WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.050 align:middle line:90% 00:00:01.050 --> 00:00:03.030 align:middle line:84% I'll read the second chapter, which is-- well, 00:00:03.030 --> 00:00:06.680 align:middle line:84% it's actually the first chapter, but it was-- anyway, I'm sorry. 00:00:06.680 --> 00:00:08.480 align:middle line:90% It's now the first chapter. 00:00:08.480 --> 00:00:11.180 align:middle line:84% I think of it as the second because that's how I wrote it. 00:00:11.180 --> 00:00:12.770 align:middle line:90% But it got changed. 00:00:12.770 --> 00:00:15.800 align:middle line:84% The first, that was all a prologue, what I just read. 00:00:15.800 --> 00:00:17.652 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:00:17.652 --> 00:00:19.970 align:middle line:90% 00:00:19.970 --> 00:00:21.590 align:middle line:90% Send your complaints to-- 00:00:21.590 --> 00:00:24.020 align:middle line:90% I'm just kidding. 00:00:24.020 --> 00:00:28.070 align:middle line:84% And this chapter is in Scotty's voice. 00:00:28.070 --> 00:00:29.930 align:middle line:90% Brain Dancing. 00:00:29.930 --> 00:00:30.800 align:middle line:90% Lazy? 00:00:30.800 --> 00:00:33.560 align:middle line:84% That fool done zipped off in his black sedan and the tail lights 00:00:33.560 --> 00:00:35.393 align:middle line:84% getting all mixed up with the traffic signs. 00:00:35.393 --> 00:00:37.370 align:middle line:84% And Darlene thought hard about that word. 00:00:37.370 --> 00:00:40.250 align:middle line:84% Out all the stuff a motherfucker could say, not realizing he 00:00:40.250 --> 00:00:42.170 align:middle line:84% had spoke to somebody who gone to college. 00:00:42.170 --> 00:00:44.900 align:middle line:84% You could use other words for her activity 00:00:44.900 --> 00:00:47.540 align:middle line:84% at that moment, maybe some of them not so nice. 00:00:47.540 --> 00:00:48.830 align:middle line:90% But lazy? 00:00:48.830 --> 00:00:50.930 align:middle line:84% She had to laugh behind that, hard as she 00:00:50.930 --> 00:00:52.640 align:middle line:84% out there working for a couple ducats. 00:00:52.640 --> 00:00:53.990 align:middle line:90% The nerve of this man. 00:00:53.990 --> 00:00:55.250 align:middle line:90% He ain't know her life. 00:00:55.250 --> 00:00:57.068 align:middle line:84% She had a son to feed, 11 years old, 00:00:57.068 --> 00:00:58.610 align:middle line:84% had to get out there, walking in some 00:00:58.610 --> 00:01:01.610 align:middle line:84% bad shoes, humidity freezing the heck out of her perm. 00:01:01.610 --> 00:01:04.790 align:middle line:84% This whole damn June, the sun been beating down so hot, 00:01:04.790 --> 00:01:06.890 align:middle line:84% the roads be looking all blurry up ahead. 00:01:06.890 --> 00:01:09.440 align:middle line:84% All kind of mirages happening up at the highway. 00:01:09.440 --> 00:01:12.950 align:middle line:84% Look like a truckload of mercury done had an accident. 00:01:12.950 --> 00:01:14.870 align:middle line:84% Seemed to Darlene that everything 00:01:14.870 --> 00:01:17.390 align:middle line:84% she strove for turned out as a hot mirage. 00:01:17.390 --> 00:01:19.370 align:middle line:84% Probably folks ought to blame that on the dude 00:01:19.370 --> 00:01:22.580 align:middle line:84% in the sedan or that dumb ass self-help book she read. 00:01:22.580 --> 00:01:25.490 align:middle line:84% Can't nobody pin what happened to Darlene on me. 00:01:25.490 --> 00:01:28.130 align:middle line:84% Can't nobody make you love them, make you look for them 00:01:28.130 --> 00:01:29.510 align:middle line:90% all the time. 00:01:29.510 --> 00:01:32.180 align:middle line:84% Maybe I attract a certain kind of person. 