WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.670 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.670 --> 00:00:02.320 align:middle line:90% Here's the end of the pentalogy. 00:00:02.320 --> 00:00:03.730 align:middle line:90% This is from Shimoda's Tavern. 00:00:03.730 --> 00:00:09.610 align:middle line:90% 00:00:09.610 --> 00:00:16.940 align:middle line:84% "Shadow dragger, voices there, waiting in the kitchen for you. 00:00:16.940 --> 00:00:19.820 align:middle line:84% Why was each song a room like this 00:00:19.820 --> 00:00:22.640 align:middle line:84% above the resigned factions of the dead. 00:00:22.640 --> 00:00:27.290 align:middle line:84% Between swamps crossed the pikes as if over an isthmus. 00:00:27.290 --> 00:00:30.470 align:middle line:84% If I wanted to iron my clothing I 00:00:30.470 --> 00:00:34.250 align:middle line:84% would have let the rainy coast of Trabzon do it. 00:00:34.250 --> 00:00:36.920 align:middle line:84% I found only what I wanted to have made through shadows 00:00:36.920 --> 00:00:40.730 align:middle line:84% and it was lit from below with fresh snow on old ice, 00:00:40.730 --> 00:00:44.880 align:middle line:84% upon a young Earth spinning apparently so told, 00:00:44.880 --> 00:00:46.940 align:middle line:84% and so visited by infinite callers. 00:00:46.940 --> 00:00:49.760 align:middle line:84% Not visible exactly, yet undeterred 00:00:49.760 --> 00:00:54.370 align:middle line:90% by a storm wind and its storm. 00:00:54.370 --> 00:00:57.490 align:middle line:84% What light so intervened along the cactusy street 00:00:57.490 --> 00:01:02.020 align:middle line:84% and spinning still it goes bird to spark. 00:01:02.020 --> 00:01:05.560 align:middle line:84% The boat wobbling to a cleaving coast. 00:01:05.560 --> 00:01:08.710 align:middle line:84% Not another fjord to call back a father's name 00:01:08.710 --> 00:01:13.210 align:middle line:84% as my father's father held a baby skunk for his son 00:01:13.210 --> 00:01:15.080 align:middle line:90% as a friend. 00:01:15.080 --> 00:01:18.760 align:middle line:84% This was in Colorado in 1949 or so. 00:01:18.760 --> 00:01:20.890 align:middle line:84% And the sun was up in the snowy linens, 00:01:20.890 --> 00:01:23.470 align:middle line:84% alive with the hex of what took my family's 00:01:23.470 --> 00:01:26.080 align:middle line:90% names to an untoward horizon. 00:01:26.080 --> 00:01:29.950 align:middle line:84% Dreaming loud, dreaming up in the undecidable airs. 00:01:29.950 --> 00:01:33.610 align:middle line:84% And my matchbook folds its fruit fly 00:01:33.610 --> 00:01:37.660 align:middle line:84% crushed here down to the last two strikes tonight. 00:01:37.660 --> 00:01:41.140 align:middle line:84% The courier's prince breathing in the mud of the easement 00:01:41.140 --> 00:01:43.900 align:middle line:90% and what's here is hidden. 00:01:43.900 --> 00:01:47.890 align:middle line:84% And what's hidden is find by night, billed by the hour, 00:01:47.890 --> 00:01:51.790 align:middle line:84% collected by a banquet of ghosts whose mouths remain open 00:01:51.790 --> 00:01:56.410 align:middle line:84% that you may know them from the sound of their slavering song. 00:01:56.410 --> 00:02:00.160 align:middle line:84% Could you turn the radio back up and close your eyes. 00:02:00.160 --> 00:02:03.700 align:middle line:84% I want to show you the secret spoils in the wall. 00:02:03.700 --> 00:02:08.490 align:middle line:84% How they shown and what they recast. 00:02:08.490 --> 00:02:11.460 align:middle line:84% I'm coming by train car to visit with the brothers 00:02:11.460 --> 00:02:12.330 align:middle line:90% in your lungs. 00:02:12.330 --> 00:02:15.420 align:middle line:84% So if you're not home when I arrive then may 00:02:15.420 --> 00:02:18.150 align:middle line:84% the moon grow into my chest and I'll 00:02:18.150 --> 00:02:22.080 align:middle line:84% return to the clapboard walls back into the muck from which I 00:02:22.080 --> 00:02:23.460 align:middle line:90% rose. 00:02:23.460 --> 00:02:25.680 align:middle line:90% You like poison? 