou uma tênia no epigastro de Deus:
E agora? E agora? E agora?

00:36:23.974 --> 00:36:27.535 align:middle line:84%
Onde estavam o guardião,
o ecônomo, o porteiro,

00:36:27.535 --> 00:36:32.502 align:middle line:84%
a fraternidade onde estava quando saíste,
ó desgraçado moço da minha pátria,

00:36:32.502 --> 00:36:34.366 align:middle line:90%
ao encontro desta árvore?

00:36:34.584 --> 00:36:36.452 align:middle line:90%
Meu inimigo sou eu.

00:36:36.628 --> 00:36:39.721 align:middle line:90%
Os torturadores todos enlouquecem ao fim,

00:36:39.721 --> 00:36:43.219 align:middle line:84%
comem excrementos e odeiam
seus próprios gestos obscenos,

00:36:43.406 --> 00:36:46.247 align:middle line:90%
os regimes iníquos apodrecem.

00:36:46.809 --> 00:36:49.863 align:middle line:84%
Quando andavas em círculos,
a alma dividida,

00:36:49.863 --> 00:36:53.453 align:middle line:84%
o que fazia, santa e pecadora,
a nossa Mãe Igreja?

00:36:53.929 --> 00:36:58.122 align:middle line:84%
Promovia tômbolas, é certo,
benzia edifícios novos,

00:36:58.571 --> 00:37:01.681 align:middle line:84%
mas também te gerava,
quem ousará negar,

00:37:01.792 --> 00:37:05.632 align:middle line:84%
a ti e a outros santos
que deixam as bíblias marcadas:

00:37:06.620 --> 00:37:11.144 align:middle line:84%
"Na verdade carregamos em nós mesmos
nossa sentença de morte."

00:37:11.303 --> 00:37:13.427 align:middle line:90%
"Amai vossos inimigos."

00:37:13.953 --> 00:37:16.574 align:middle line:84%
O que disse: "Quem crer
viverá para sempre",

00:37:16.574 --> 00:37:20.238 align:middle line:84%
este também balouçou do madeiro
como fruto de escárnio.

00:37:21.054 --> 00:37:24.776 align:middle line:90%
Nada, nada que é humano é grandioso.

00:37:25.429 --> 00:37:29.576 align:middle line:84%
Me interrompe da porta a mocinha boçal.
Quer mudas de trepadeira.

00:37:29.678 --> 00:37:31.341 align:middle line:90%
Meus cabelos levantam.

00:37:31.341 --> 00:37:34.232 align:middle line:84%
Como um torturador
eu piso e arranco a muda,

00:37:34.232 --> 00:37:36.369 align:middle line:90%
os olhos, as entranhas da intrusa

00:37:36.776 --> 00:37:39.967 align:middle line:84%
e não sendo melhor que Jó
choro meus desatinos.

00:37:40.905 --> 00:37:44.324 align:middle line:84%
Sempre há quem pergunte a Judas
qual a melhor árvore:

00:37:44.831 --> 00:37:47.418 align:middle line:90%
os loucos lúcidos, os santos loucos,

00:37:47.418 --> 00:37:50.645 align:middle line:84%
aqueles a quem mais foi dado,
os quase sublimes.

00:37:50.978 --> 00:37:54.291 align:middle line:84%
Minha maior grandeza é perguntar:
haverá consolo?

00:37:55.153 --> 00:38:01.000 align:middle line:84%
Num dedal cabem minha fé, minha vida
e meu medo maior que é viajar de ônibus.

00:38:01.644 --> 00:38:05.244 align:middle line:84%
A tentação me tenta
e eu fico quase alegre.

00:38:05.511 --> 00:38:08.911 align:middle line:84%
É bom pedir socorro
ao Senhor Deus dos Exércitos,

00:38:08.911 --> 00:38:12.022 align:middle line:90%
ao nosso Deus que é uma galinha grande.

00:38:12.317 --> 00:38:14.835 align:middle line:90%
Nos põe debaixo da asa e nos esquenta.

00:38:14.944 --> 00:38:17.944 align:middle line:90%
Antes, nos deixa desvalidos na chuva,

00:38:17.944 --> 00:38:22.315 align:middle line:84%
pra que aprendamos a ter confiança n'Ele
e não em nós.

00:38:25.930 --> 00:38:31.590 align:middle line:90%
[END PLAYBACK]

00:38:31.590 --> 00:38:33.240 align:middle line:90%
A few more poems here.

00:38:33.240 --> 00:38:34.565 align:middle line:90%
I don't know why this came.