00:01:32.180 --> 00:01:34.460 align:middle line:90% Folks always saying that I do. 00:01:34.460 --> 00:01:36.890 align:middle line:84% Doctors talking now about how people brain chemistry make 00:01:36.890 --> 00:01:40.460 align:middle line:84% some of them fall in love harder with co-dependent types. 00:01:40.460 --> 00:01:42.710 align:middle line:84% But I feel an obligation to Darlene. 00:01:42.710 --> 00:01:45.710 align:middle line:84% Out all my friends, and baby, I got millions, 00:01:45.710 --> 00:01:48.860 align:middle line:84% she made me wonder the most if I done right by her. 00:01:48.860 --> 00:01:50.660 align:middle line:84% Sometimes I think to myself that maybe she 00:01:50.660 --> 00:01:52.220 align:middle line:90% shouldn't have met me. 00:01:52.220 --> 00:01:54.710 align:middle line:84% But then again, can't nobody else tell her side of things 00:01:54.710 --> 00:01:56.450 align:middle line:90% but yours truly, Scotty. 00:01:56.450 --> 00:02:00.470 align:middle line:84% I'm the only one who stuck by her the whole time. 00:02:00.470 --> 00:02:02.810 align:middle line:84% Nine months out on the street, and she still 00:02:02.810 --> 00:02:05.510 align:middle line:84% had a meek little attitude about doing the do, you know? 00:02:05.510 --> 00:02:07.730 align:middle line:84% She ain't had the look down at all. 00:02:07.730 --> 00:02:11.660 align:middle line:84% My girl had on flats and a skirt that went below the knee. 00:02:11.660 --> 00:02:12.935 align:middle line:90% No lie. 00:02:12.935 --> 00:02:14.810 align:middle line:84% Instead of going down to the edge of the road 00:02:14.810 --> 00:02:16.700 align:middle line:84% to look in them cars, she'd be hanging back, 00:02:16.700 --> 00:02:18.270 align:middle line:84% almost in the hedges or whatever, 00:02:18.270 --> 00:02:20.600 align:middle line:84% hoping some car going to slow down and stop. 00:02:20.600 --> 00:02:23.990 align:middle line:84% She reckoned she'd get in and get cool in the vehicle, 00:02:23.990 --> 00:02:26.970 align:middle line:90% solve two problems at one time. 00:02:26.970 --> 00:02:30.630 align:middle line:84% Across that double yellow line over at Hinman's Aquatic World, 00:02:30.630 --> 00:02:33.630 align:middle line:84% it was some giant Plexiglas pools resting on they sides, 00:02:33.630 --> 00:02:35.880 align:middle line:90% looking like god's bedpans. 00:02:35.880 --> 00:02:38.310 align:middle line:84% The owners had just turned on them plastic palm trees 00:02:38.310 --> 00:02:39.720 align:middle line:90% with the lights all in them. 00:02:39.720 --> 00:02:41.910 align:middle line:84% Pickup trucks parked at steakhouses, 00:02:41.910 --> 00:02:44.910 align:middle line:84% broken neon trim blinking on the wall of the porno store, 00:02:44.910 --> 00:02:48.540 align:middle line:84% forlorn-ass Mexican folks be chilling at the bus stop. 00:02:48.540 --> 00:02:49.770 align:middle line:90% Texas was stupid. 00:02:49.770 --> 00:02:51.330 align:middle line:90% I'm sorry. 00:02:51.330 --> 00:02:54.060 align:middle line:84% Fat, sunburned gluttons and tacky mansions 00:02:54.060 --> 00:02:57.930 align:middle line:84% every place, glitzy cars that be the size of a pachyderm, 00:02:57.930 --> 00:03:02.070 align:middle line:84% a thrift store and a pawn shop for every five motherfuckers, 00:03:02.070 --> 00:03:04.470 align:middle line:90% fucking limestone. 