00:02:25.680 --> 00:02:27.760 align:middle line:90% Say I do. 00:02:27.760 --> 00:02:30.130 align:middle line:84% Would you like to come over tonight? 00:02:30.130 --> 00:02:32.530 align:middle line:90% Indeed, how I would. 00:02:32.530 --> 00:02:35.890 align:middle line:84% The cordial motion of what giving saps from you. 00:02:35.890 --> 00:02:38.890 align:middle line:84% No apology trues itself out unless it 00:02:38.890 --> 00:02:41.470 align:middle line:90% veers toward the impossible. 00:02:41.470 --> 00:02:44.950 align:middle line:84% Holding one's breath just to hear the beat of blood 00:02:44.950 --> 00:02:48.820 align:middle line:84% under your ears, alive, and unlivable. 00:02:48.820 --> 00:02:52.450 align:middle line:84% Darning, and unraveling, and skewed rates, 00:02:52.450 --> 00:02:57.500 align:middle line:84% untranscribable even to a minus sign. 00:02:57.500 --> 00:03:00.450 align:middle line:90% Now, who is that in the river? 00:03:00.450 --> 00:03:03.480 align:middle line:84% All of my dead friends waiting for the moon 00:03:03.480 --> 00:03:05.580 align:middle line:90% to get on its hoist. 00:03:05.580 --> 00:03:07.530 align:middle line:90% What are their names? 00:03:07.530 --> 00:03:09.930 align:middle line:90% The electricians of sleep. 00:03:09.930 --> 00:03:11.520 align:middle line:90% The humiliated. 00:03:11.520 --> 00:03:13.380 align:middle line:90% The escutcheoned. 00:03:13.380 --> 00:03:14.910 align:middle line:90% The trust tilled mark. 00:03:14.910 --> 00:03:16.710 align:middle line:84% The partly [? roofed. ?] The muddied 00:03:16.710 --> 00:03:19.500 align:middle line:84% collective, and my brothers, and your brothers, 00:03:19.500 --> 00:03:22.800 align:middle line:84% and your brothers also, and yours, and their dogs. 00:03:22.800 --> 00:03:26.610 align:middle line:84% In the white field of black manure to a tentacular sky 00:03:26.610 --> 00:03:30.720 align:middle line:84% getting its yellow dust over our so-called fortress. 00:03:30.720 --> 00:03:33.750 align:middle line:84% Oh, was it getting it on to your necks? 00:03:33.750 --> 00:03:35.880 align:middle line:90% But yes. 00:03:35.880 --> 00:03:38.550 align:middle line:90% Getting it into your scalps. 00:03:38.550 --> 00:03:40.680 align:middle line:90% Why yes. 00:03:40.680 --> 00:03:43.740 align:middle line:84% You thought your soul had careened crooked. 00:03:43.740 --> 00:03:46.650 align:middle line:84% Was it that you thought it could be so. 00:03:46.650 --> 00:03:50.280 align:middle line:84% Now, the noise trails off so this must mark the ending 00:03:50.280 --> 00:03:54.060 align:middle line:84% from the messenger girls lost routes to her passage 00:03:54.060 --> 00:03:55.620 align:middle line:90% out through the wooden woods. 00:03:55.620 --> 00:03:57.990 align:middle line:84% The stenographers child translator 00:03:57.990 --> 00:04:02.160 align:middle line:84% to the plastic owl on call to the legendary child thieves, 00:04:02.160 --> 00:04:03.930 align:middle line:90% thieving. 00:04:03.930 --> 00:04:06.300 align:middle line:84% Deer in the bog at Shelby Bottoms 00:04:06.300 --> 00:04:10.050 align:middle line:84% when the heat index talked us back to the Cumberland swamp. 00:04:10.050 --> 00:04:14.980 align:middle line:84% Hello isthmus owl heavying up, up. 00:04:14.980 --> 00:04:18.360 align:middle line:84% And did the crumbs show the courier where went a friend? 00:04:18.360 --> 00:04:22.830 align:middle line:84% Well, the lightning is open in the ground. 00:04:22.830 --> 00:04:27.210 align:middle line:84% The ground's song can refract the circus of your blood. 00:04:27.210 --> 00:04:31.200 align:middle line:84% And you can burn just about anything with neglect 00:04:31.200 --> 00:04:33.660 align:middle line:84% and an ignorance of a few basic principles. 