00:38:34.565 --> 00:38:36.690 align:middle line:84%
I was trying to think of
something else to tell you

00:38:36.690 --> 00:38:38.700 align:middle line:84%
a bit of more of
what Adélia is like,

00:38:38.700 --> 00:38:40.830 align:middle line:90%
since you don't have her here.

00:38:40.830 --> 00:38:44.128 align:middle line:84%
And maybe it was the, "how can
a fish be happy when I'm not?"

00:38:44.128 --> 00:38:44.670 align:middle line:90%
I don't know.

00:38:44.670 --> 00:38:45.770 align:middle line:90%
We had a lot of talking.

00:38:45.770 --> 00:38:50.080 align:middle line:84%
Adélia doesn't speak English and
loves trying to say the words

00:38:50.080 --> 00:38:50.580 align:middle line:90%
of English.

00:38:50.580 --> 00:38:54.000 align:middle line:84%
She told me when she first
got the first poems that

00:38:54.000 --> 00:38:56.640 align:middle line:84%
were published in APR, she
read them out loud to herself,

00:38:56.640 --> 00:39:00.420 align:middle line:84%
making up the phonetics
as she went along.

00:39:00.420 --> 00:39:03.180 align:middle line:84%
And then her nephew came,
who knew some English,

00:39:03.180 --> 00:39:05.460 align:middle line:84%
and was quite astounded
at the funny way she

00:39:05.460 --> 00:39:06.780 align:middle line:90%
was saying all the words.

00:39:06.780 --> 00:39:08.520 align:middle line:84%
But I thought I'd just
share with you one

00:39:08.520 --> 00:39:10.650 align:middle line:84%
of her favorite two
words in English,

00:39:10.650 --> 00:39:13.830 align:middle line:84%
both for the way they sound
and for the ridiculousness

00:39:13.830 --> 00:39:15.480 align:middle line:90%
of the epithet.

00:39:15.480 --> 00:39:19.020 align:middle line:84%
And that is holy mackerel,
which is the way she says it.

00:39:19.020 --> 00:39:22.140 align:middle line:90%


00:39:22.140 --> 00:39:25.850 align:middle line:84%
This is called "Pieces for
a Stained Glass Window."

00:39:25.850 --> 00:39:28.370 align:middle line:90%
"Does Japan really exist?

00:39:28.370 --> 00:39:33.050 align:middle line:84%
Or any country I don't know,
with its parched coastline?

00:39:33.050 --> 00:39:38.420 align:middle line:84%
What's between the thighs is
public, public and obvious.

00:39:38.420 --> 00:39:41.990 align:middle line:84%
What I want is your heart,
the depth of your eyes,

00:39:41.990 --> 00:39:44.390 align:middle line:90%
which do everything but speak.

00:39:44.390 --> 00:39:47.390 align:middle line:84%
If you look at me in
Spanish, I'll snap my fingers

00:39:47.390 --> 00:39:50.180 align:middle line:84%
and start dancing,
dressed in red.

00:39:50.180 --> 00:39:52.610 align:middle line:84%
When I closed my
eyes to the sun,

00:39:52.610 --> 00:39:56.840 align:middle line:84%
I saw a blueprint,
perfection, for just a second

00:39:56.840 --> 00:39:58.880 align:middle line:90%
and then forgot.

00:39:58.880 --> 00:40:01.940 align:middle line:84%
Just as the saints
exist, so does God,

00:40:01.940 --> 00:40:05.150 align:middle line:84%
with his unspeakable
seductive power.

00:40:05.150 --> 00:40:07.700 align:middle line:84%
He's the one who
made gold and gave us

00:40:07.700 --> 00:40:10.250 align:middle line:84%
the discretion to invent
necklaces to wear around

00:40:10.250 --> 00:40:11.570 align:middle line:90%
our necks.

00:40:11.570 --> 00:40:13.880 align:middle line:84%
Said like that it's
so pure I hardly see

00:40:13.880 --> 00:40:16.610 align:middle line:90%
the sin in buying one myself.

00:40:16.610 --> 00:40:19.580 align:middle line:84%
I've got the same
desires as 30 years ago,

00:40:19.580 --> 00:40:23.330 align:middle line:84%
immutable as mosquitoes in
the sun-drenched kitchen,

00:40:23.330 --> 00:40:27.095 align:middle line:84%
my mother making coffee and
my father seated, waiting."

00:40:27.095 --> 00:40:32.140 align:middle line:90%


00:40:32.140 --> 00:40:35.390 align:middle line:90%
"Falsetto."

