WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.570 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.570 --> 00:00:01.680 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:00:01.680 --> 00:00:06.300 align:middle line:84% Next person craving intimacy come forth. 00:00:06.300 --> 00:00:15.080 align:middle line:90% 00:00:15.080 --> 00:00:16.640 align:middle line:90% Hi, what's your name. 00:00:16.640 --> 00:00:17.930 align:middle line:90% My name is Beth. 00:00:17.930 --> 00:00:18.920 align:middle line:90% Hey, Beth. 00:00:18.920 --> 00:00:21.290 align:middle line:84% And I was a Hawaiian shirt designer. 00:00:21.290 --> 00:00:22.556 align:middle line:90% No way. 00:00:22.556 --> 00:00:25.770 align:middle line:90% And I know what-- 00:00:25.770 --> 00:00:29.130 align:middle line:84% her name is Lehua and it's a beautiful flower. 00:00:29.130 --> 00:00:31.680 align:middle line:84% I was a Hawaiian shirt designer and I 00:00:31.680 --> 00:00:34.080 align:middle line:84% sat here looking at her [? hibiscus ?] the whole time 00:00:34.080 --> 00:00:38.280 align:middle line:84% thinking, why isn't a lehua flower on her? 00:00:38.280 --> 00:00:39.825 align:middle line:90% I am the lehua flower. 00:00:39.825 --> 00:00:41.110 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:00:41.110 --> 00:00:42.450 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:00:42.450 --> 00:00:47.910 align:middle line:84% Tell us about creating the illusion of love with words 00:00:47.910 --> 00:00:50.500 align:middle line:90% transoceanic. 00:00:50.500 --> 00:00:51.000 align:middle line:90% OK. 00:00:51.000 --> 00:00:52.470 align:middle line:84% You want to talk about this first? 00:00:52.470 --> 00:00:56.130 align:middle line:84% This intimacy, this physical intimacy? 00:00:56.130 --> 00:00:58.920 align:middle line:84% As a shirt designer, the intimate thing I want to do 00:00:58.920 --> 00:01:01.928 align:middle line:84% is look at the tag on your shirt. 00:01:01.928 --> 00:01:06.050 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:01:06.050 --> 00:01:07.320 align:middle line:90% Oh, here we go. 00:01:07.320 --> 00:01:08.590 align:middle line:90% Am I choking you? 00:01:08.590 --> 00:01:09.090 align:middle line:90% No. 00:01:09.090 --> 00:01:10.780 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:01:10.780 --> 00:01:12.000 align:middle line:90% It's all good, Beth. 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:14.910 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:01:14.910 --> 00:01:16.613 align:middle line:90% It says wild fang. 00:01:16.613 --> 00:01:17.113 align:middle line:90% Hey. 00:01:17.113 --> 00:01:19.410 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:01:19.410 --> 00:01:21.075 align:middle line:90% Beth goes divulging secrets. 00:01:21.075 --> 00:01:23.010 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:01:23.010 --> 00:01:23.520 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:01:23.520 --> 00:01:26.790 align:middle line:90% 00:01:26.790 --> 00:01:29.040 align:middle line:84% Tell us about creating the illusion of love with words 00:01:29.040 --> 00:01:31.680 align:middle line:90% transoceanic. 00:01:31.680 --> 00:01:32.235 align:middle line:90% Number 97. 00:01:32.235 --> 00:01:36.710 align:middle line:90% 00:01:36.710 --> 00:01:41.360 align:middle line:84% So I have my heart broken real bad, like terrible bad. 00:01:41.360 --> 00:01:45.680 align:middle line:84% Like worse than you thought could happen ever and then like 00:01:45.680 --> 00:01:48.140 align:middle line:90% nobody knows how bad that hurts. 00:01:48.140 --> 00:01:48.950 align:middle line:90% That's still true. 00:01:48.950 --> 00:01:50.510 align:middle line:84% Like you don't know how bad it hurts 00:01:50.510 --> 00:01:55.880 align:middle line:84% even though it was like 15 years ago still the worst pain ever. 00:01:55.880 --> 00:01:58.340 align:middle line:84% And then I broke up with the love 00:01:58.340 --> 00:02:01.220 align:middle line:84% and then I moved across the country again. 00:02:01.220 --> 00:02:04.580 align:middle line:84% And my dog died the day I got home. 00:02:04.580 --> 00:02:07.610 align:middle line:84% Not a country music song actually happened. 00:02:07.610 --> 00:02:11.210 align:middle line:84% And then a month after that I broke my leg. 00:02:11.210 --> 00:02:14.630 align:middle line:84% So I was stuck in this town I didn't want to be in. 00:02:14.630 --> 00:02:19.040 align:middle line:84% Something that came my way was an unexpected pen pal 00:02:19.040 --> 00:02:24.080 align:middle line:90% ship with a beautiful woman. 