00:04:33.660 --> 00:04:36.060 align:middle line:84% I haven't gotten most of the proof that I need. 00:04:36.060 --> 00:04:39.660 align:middle line:84% It was unlimited language on the hunt for what won't 00:04:39.660 --> 00:04:41.430 align:middle line:90% tarry with us at the edge. 00:04:41.430 --> 00:04:45.780 align:middle line:84% The ocean just wants a bathtub, friend. 00:04:45.780 --> 00:04:48.480 align:middle line:84% Like any untethered satellite looking 00:04:48.480 --> 00:04:52.860 align:middle line:84% to be known to an unclothed body. 00:04:52.860 --> 00:04:58.380 align:middle line:84% I was in the wet green of ranula, breathing beer. 00:04:58.380 --> 00:05:02.310 align:middle line:90% Breathing this briny island air. 00:05:02.310 --> 00:05:04.950 align:middle line:90% And of the islands. 00:05:04.950 --> 00:05:09.600 align:middle line:84% Those nearby scuttled in a bit closer, young slasher. 00:05:09.600 --> 00:05:13.800 align:middle line:84% And finally I have a song to share and one's roiled drunk. 00:05:13.800 --> 00:05:17.160 align:middle line:84% The others are distracted with indignant white news 00:05:17.160 --> 00:05:20.640 align:middle line:84% items including pleasure and complicity. 00:05:20.640 --> 00:05:24.150 align:middle line:84% The question becomes how to lift your eyes out 00:05:24.150 --> 00:05:27.090 align:middle line:84% of the shitty horizon of experience that matters 00:05:27.090 --> 00:05:29.040 align:middle line:90% at you from afar within. 00:05:29.040 --> 00:05:32.760 align:middle line:84% Not to be overcome by voices, but for the voices 00:05:32.760 --> 00:05:36.270 align:middle line:84% to find a quiet scape to don their invisible ink. 00:05:36.270 --> 00:05:38.370 align:middle line:84% So says the dead woman in her calm ways. 00:05:38.370 --> 00:05:40.390 align:middle line:84% And she goes, what won't oppose you. 00:05:40.390 --> 00:05:44.210 align:middle line:90% What won't actually mend to you. 00:05:44.210 --> 00:05:47.960 align:middle line:84% What won't call your despicable behavior what it truly is. 00:05:47.960 --> 00:05:49.280 align:middle line:90% And softer she goes. 00:05:49.280 --> 00:05:51.770 align:middle line:90% [INAUDIBLE] for [INAUDIBLE] you. 00:05:51.770 --> 00:05:54.635 align:middle line:84% Warmed in the gossip by the kitchen match 00:05:54.635 --> 00:05:58.160 align:middle line:84% of the saint hearing what I'm covering my cuts for. 00:05:58.160 --> 00:06:00.830 align:middle line:84% That an eel might not drift up through the waters 00:06:00.830 --> 00:06:03.620 align:middle line:84% and find my sleep a pleasing place to live. 00:06:03.620 --> 00:06:06.770 align:middle line:84% I couldn't get the newsprint off my face and neck 00:06:06.770 --> 00:06:10.160 align:middle line:84% after having fallen asleep on the 147 express 00:06:10.160 --> 00:06:12.020 align:middle line:90% from foster to the water tower. 00:06:12.020 --> 00:06:15.800 align:middle line:84% And what's here is still hiding its hands. 00:06:15.800 --> 00:06:19.040 align:middle line:84% Now, it's Indiana's dud spring malnourishing 00:06:19.040 --> 00:06:23.150 align:middle line:84% a warped thrashy cold Colorado's snowy autumn's 00:06:23.150 --> 00:06:24.500 align:middle line:90% wicked and smooth. 00:06:24.500 --> 00:06:30.770 align:middle line:84% And all of God's children hungry as asphalt growing vacantly 00:06:30.770 --> 00:06:31.730 align:middle line:90% in the skylight. 00:06:31.730 --> 00:06:35.690 align:middle line:84% So you could hear your name in the current. 00:06:35.690 --> 00:06:40.040 align:middle line:84% The public house in the dream was called Shimoda's. 00:06:40.040 --> 00:06:41.780 align:middle line:84% And the life of the trench was lit 00:06:41.780 --> 00:06:44.210 align:middle line:84% with a little throne of madness also known 00:06:44.210 --> 00:06:48.260 align:middle line:84% as Saint Mandelstam's palace of shadows. 