00:40:35.390 --> 00:40:37.700 align:middle line:84%
"The authorities have
bags under their eyes

00:40:37.700 --> 00:40:41.030 align:middle line:84%
and practiced voices
for communiques.

00:40:41.030 --> 00:40:44.580 align:middle line:84%
We guarantee the best
solution on the spot.

00:40:44.580 --> 00:40:45.650 align:middle line:90%
Which spot?

00:40:45.650 --> 00:40:47.330 align:middle line:90%
The pudendum?

00:40:47.330 --> 00:40:52.430 align:middle line:84%
God already took care of
that, covering it with hair.

00:40:52.430 --> 00:40:54.150 align:middle line:90%
My son was a good boy.

00:40:54.150 --> 00:40:56.930 align:middle line:84%
He would never have killed
himself like the police said.

00:40:56.930 --> 00:40:58.370 align:middle line:90%
I touched his head.

00:40:58.370 --> 00:41:02.180 align:middle line:84%
It was all broken, a
token of their guilt.

00:41:02.180 --> 00:41:05.990 align:middle line:84%
The witnesses vanished, lost
their teeth, their tongues,

00:41:05.990 --> 00:41:07.850 align:middle line:90%
lost their memories.

00:41:07.850 --> 00:41:10.990 align:middle line:90%
I lost my son.

00:41:10.990 --> 00:41:13.530 align:middle line:84%
He greeted the rabble, speaking
to them of the kingdom.

00:41:13.530 --> 00:41:16.950 align:middle line:84%
To those in need of cure,
he restored their health.

00:41:16.950 --> 00:41:20.280 align:middle line:84%
Hard words only for
liars, legalists

00:41:20.280 --> 00:41:22.230 align:middle line:84%
who harness on others
the heavy bundles

00:41:22.230 --> 00:41:25.410 align:middle line:84%
they themselves would
not so much as touch.

00:41:25.410 --> 00:41:28.140 align:middle line:84%
Oh, great shriek that
I long to shriek,

00:41:28.140 --> 00:41:34.500 align:middle line:84%
hiss that would leave me empty,
certain hues, tamed birds,

00:41:34.500 --> 00:41:38.550 align:middle line:84%
a yellow house with a gate
and flowers thrill me.

00:41:38.550 --> 00:41:40.350 align:middle line:90%
But I can't enjoy them.

00:41:40.350 --> 00:41:43.110 align:middle line:90%
I've got to preach the kingdom.

00:41:43.110 --> 00:41:46.380 align:middle line:84%
I'd like a country
place, a wisp of a farm.

00:41:46.380 --> 00:41:48.660 align:middle line:90%
But Christianity won't let me.

00:41:48.660 --> 00:41:51.210 align:middle line:90%
Marxism won't let me.

00:41:51.210 --> 00:41:55.770 align:middle line:84%
Oh, great shriek in the face of
palaces, churchly or otherwise,

00:41:55.770 --> 00:42:00.210 align:middle line:84%
divided we fall,
united we stand.

00:42:00.210 --> 00:42:03.480 align:middle line:84%
My swimming pool is not for
recreation, said the Pope.

00:42:03.480 --> 00:42:07.070 align:middle line:84%
I have no intention of being
a prophet, said the bishop.

00:42:07.070 --> 00:42:10.820 align:middle line:84%
What thick rope,
what a full pail,

00:42:10.820 --> 00:42:14.700 align:middle line:90%
what a fat sheaf of bad things.

00:42:14.700 --> 00:42:20.000 align:middle line:84%
What an incoherent life
is mine, what dirty sand.

00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:23.210 align:middle line:84%
I am an old woman
with whom God toys.

00:42:23.210 --> 00:42:28.160 align:middle line:84%
Along with rage and shame, my
appetite remains unshakable.

00:42:28.160 --> 00:42:31.070 align:middle line:90%
Fatty meats, anything flowery.

00:42:31.070 --> 00:42:35.120 align:middle line:84%
I nibble vegetables as if
they were carnal encounters.

00:42:35.120 --> 00:42:38.330 align:middle line:84%
I'm afraid of death and think
about it at great length,

00:42:38.330 --> 00:42:42.290 align:middle line:84%
as if I were a respectable,
serious, prudent, and frugal

00:42:42.290 --> 00:42:44.120 align:middle line:90%
lady philosopher.

00:42:44.120 --> 00:42:47.390 align:middle line:84%
If someone will join me,
I'll found a political party.