00:02:24.080 --> 00:02:29.750 align:middle line:84% And I'd hurt so bad that I made it into love. 00:02:29.750 --> 00:02:35.270 align:middle line:84% This is someone I had never met but we exchanged letters. 00:02:35.270 --> 00:02:37.220 align:middle line:90% Estuary. 00:02:37.220 --> 00:02:39.980 align:middle line:90% Something like love found me. 00:02:39.980 --> 00:02:43.670 align:middle line:84% I did not tell anyone or I did but the words 00:02:43.670 --> 00:02:47.810 align:middle line:90% turned to birdsong on my tongue. 00:02:47.810 --> 00:02:52.880 align:middle line:84% Her name, when the body cannot contain the heart. 00:02:52.880 --> 00:02:56.300 align:middle line:84% An estuary carries letters, lovely script, 00:02:56.300 --> 00:03:00.260 align:middle line:84% trailing sinuous, backlit and blue pulse. 00:03:00.260 --> 00:03:03.860 align:middle line:84% The feathered word that hums about us, between us 00:03:03.860 --> 00:03:07.700 align:middle line:90% is unmoored, what we share. 00:03:07.700 --> 00:03:09.980 align:middle line:90% Roots of the air. 00:03:09.980 --> 00:03:12.770 align:middle line:90% My name, the flower. 00:03:12.770 --> 00:03:15.320 align:middle line:90% Half this, half that. 00:03:15.320 --> 00:03:18.740 align:middle line:84% The great sea has set me in motion, set me adrift, 00:03:18.740 --> 00:03:22.280 align:middle line:84% moving me like a weed in the Brine river. 00:03:22.280 --> 00:03:24.350 align:middle line:90% I have the letters. 00:03:24.350 --> 00:03:28.760 align:middle line:84% Our names both exchanged for the sake of our grandmothers. 00:03:28.760 --> 00:03:30.560 align:middle line:84% We could not take up their tongues 00:03:30.560 --> 00:03:35.030 align:middle line:84% because their song is part of what we have lost. 00:03:35.030 --> 00:03:38.040 align:middle line:90% Weeping bloom with out. 00:03:38.040 --> 00:03:39.950 align:middle line:90% Here's what the letters contain. 00:03:39.950 --> 00:03:45.860 align:middle line:84% Boats, oceans, currents, moons, flowers, nests. 00:03:45.860 --> 00:03:48.740 align:middle line:90% Unnamed shades of love. 00:03:48.740 --> 00:03:54.230 align:middle line:90% We are soil less too, Taitano. 00:03:54.230 --> 00:03:57.020 align:middle line:84% She reached across the map said a bloom, 00:03:57.020 --> 00:04:00.080 align:middle line:84% adrift on the surf to wish my healing. 00:04:00.080 --> 00:04:02.750 align:middle line:84% In the bed for weeks mine snapped me 00:04:02.750 --> 00:04:04.790 align:middle line:90% like a misshapen breadfruit. 00:04:04.790 --> 00:04:08.690 align:middle line:84% I lulled in a light-less chasm, all the while wielding 00:04:08.690 --> 00:04:11.960 align:middle line:84% a string of petals to and fro from my chest. 00:04:11.960 --> 00:04:15.470 align:middle line:84% The longest lay seeking her across oceans 00:04:15.470 --> 00:04:17.899 align:middle line:90% and did it find her. 00:04:17.899 --> 00:04:20.959 align:middle line:84% She says my name is everywhere she looks. 00:04:20.959 --> 00:04:26.960 align:middle line:84% Little red flowers, rare, yellow, both and blossoms, 00:04:26.960 --> 00:04:30.020 align:middle line:84% street signs, the stars, the ocean. 00:04:30.020 --> 00:04:34.430 align:middle line:84% The green, green trees, winged things, flowers, Earth, sky, 00:04:34.430 --> 00:04:35.150 align:middle line:90% rain. 00:04:35.150 --> 00:04:38.090 align:middle line:84% Her name is everywhere I close my eyes. 00:04:38.090 --> 00:04:42.260 align:middle line:84% The upward welling when the heart persists. 00:04:42.260 --> 00:04:45.740 align:middle line:84% How can you miss what you have never held? 00:04:45.740 --> 00:04:48.470 align:middle line:84% I have seen her only in pictures. 00:04:48.470 --> 00:04:53.810 align:middle line:84% Something about her eyes, my last love, her mouth. 00:04:53.810 --> 00:04:56.840 align:middle line:84% And dreams I construct a lover of parts. 00:04:56.840 --> 00:05:00.110 align:middle line:90% She sees, she sings. 00:05:00.110 --> 00:05:02.930 align:middle line:90% But one cannot chance the bird. 00:05:02.930 --> 00:05:05.120 align:middle line:90% In dreams I have everything. 00:05:05.120 --> 00:05:08.810 align:middle line:84% In my palms, the bird, the pin feather dust. 00:05:08.810 --> 00:05:10.910 align:middle line:90% The have not breathing is one. 00:05:10.910 --> 00:05:15.470 align:middle line:84% In dreams I am the flower me, all flesh and nectar, 00:05:15.470 --> 00:05:18.753 align:middle line:90% the bees humming in my cheeks. 00:05:18.753 --> 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