00:06:48.260 --> 00:06:51.650 align:middle line:84% What century did you mistake this one for? 00:06:51.650 --> 00:06:55.490 align:middle line:84% Well, I thought that maybe Edgar Huntly could reappear and do 00:06:55.490 --> 00:07:00.440 align:middle line:84% some quality sleep lurking and betray us his dreams, OK. 00:07:00.440 --> 00:07:03.950 align:middle line:84% A wedding cake of sawdust, some orange methadone 00:07:03.950 --> 00:07:06.230 align:middle line:90% in little foam cups. 00:07:06.230 --> 00:07:09.320 align:middle line:84% And what the guests came to gather around sank the sun 00:07:09.320 --> 00:07:12.575 align:middle line:84% and brought from a pit of fire some warmth to their fingers 00:07:12.575 --> 00:07:15.050 align:middle line:90% and to their necks. 00:07:15.050 --> 00:07:18.950 align:middle line:84% So what do the animals drag on into the fold? 00:07:18.950 --> 00:07:22.130 align:middle line:84% What motion detecting devices popped on exactly 00:07:22.130 --> 00:07:25.040 align:middle line:90% and what could they thus detect? 00:07:25.040 --> 00:07:27.602 align:middle line:90% The moonlight drapes the field. 00:07:27.602 --> 00:07:30.420 align:middle line:90% The field drapes a memory. 00:07:30.420 --> 00:07:34.730 align:middle line:84% And we were kissing, and crying at the passenger drop 00:07:34.730 --> 00:07:39.230 align:middle line:84% off at a shitty little airport in the black snow. 00:07:39.230 --> 00:07:43.250 align:middle line:84% Well, what were the messenger's messages? 00:07:43.250 --> 00:07:45.560 align:middle line:90% They were not diamonds. 00:07:45.560 --> 00:07:48.020 align:middle line:90% Then what did she carry? 00:07:48.020 --> 00:07:50.810 align:middle line:90% Can you not keep from asking. 00:07:50.810 --> 00:07:53.810 align:middle line:84% So I ask her and I go, what stops you? 00:07:53.810 --> 00:07:55.970 align:middle line:90% The woods, she says. 00:07:55.970 --> 00:07:58.130 align:middle line:90% What begins you then? 00:07:58.130 --> 00:08:00.410 align:middle line:90% The woods, mother fucker. 00:08:00.410 --> 00:08:04.820 align:middle line:84% She says, I wanted a loose tooth to suckle the day through. 00:08:04.820 --> 00:08:09.720 align:middle line:84% What's pain but customizing yourself. 00:08:09.720 --> 00:08:13.110 align:middle line:84% When they sent the drop light on a cord down to the attic 00:08:13.110 --> 00:08:15.690 align:middle line:84% through the roof, I mistook it for a snake, 00:08:15.690 --> 00:08:20.280 align:middle line:84% startled, and fell down a flight of stairs only to break my wing 00:08:20.280 --> 00:08:22.260 align:middle line:90% like a rib. 00:08:22.260 --> 00:08:24.480 align:middle line:90% And this was 1802? 00:08:24.480 --> 00:08:25.740 align:middle line:90% No. 00:08:25.740 --> 00:08:28.040 align:middle line:90% This was late last night. 00:08:28.040 --> 00:08:30.980 align:middle line:84% What became of the spoils of the meadow. 00:08:30.980 --> 00:08:34.010 align:middle line:84% A heaven of storm water called runoff by the above 00:08:34.010 --> 00:08:40.159 align:middle line:84% and the diarist's pond shed raised for a bistro. 00:08:40.159 --> 00:08:45.590 align:middle line:84% The courier's legion of sparrows asleep in [? Arroyo Chico ?]. 00:08:45.590 --> 00:08:50.540 align:middle line:84% Mandelstam's ghost awake yet in the ornament. 00:08:50.540 --> 00:08:54.320 align:middle line:84% Sometimes I lay half aligned wishing 00:08:54.320 --> 00:08:57.740 align:middle line:84% I could re-enter the memories from your vantage point. 00:08:57.740 --> 00:09:01.150 align:middle line:84% To feel some shred of what you had discovered, 00:09:01.150 --> 00:09:03.710 align:middle line:90% in decent memories, yes. 00:09:03.710 --> 00:09:06.020 align:middle line:84% Those you summoned to drag it out in the morning 00:09:06.020 --> 00:09:08.630 align:middle line:90% before showering for work. 00:09:08.630 --> 00:09:12.720 align:middle line:84% Perhaps a voice was indeed there waiting for me. 00:09:12.720 --> 00:09:15.410 align:middle line:84% I thought I could access its timbre like the sky 00:09:15.410 --> 00:09:16.880 align:middle line:90% by stepping into the sunlight. 