00:42:47.390 --> 00:42:49.760 align:middle line:84%
I'll overthrow the
government, the papacy,

00:42:49.760 --> 00:42:54.640 align:middle line:84%
bulldoze all the rectories
and institute my dream.

00:42:54.640 --> 00:42:59.230 align:middle line:84%
Across a plain, innumerable, the
Friars descended in their hoods

00:42:59.230 --> 00:43:03.940 align:middle line:84%
like brown birds, peacefully
searching for a place.

00:43:03.940 --> 00:43:07.420 align:middle line:84%
I walked with them until
they came to a big house

00:43:07.420 --> 00:43:10.720 align:middle line:84%
where they found a big
stove, a big table.

00:43:10.720 --> 00:43:13.870 align:middle line:84%
And they all went inside
and made themselves at home,

00:43:13.870 --> 00:43:16.990 align:middle line:84%
scattering about the
house like true brothers."

00:43:16.990 --> 00:43:19.970 align:middle line:90%


00:43:19.970 --> 00:43:22.730 align:middle line:90%
And two last poems here.

00:43:22.730 --> 00:43:25.900 align:middle line:90%


00:43:25.900 --> 00:43:27.820 align:middle line:84%
This is "Consecration,"
and it has

00:43:27.820 --> 00:43:31.390 align:middle line:84%
an epigraph from "Apocalypse,
Come, I Will Show

00:43:31.390 --> 00:43:34.360 align:middle line:90%
You the Bride."

00:43:34.360 --> 00:43:35.860 align:middle line:90%
"It was at home.

00:43:35.860 --> 00:43:37.210 align:middle line:90%
Mama was cooking.

00:43:37.210 --> 00:43:41.590 align:middle line:84%
I was taking care of the baby,
restless because of the boy

00:43:41.590 --> 00:43:43.480 align:middle line:90%
who was waiting for me.

00:43:43.480 --> 00:43:45.040 align:middle line:90%
The baby's wet, I called.

00:43:45.040 --> 00:43:47.050 align:middle line:90%
I'm going to change him.

00:43:47.050 --> 00:43:48.340 align:middle line:90%
Mama shot me a look.

00:43:48.340 --> 00:43:52.150 align:middle line:84%
And I went to my room and tried
on dresses to wear to the door

00:43:52.150 --> 00:43:54.280 align:middle line:84%
and talk with the
boy who whispered,

00:43:54.280 --> 00:43:57.250 align:middle line:84%
I want to eat your legs,
your belly, your breasts.

00:43:57.250 --> 00:43:59.230 align:middle line:90%
I want to touch you.

00:43:59.230 --> 00:44:01.120 align:middle line:84%
And he was, in
fact, touching me,

00:44:01.120 --> 00:44:04.630 align:middle line:84%
the way his soul shown
through his eyes.

00:44:04.630 --> 00:44:06.550 align:middle line:90%
Have you changed the baby?

00:44:06.550 --> 00:44:08.020 align:middle line:90%
You're a strange one.

00:44:08.020 --> 00:44:11.140 align:middle line:84%
Stop talking to your
friends and listen.

00:44:11.140 --> 00:44:15.220 align:middle line:84%
I began to cry, pleasure
and embarrassment.

00:44:15.220 --> 00:44:18.250 align:middle line:84%
He looked at my bare
feet and laughed.

00:44:18.250 --> 00:44:21.250 align:middle line:84%
The vibrations of
the flesh sing hymns,

00:44:21.250 --> 00:44:24.040 align:middle line:90%
even those we turn away from.

00:44:24.040 --> 00:44:26.860 align:middle line:90%
Flatulence, he said in one ear.

00:44:26.860 --> 00:44:29.230 align:middle line:90%
Yawns, he said in the other.

00:44:29.230 --> 00:44:31.330 align:middle line:90%
The rhythm of pleasure.

00:44:31.330 --> 00:44:33.440 align:middle line:90%
I was worried the whole time.

00:44:33.440 --> 00:44:36.400 align:middle line:84%
And so naive and
naked, he added.

00:44:36.400 --> 00:44:39.850 align:middle line:84%
A voluptuous woman in
her bed can praise God

00:44:39.850 --> 00:44:44.210 align:middle line:84%
even if she is nothing
but voluptuous and happy.

00:44:44.210 --> 00:44:46.040 align:middle line:90%
Poor people understand that.

00:44:46.040 --> 00:44:50.480 align:middle line:84%
Yes, like when they write on the
walls, 'Us beggars salute you,

00:44:50.480 --> 00:44:52.170 align:middle line:90%
oh, God.'