00:03:04.470 --> 00:03:06.780 align:middle line:84% Whole state, and everything up in that bitch 00:03:06.780 --> 00:03:08.610 align:middle line:90% made of limestone. 00:03:08.610 --> 00:03:10.290 align:middle line:84% Damn strip malls looked like they done 00:03:10.290 --> 00:03:12.420 align:middle line:90% come right up out the ground. 00:03:12.420 --> 00:03:15.870 align:middle line:84% Upon this rock I shall build my strip mall. 00:03:15.870 --> 00:03:18.720 align:middle line:84% It's like they ain't heard of no other rock. 00:03:18.720 --> 00:03:21.030 align:middle line:84% Granite salesmen getting jealous. 00:03:21.030 --> 00:03:24.900 align:middle line:84% In the summer, Texas too hot for 99% of life forms. 00:03:24.900 --> 00:03:27.828 align:middle line:84% In the two-month winter, ain't none of them houses insulated, 00:03:27.828 --> 00:03:30.120 align:middle line:84% so you got to rub your legs together under your blanket 00:03:30.120 --> 00:03:31.890 align:middle line:84% like you a grasshopper, rub so hard 00:03:31.890 --> 00:03:33.750 align:middle line:84% you about to set your own ass on fire. 00:03:33.750 --> 00:03:35.600 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:03:35.600 --> 00:03:38.380 align:middle line:84% Then some crew cut ofay she thought going to be a trick, 00:03:38.380 --> 00:03:40.510 align:middle line:84% so she could score and we could hang out. 00:03:40.510 --> 00:03:43.390 align:middle line:84% He just slowed down and stuck his neck out the passenger side 00:03:43.390 --> 00:03:45.130 align:middle line:90% and went, lazy. 00:03:45.130 --> 00:03:46.540 align:middle line:90% Lazy. 00:03:46.540 --> 00:03:48.310 align:middle line:90% Darlene took a few steps back. 00:03:48.310 --> 00:03:51.590 align:middle line:84% The flats made me feel for her since the first time I met her. 00:03:51.590 --> 00:03:54.310 align:middle line:84% She said from the get-go she couldn't wear a certain kind 00:03:54.310 --> 00:03:55.747 align:middle line:90% of pumps but wouldn't say why. 00:03:55.747 --> 00:03:58.330 align:middle line:84% And it wasn't till I penetrated the inner sanctum of her brain 00:03:58.330 --> 00:04:00.500 align:middle line:84% later that I found out the truth. 00:04:00.500 --> 00:04:02.470 align:middle line:84% She made a note to remember that little guy 00:04:02.470 --> 00:04:05.620 align:middle line:84% and his little rabbit face because when they said lazy, 00:04:05.620 --> 00:04:08.440 align:middle line:90% they meant also nigger. 00:04:08.440 --> 00:04:10.660 align:middle line:90% Hardy fucking har-har. 00:04:10.660 --> 00:04:13.522 align:middle line:90% And lazy working on who behalf? 00:04:13.522 --> 00:04:15.730 align:middle line:84% Hustling this hard at the Peckerwood National Savings 00:04:15.730 --> 00:04:18.010 align:middle line:90% Bank, she'd be the damn manager. 00:04:18.010 --> 00:04:20.680 align:middle line:84% Hell, Darlene thought, I'd be the CEO. 00:04:20.680 --> 00:04:22.480 align:middle line:90% It'd be an easier job too. 00:04:22.480 --> 00:04:24.130 align:middle line:90% In that air conditioning? 00:04:24.130 --> 00:04:26.410 align:middle line:84% I have put this paper in this folder. 00:04:26.410 --> 00:04:28.660 align:middle line:84% Now I will return that pen to its holder. 