00:09:16.880 --> 00:09:19.490 align:middle line:90% I just figured I'd hate it. 00:09:19.490 --> 00:09:21.410 align:middle line:84% I could not truly enter it but I slowed 00:09:21.410 --> 00:09:25.040 align:middle line:84% into the certain words that were off limits or those words that 00:09:25.040 --> 00:09:27.500 align:middle line:90% were shrouded with a little-- 00:09:27.500 --> 00:09:33.650 align:middle line:84% a little Nimbus of ignorant grime. 00:09:33.650 --> 00:09:36.140 align:middle line:84% All those words want to be one word. 00:09:36.140 --> 00:09:38.000 align:middle line:90% Those are the words. 00:09:38.000 --> 00:09:40.340 align:middle line:90% And what were the words? 00:09:40.340 --> 00:09:42.560 align:middle line:90% They were human, of course. 00:09:42.560 --> 00:09:44.870 align:middle line:90% Well, were they universal? 00:09:44.870 --> 00:09:47.240 align:middle line:84% I must have thought that they were. 00:09:47.240 --> 00:09:49.190 align:middle line:90% Oh, wet night. 00:09:49.190 --> 00:09:50.945 align:middle line:90% Asphyxiate of bees. 00:09:50.945 --> 00:09:54.080 align:middle line:84% A honey of falling through a dream course cloth 00:09:54.080 --> 00:09:59.180 align:middle line:84% to dry the face, and arms, and ass, and legs with. 00:09:59.180 --> 00:10:01.250 align:middle line:84% The white vanquished sheet brought up 00:10:01.250 --> 00:10:03.530 align:middle line:90% what spun the airs chestward. 00:10:03.530 --> 00:10:05.270 align:middle line:84% And we were out for the night again, 00:10:05.270 --> 00:10:10.040 align:middle line:84% known to the appendices and tables of content to the blogs 00:10:10.040 --> 00:10:14.870 align:middle line:84% through feed but not to the imaginations lonely obsessions. 00:10:14.870 --> 00:10:17.210 align:middle line:84% Don't I have anything I might set up 00:10:17.210 --> 00:10:22.260 align:middle line:84% against the time I borrowed to believe in what I'm doing here? 00:10:22.260 --> 00:10:24.740 align:middle line:84% What is it that you think that you want? 00:10:24.740 --> 00:10:28.880 align:middle line:84% Well, that somebody could come into the room 00:10:28.880 --> 00:10:32.510 align:middle line:84% to court a transformation through fucking. 00:10:32.510 --> 00:10:36.950 align:middle line:84% That only bits of wrong language should be needed for a collapse 00:10:36.950 --> 00:10:42.020 align:middle line:84% to be fucked so well as if to be dragged by a current. 00:10:42.020 --> 00:10:47.120 align:middle line:84% To be fucked as if by a wall or by a school of fish. 00:10:47.120 --> 00:10:50.240 align:middle line:84% Obliterated indeed to the point of laughter 00:10:50.240 --> 00:10:53.030 align:middle line:84% against my neighbors singing pouring up to the floor. 00:10:53.030 --> 00:10:56.870 align:middle line:84% Finally, to just climb a tree on the sidewalk, 00:10:56.870 --> 00:11:00.410 align:middle line:84% to sit in the branches and watch the Chicago trash 00:11:00.410 --> 00:11:03.343 align:middle line:90% flutter by for a while. 00:11:03.343 --> 00:11:04.760 align:middle line:84% We took to the--" I should-- maybe 00:11:04.760 --> 00:11:06.590 align:middle line:84% I should have said there is going to be some adult content. 00:11:06.590 --> 00:11:07.430 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:11:07.430 --> 00:11:10.460 align:middle line:84% I mean, if you're coming to hear Ariana then maybe-- 00:11:10.460 --> 00:11:11.130 align:middle line:90% I don't know. 00:11:11.130 --> 00:11:11.630 align:middle line:90% I'm a fan. 00:11:11.630 --> 00:11:14.150 align:middle line:90% 00:11:14.150 --> 00:11:14.780 align:middle line:90% My bad. 00:11:14.780 --> 00:11:15.640 align:middle line:90% OK. 00:11:15.640 --> 00:11:18.593 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:11:18.593 --> 00:11:20.760 align:middle line:84% They say he was the number one poetry critic online. 