00:44:52.170 --> 00:44:55.470 align:middle line:84%
He looked like an angel
speaking of wisdom.

00:44:55.470 --> 00:44:58.620 align:middle line:84%
Helios, I called him,
you're that luminescent.

00:44:58.620 --> 00:45:01.470 align:middle line:84%
Your body acting
out your spirit.

00:45:01.470 --> 00:45:05.070 align:middle line:84%
You learn fast, praise
be our Lord Jesus Christ,

00:45:05.070 --> 00:45:07.860 align:middle line:84%
he intoned from the bottom
of his Christian soul,

00:45:07.860 --> 00:45:10.560 align:middle line:90%
enticing me once and for all.

00:45:10.560 --> 00:45:11.760 align:middle line:90%
Who is the Pope?

00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:14.700 align:middle line:84%
I asked, anxious to
receive the sacraments.

00:45:14.700 --> 00:45:16.770 align:middle line:90%
Our father who blesses us.

00:45:16.770 --> 00:45:21.210 align:middle line:84%
And he called me cow as if
he were saying flower, saint,

00:45:21.210 --> 00:45:22.830 align:middle line:90%
lucky prostitute."

00:45:22.830 --> 00:45:26.890 align:middle line:90%


00:45:26.890 --> 00:45:29.760 align:middle line:84%
This last one is from the middle
book of Coracao Disparado,

00:45:29.760 --> 00:45:33.020 align:middle line:90%
and it's one of my favorites.

00:45:33.020 --> 00:45:34.445 align:middle line:90%
Called "Denouement."

00:45:34.445 --> 00:45:39.890 align:middle line:90%


00:45:39.890 --> 00:45:43.130 align:middle line:90%
I can get through it.

00:45:43.130 --> 00:45:45.950 align:middle line:84%
"I have great
admiration for ships

00:45:45.950 --> 00:45:48.140 align:middle line:84%
and for certain people's
handwriting, which

00:45:48.140 --> 00:45:51.190 align:middle line:90%
I attempt to imitate.

00:45:51.190 --> 00:45:53.860 align:middle line:84%
Of my entire family,
I'm the only one

00:45:53.860 --> 00:45:55.900 align:middle line:90%
who has seen the ocean.

00:45:55.900 --> 00:45:58.970 align:middle line:90%
I describe it over and over.

00:45:58.970 --> 00:46:01.850 align:middle line:84%
They say hmm and continue
circling the chicken coop

00:46:01.850 --> 00:46:02.350 align:middle line:90%
with wire.

00:46:02.350 --> 00:46:05.240 align:middle line:90%


00:46:05.240 --> 00:46:07.880 align:middle line:84%
See, that's where
we'll put in a garden.

00:46:07.880 --> 00:46:10.930 align:middle line:90%
So what do I do with the coast?

00:46:10.930 --> 00:46:12.580 align:middle line:84%
It was a pretty
afternoon, the day

00:46:12.580 --> 00:46:15.700 align:middle line:84%
I planted myself in the
window between uncles

00:46:15.700 --> 00:46:18.010 align:middle line:84%
and saw the man
with his fly open,

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the trellis angry with roses.

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Hours and hours we talked
unconsciously in Portuguese,

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as if it were the only
language in the world.

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Faith or no, I ask, where
are my people who are gone?

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Because I'm human,
I zealously cover

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the pan of leftover sauce.

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How could we know
how to live a better

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life than this
when, even weeping,

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it feels so good to be together?

00:46:48.530 --> 00:46:52.070 align:middle line:84%
Suffering belongs
to no language.

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I suffered and I suffer,
both in Minas Gerais

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and at the edge of the ocean.

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I stand in awe of being alive.

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Oh moon over the back
lands, oh forests

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I don't need to
see to get lost in,

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oh great cities and
states of Brazil

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that I love as if I had invented
them, being Brazilian places

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me in a way I find moving.

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And this which, without
sinning, I can call fate,

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gives my desire a rest.

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Taken all at once, it's
far too intelligible.

00:47:28.790 --> 00:47:30.710 align:middle line:90%
I can't take it.

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Night, make yourself useful
and cover me with sleep.

00:47:35.870 --> 00:47:41.310 align:middle line:84%
Me and the thought of death just
can't get used to each other.

00:47:41.310 --> 00:47:44.310 align:middle line:84%
I'll tremble with
fear till the end.

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And meanwhile,
everything is so small.

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Compared to my heart's
desire, the sea is a drop."

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[WHISTLE]

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[APPLAUSE]

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