00:04:28.660 --> 00:04:29.500 align:middle line:90% Done. 00:04:29.500 --> 00:04:31.120 align:middle line:90% I am leaving for the day. 00:04:31.120 --> 00:04:35.200 align:middle line:84% Hey, Mrs. Secretary, where did you put my golf clubs? 00:04:35.200 --> 00:04:36.910 align:middle line:84% A pothole by the White Line tripped her. 00:04:36.910 --> 00:04:38.230 align:middle line:90% And my girl be wobbling. 00:04:38.230 --> 00:04:41.493 align:middle line:84% She twisted a tendon and almost dropped her handbag. 00:04:41.493 --> 00:04:42.910 align:middle line:84% My sweetheart thought bending over 00:04:42.910 --> 00:04:45.670 align:middle line:84% would be vulgar, even though she had on that long ass skirt. 00:04:45.670 --> 00:04:49.210 align:middle line:84% She still ain't know thing one about marketing herself. 00:04:49.210 --> 00:04:50.380 align:middle line:90% She squatted. 00:04:50.380 --> 00:04:53.860 align:middle line:84% And she saw that highway marker sparkling down there. 00:04:53.860 --> 00:04:55.840 align:middle line:84% And that took her mind off the rabbit-faced man 00:04:55.840 --> 00:04:58.240 align:middle line:84% and sent it rushing back to her usual thoughts, thoughts 00:04:58.240 --> 00:05:00.626 align:middle line:84% about how to spend more time with me. 00:05:00.626 --> 00:05:02.960 align:middle line:84% (SINGING) I want to rock with you, 00:05:02.960 --> 00:05:05.640 align:middle line:84% she sang without thinking about it. 00:05:05.640 --> 00:05:06.960 align:middle line:90% The day start going long-- 00:05:06.960 --> 00:05:07.460 align:middle line:90% excuse me. 00:05:07.460 --> 00:05:09.800 align:middle line:84% The day start going dark orange, and some shadows 00:05:09.800 --> 00:05:12.470 align:middle line:84% starts to cut through the trees like they broken bottles. 00:05:12.470 --> 00:05:14.840 align:middle line:84% The past kept dogging her, like she could always 00:05:14.840 --> 00:05:18.020 align:middle line:84% hear it's clunky old motor idling outside with whatever 00:05:18.020 --> 00:05:19.550 align:middle line:90% else be in her thoughts. 00:05:19.550 --> 00:05:21.500 align:middle line:84% The sound of her dead husband whistling 00:05:21.500 --> 00:05:23.270 align:middle line:84% would get super-loud up in her head. 00:05:23.270 --> 00:05:24.740 align:middle line:84% And if I couldn't stand that noise, 00:05:24.740 --> 00:05:27.440 align:middle line:84% you know it made her stone crazy. 00:05:27.440 --> 00:05:29.180 align:middle line:84% Darlene would double the fuck over. 00:05:29.180 --> 00:05:31.610 align:middle line:84% This time, she bent down and put her hands over her ears 00:05:31.610 --> 00:05:34.550 align:middle line:84% like the sound coming from outside her head. 00:05:34.550 --> 00:05:36.980 align:middle line:84% Once that particular bad feeling passed, 00:05:36.980 --> 00:05:38.930 align:middle line:84% she got up and turned to face traffic, 00:05:38.930 --> 00:05:40.670 align:middle line:90% thinking about a happy person. 00:05:40.670 --> 00:05:44.000 align:middle line:84% The book said that to get good experiences and money 00:05:44.000 --> 00:05:46.400 align:middle line:84% in your life, you had to think positive thoughts 00:05:46.400 --> 00:05:48.080 align:middle line:90% and visualize shit. 00:05:48.080 --> 00:05:50.780 align:middle line:84% So she imagined some dude thumbing a fan of $20s 00:05:50.780 --> 00:05:54.530 align:middle line:84% into her hand, held out her palm to take some imaginary cash. 00:05:54.530 --> 00:05:56.750 align:middle line:90% I almost busted out laughing. 