00:11:20.760 --> 00:11:21.410 align:middle line:90% Oh. 00:11:21.410 --> 00:11:22.140 align:middle line:90% Number one. 00:11:22.140 --> 00:11:22.640 align:middle line:90% Good. 00:11:22.640 --> 00:11:23.150 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:11:23.150 --> 00:11:25.580 align:middle line:90% I look forward to that. 00:11:25.580 --> 00:11:26.540 align:middle line:90% It's going to be good. 00:11:26.540 --> 00:11:27.260 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:11:27.260 --> 00:11:28.220 align:middle line:84% It's going to be good-- it's going 00:11:28.220 --> 00:11:29.540 align:middle line:90% to be a great Sunday morning. 00:11:29.540 --> 00:11:30.040 align:middle line:90% Finally-- 00:11:30.040 --> 00:11:31.460 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:11:31.460 --> 00:11:33.590 align:middle line:90% --finally-- all right. 00:11:33.590 --> 00:11:34.760 align:middle line:90% Here you go. 00:11:34.760 --> 00:11:37.110 align:middle line:84% I just-- Ariana, I am clearing them out for you, baby. 00:11:37.110 --> 00:11:38.360 align:middle line:90% I'm clearing them out for you. 00:11:38.360 --> 00:11:40.130 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:11:40.130 --> 00:11:43.490 align:middle line:84% "Finally to just climb a tree on the sidewalk 00:11:43.490 --> 00:11:46.040 align:middle line:84% to sit-in the branches and watch the Chicago trash 00:11:46.040 --> 00:11:47.000 align:middle line:90% flutter by for a while. 00:11:47.000 --> 00:11:49.670 align:middle line:84% We took to the snow for an early afternoon beer 00:11:49.670 --> 00:11:50.660 align:middle line:90% at the Edgewater. 00:11:50.660 --> 00:11:53.810 align:middle line:84% Anything to not sit at home with the selves I 00:11:53.810 --> 00:11:59.060 align:middle line:84% tried to ditch in the bushes like a stolen bicycle. 00:11:59.060 --> 00:12:01.340 align:middle line:84% What a long, winding sheet to feel 00:12:01.340 --> 00:12:04.670 align:middle line:84% through the news horde out, not unlike the tinder 00:12:04.670 --> 00:12:06.690 align:middle line:90% sticks to wipe material. 00:12:06.690 --> 00:12:10.790 align:middle line:84% So let us out, or let us back in from without, 00:12:10.790 --> 00:12:13.850 align:middle line:84% for us to begin our set of unthinkable tasks 00:12:13.850 --> 00:12:15.890 align:middle line:90% to separate from one another. 00:12:15.890 --> 00:12:22.040 align:middle line:84% Not baby from breath or even fox from lilac, but like sink water 00:12:22.040 --> 00:12:26.630 align:middle line:84% from hand cupped in a sorrow from the sinew of the 4,000 00:12:26.630 --> 00:12:28.220 align:middle line:90% ligaments of the neck. 00:12:28.220 --> 00:12:31.520 align:middle line:84% To each Saint, a passage, an accompanying 00:12:31.520 --> 00:12:35.480 align:middle line:84% set of obstacles, to each a difficulty in pleasure. 00:12:35.480 --> 00:12:36.590 align:middle line:90% To entrench the hunt. 00:12:36.590 --> 00:12:40.370 align:middle line:84% To endeavor against the V of piss in the snow field. 00:12:40.370 --> 00:12:42.200 align:middle line:90% Each box of bees. 00:12:42.200 --> 00:12:44.990 align:middle line:84% Each delivery the courier holds to her ribs 00:12:44.990 --> 00:12:47.270 align:middle line:90% like a trembling pup. 00:12:47.270 --> 00:12:51.540 align:middle line:84% Each map taped to the ceilings of her rooms. 00:12:51.540 --> 00:12:53.930 align:middle line:84% Each of her handwritten journals set above the bar 00:12:53.930 --> 00:12:55.610 align:middle line:90% at Shimoda's Tavern. 