WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:07.110 align:middle line:90% 00:00:07.110 --> 00:00:10.690 align:middle line:84% "A cunt hair away from perfection, 00:00:10.690 --> 00:00:14.800 align:middle line:84% deadwood, a zen-like transformation 00:00:14.800 --> 00:00:16.720 align:middle line:90% of consciousness. 00:00:16.720 --> 00:00:22.330 align:middle line:84% But I know as much about zen as David Milch does opera-- 00:00:22.330 --> 00:00:25.330 align:middle line:90% nothing, or next to it. 00:00:25.330 --> 00:00:28.150 align:middle line:84% Once, Li-Young Lee said "writing is yogic," 00:00:28.150 --> 00:00:31.240 align:middle line:90% but I quit yoga, too. 00:00:31.240 --> 00:00:33.970 align:middle line:84% People hold themselves to higher moral standards when 00:00:33.970 --> 00:00:35.710 align:middle line:84% they feel like they're being watched, 00:00:35.710 --> 00:00:37.840 align:middle line:90% even by eyes that are fake. 00:00:37.840 --> 00:00:43.140 align:middle line:84% But do the words I, eye, have the same effect? 00:00:43.140 --> 00:00:46.620 align:middle line:84% What makes cunt the most offensive word? 00:00:46.620 --> 00:00:53.190 align:middle line:84% A C, a U, an N, and a T that signify the last frontier 00:00:53.190 --> 00:00:57.030 align:middle line:84% of American language Milch is forging, as though Swearingen 00:00:57.030 --> 00:01:00.540 align:middle line:90% himself riding into the sunset. 00:01:00.540 --> 00:01:02.820 align:middle line:90% Get it? 00:01:02.820 --> 00:01:06.000 align:middle line:90% I looked at my family history. 00:01:06.000 --> 00:01:08.800 align:middle line:84% My great uncle Ebenezer was a blacksmith, 00:01:08.800 --> 00:01:12.330 align:middle line:84% and another, JP Hoy, a detective in Minneapolis, 00:01:12.330 --> 00:01:17.340 align:middle line:84% who solved the famed case of the Murdered Dressmaker. 00:01:17.340 --> 00:01:21.030 align:middle line:84% One obituary spoke of surviving life among the savages-- 00:01:21.030 --> 00:01:24.510 align:middle line:90% the savages of South Dakota. 00:01:24.510 --> 00:01:27.300 align:middle line:84% My great grandfather owned a hardware store in Ravello 00:01:27.300 --> 00:01:31.020 align:middle line:84% in the late 1800s that looked just like Seth and Saul's, 00:01:31.020 --> 00:01:35.700 align:middle line:84% which reminds me of when I saw James Gandolfini on TV 00:01:35.700 --> 00:01:38.940 align:middle line:84% in the crowd at the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade, 00:01:38.940 --> 00:01:42.470 align:middle line:84% smiling nothing like Tony Soprano. 00:01:42.470 --> 00:01:45.050 align:middle line:90% A wet snow fell. 00:01:45.050 --> 00:01:49.430 align:middle line:84% Men dressed as inflatable jolly elephants strutted 00:01:49.430 --> 00:01:52.520 align:middle line:84% to commemorate the first parade 80 years ago, when 00:01:52.520 --> 00:01:55.550 align:middle line:90% real elephants marched. 00:01:55.550 --> 00:01:59.840 align:middle line:84% The unredeemable bookended by sentimentality. 00:01:59.840 --> 00:02:02.770 align:middle line:84% That's what Barbara said about Tony." 00:02:02.770 --> 00:02:04.000 align:middle line:90%