00:12:55.610 --> 00:12:57.830 align:middle line:84% Each crinkled hex and promise made 00:12:57.830 --> 00:13:00.170 align:middle line:84% by a boy used for a bit of packing, 00:13:00.170 --> 00:13:03.410 align:middle line:84% bunting her unlovely ways into the spit. 00:13:03.410 --> 00:13:07.700 align:middle line:84% But did you solve the problems that you had set out, plan to? 00:13:07.700 --> 00:13:09.320 align:middle line:90% So I did. 00:13:09.320 --> 00:13:11.900 align:middle line:84% And thereby set enough temporary solutions 00:13:11.900 --> 00:13:15.680 align:middle line:84% of fire in the pregnant dilemma where of each word 00:13:15.680 --> 00:13:20.400 align:middle line:84% exceeds its own purported aim, tactic, and signal. 00:13:20.400 --> 00:13:24.170 align:middle line:90% But for whom was the song sung? 00:13:24.170 --> 00:13:26.570 align:middle line:90% Not possible yet to say. 00:13:26.570 --> 00:13:29.930 align:middle line:84% Then by whom was the song induced? 00:13:29.930 --> 00:13:34.340 align:middle line:84% It was a song called Kansas City by the singer Damien Jurado, 00:13:34.340 --> 00:13:35.840 align:middle line:84% and I'd put it on in the mornings 00:13:35.840 --> 00:13:38.720 align:middle line:84% after I came in with my dog from the snows 00:13:38.720 --> 00:13:42.020 align:middle line:84% to dream back the child in the old house who dreamed himself 00:13:42.020 --> 00:13:45.470 align:middle line:84% into a future that sparked him off on his own song work. 00:13:45.470 --> 00:13:49.220 align:middle line:84% Each morning a new unknown name on his tongue. 00:13:49.220 --> 00:13:51.110 align:middle line:90% But why did it end? 00:13:51.110 --> 00:13:54.560 align:middle line:90% Because I'd said that it had to. 00:13:54.560 --> 00:13:56.540 align:middle line:90% Was it a lie? 00:13:56.540 --> 00:13:58.670 align:middle line:90% It was. 00:13:58.670 --> 00:14:02.000 align:middle line:84% The vision was just to evince the approximation of an ending. 00:14:02.000 --> 00:14:04.820 align:middle line:84% That if by performing it a little ceremony 00:14:04.820 --> 00:14:07.520 align:middle line:84% of feeble invocations we might-- could 00:14:07.520 --> 00:14:11.690 align:middle line:84% feel death's riven sent uncoiling through mere gesture, 00:14:11.690 --> 00:14:17.800 align:middle line:84% hollow as a cordial, hollow as air full of dust. 00:14:17.800 --> 00:14:21.040 align:middle line:84% And why was that the song you had chosen, 00:14:21.040 --> 00:14:25.900 align:middle line:84% or did it just bring you weeping into the easement? 00:14:25.900 --> 00:14:31.000 align:middle line:84% Flying home to Tucson, I ran into [? Corea ?] at Midway, 00:14:31.000 --> 00:14:33.070 align:middle line:84% and he said I could call him late. 00:14:33.070 --> 00:14:36.220 align:middle line:84% He said that Bei Dao used to and would wake him up 00:14:36.220 --> 00:14:39.850 align:middle line:84% at 3:00 AM to talk a while in their beds together. 00:14:39.850 --> 00:14:42.850 align:middle line:84% The demands of the Midwest on an exile. 00:14:42.850 --> 00:14:48.820 align:middle line:84% Sleep plus, sirens plus, a coyote going tippy, 00:14:48.820 --> 00:14:52.660 align:middle line:84% tippy, tippy through the slashed lot of a strip mall 00:14:52.660 --> 00:14:54.250 align:middle line:90% looking for bunnies. 00:14:54.250 --> 00:14:56.050 align:middle line:84% And what steps you'd made decimated 00:14:56.050 --> 00:14:57.910 align:middle line:84% by some old future weather coming 00:14:57.910 --> 00:15:01.150 align:middle line:90% to say goodbye and good night. 00:15:01.150 --> 00:15:02.950 align:middle line:84% But can't you thread a moonlight's texture 00:15:02.950 --> 00:15:05.140 align:middle line:84% through the song book's lyrics archived 00:15:05.140 --> 00:15:07.540 align:middle line:84% at the edge of the messenger girl's meadow swamp 00:15:07.540 --> 00:15:09.310 align:middle line:90% to slash us? 00:15:09.310 --> 00:15:13.720 align:middle line:84% Your noise was here, but where exactly were you? 00:15:13.720 --> 00:15:16.750 align:middle line:84% Spring is out for a weak beer and some hearth smoke. 00:15:16.750 --> 00:15:19.030 align:middle line:84% I want to place you like a cousin 00:15:19.030 --> 00:15:22.060 align:middle line:84% next to the courier with her sisters before the ghost 00:15:22.060 --> 00:15:23.770 align:middle line:84% of their own mother triangulating 00:15:23.770 --> 00:15:27.220 align:middle line:84% a tarpaulin in the river to drag it's slow music back 00:15:27.220 --> 00:15:29.740 align:middle line:84% to the Hi-Fi up on Fritz Cove road. 00:15:29.740 --> 00:15:30.880 align:middle line:90% And then to where? 00:15:30.880 --> 00:15:32.470 align:middle line:90% I'll tell you then to where. 00:15:32.470 --> 00:15:36.130 align:middle line:84% From Ravenswood Avenue to lost lakes at Colfax and Monroe, 00:15:36.130 --> 00:15:38.950 align:middle line:84% back to Dunbar Spring to a Thunderbird 00:15:38.950 --> 00:15:40.990 align:middle line:84% in the carport at about Eastbourne 00:15:40.990 --> 00:15:46.660 align:middle line:84% and Exeter on to the Arroyo with Jess last night under no moon. 00:15:46.660 --> 00:15:48.880 align:middle line:84% Another candle flicker to anchor us 00:15:48.880 --> 00:15:54.040 align:middle line:84% to the warmth of a dead room's [? glows ?] nice lacquer. 00:15:54.040 --> 00:15:57.160 align:middle line:84% Is that how you wanted the ending to open you? 00:15:57.160 --> 00:16:01.390 align:middle line:84% All the little characters lolling up on the roof smoking 00:16:01.390 --> 00:16:03.220 align:middle line:90% and laughing. 00:16:03.220 --> 00:16:06.370 align:middle line:84% The courier devoured by coyotes up 00:16:06.370 --> 00:16:09.760 align:middle line:90% from the wash in Lost Barrio. 00:16:09.760 --> 00:16:12.050 align:middle line:90% Are any of you me? 00:16:12.050 --> 00:16:13.210 align:middle line:90% No. 00:16:13.210 --> 00:16:15.700 align:middle line:84% I'm pretty sure I don't think so. 00:16:15.700 --> 00:16:17.980 align:middle line:84% And what of the courier's humming 00:16:17.980 --> 00:16:21.260 align:middle line:90% and what of her archive? 00:16:21.260 --> 00:16:25.010 align:middle line:84% Their lesion too numerous to adumbrate. 00:16:25.010 --> 00:16:27.590 align:middle line:90% So should we go back? 00:16:27.590 --> 00:16:28.340 align:middle line:90% No. 00:16:28.340 --> 00:16:29.690 align:middle line:90% No turn. 00:16:29.690 --> 00:16:31.160 align:middle line:90% No Volta. 00:16:31.160 --> 00:16:32.810 align:middle line:90% No nothing. 00:16:32.810 --> 00:16:34.910 align:middle line:84% With a bamboo box of Mandelstam's 00:16:34.910 --> 00:16:38.360 align:middle line:90% dead bees to restring. 00:16:38.360 --> 00:16:40.130 align:middle line:84% Now, rinse your hands to begin again 00:16:40.130 --> 00:16:44.480 align:middle line:84% and begin to bring your cautious lantern into the field to break 00:16:44.480 --> 00:16:46.400 align:middle line:90% the path by foot over nettles. 00:16:46.400 --> 00:16:50.900 align:middle line:84% Whosoever is alone with it has at least their hands. 00:16:50.900 --> 00:16:53.630 align:middle line:84% Was it Dickinson's frigate you borrowed and set on 00:16:53.630 --> 00:16:57.260 align:middle line:84% to the stream's good surface for passage out of your father's 00:16:57.260 --> 00:17:00.170 align:middle line:90% father's palace of shadows? 00:17:00.170 --> 00:17:02.090 align:middle line:90% It was. 00:17:02.090 --> 00:17:03.890 align:middle line:84% And it mostly lasted until I mistook 00:17:03.890 --> 00:17:06.500 align:middle line:84% the moon for a friend I might could 00:17:06.500 --> 00:17:09.670 align:middle line:90% come to depend on for a while. 00:17:09.670 --> 00:17:11.829 align:middle line:84% Through the glass of the windshield, under the 00:17:11.829 --> 00:17:14.079 align:middle line:84% boughs, and the fronds of the palm 00:17:14.079 --> 00:17:16.270 align:middle line:90% at the end of the easement." 00:17:16.270 --> 00:17:17.770 align:middle line:84% Thank you guys for listening to me. 00:17:17.770 --> 00:17:21.120 align:middle line:90% [APPLAUSE]