00:05:56.750 --> 00:05:59.210 align:middle line:84% But instead of fat money Johns down this road, 00:05:59.210 --> 00:06:01.280 align:middle line:84% it's only some soccer moms going by 00:06:01.280 --> 00:06:03.870 align:middle line:84% and frowning behind the wheel of they minivans. 00:06:03.870 --> 00:06:06.950 align:middle line:84% The kids heads be swiveling with their mouths open and closing, 00:06:06.950 --> 00:06:10.100 align:middle line:84% pointing their little chocolatey fingers at her like, mommy, 00:06:10.100 --> 00:06:12.120 align:middle line:90% what is she doing? 00:06:12.120 --> 00:06:14.120 align:middle line:84% Next thing you know, the Isley Brothers singing, 00:06:14.120 --> 00:06:19.280 align:middle line:84% who's that lady in her head, real fine lady. 00:06:19.280 --> 00:06:21.775 align:middle line:84% At that time, Darlene truly was fine. 00:06:21.775 --> 00:06:23.900 align:middle line:84% That girl could have stopped more traffic than just 00:06:23.900 --> 00:06:26.720 align:middle line:84% some tawdry Johns if she wore some tight miniskirts 00:06:26.720 --> 00:06:27.530 align:middle line:90% and high heels. 00:06:27.530 --> 00:06:30.440 align:middle line:84% I kept telling her that shit all the time. 00:06:30.440 --> 00:06:33.710 align:middle line:84% Now, where in hell has she walked to? 00:06:33.710 --> 00:06:36.260 align:middle line:90% Halfway to Beaumont, seemed. 00:06:36.260 --> 00:06:40.120 align:middle line:84% Nobody else out there hooking, else they had better luck. 00:06:40.120 --> 00:06:41.410 align:middle line:90% Crickets getting louder. 00:06:41.410 --> 00:06:43.930 align:middle line:84% Dog barks be coming from way the hell and gone. 00:06:43.930 --> 00:06:45.670 align:middle line:84% Headlights whizzing by all silver 00:06:45.670 --> 00:06:47.560 align:middle line:84% and black like low-flying spaceships. 00:06:47.560 --> 00:06:52.980 align:middle line:84% Could be anybody in there, aliens, ET and shit, 00:06:52.980 --> 00:06:55.160 align:middle line:90% Chewbacca smoking dope with Alf. 00:06:55.160 --> 00:06:57.360 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:06:57.360 --> 00:06:58.830 align:middle line:84% Darlene starts shuffling backward, 00:06:58.830 --> 00:07:00.300 align:middle line:84% staring into them headlights till she 00:07:00.300 --> 00:07:02.130 align:middle line:84% got near to the end of the commercial strip of whatever 00:07:02.130 --> 00:07:03.390 align:middle line:90% the hell city she in. 00:07:03.390 --> 00:07:05.250 align:middle line:84% Out there, it wasn't no more traffic lights, 00:07:05.250 --> 00:07:06.240 align:middle line:90% edge of the world. 00:07:06.240 --> 00:07:10.080 align:middle line:84% After that, just flat dark, brushy dirt, short trees, 00:07:10.080 --> 00:07:11.280 align:middle line:90% and squinty little stars. 00:07:11.280 --> 00:07:14.700 align:middle line:84% Wait, was that the fucked up carcass of a crow? 00:07:14.700 --> 00:07:18.840 align:middle line:84% Nope, just a busted tire tread in the damn emergency lane. 00:07:18.840 --> 00:07:22.020 align:middle line:84% The sun finally gave up and turned its back on the dusk. 00:07:22.020 --> 00:07:24.280 align:middle line:90% Fuck you, winter sun. 00:07:24.280 --> 00:07:25.180 align:middle line:90% Fuck all y'all. 00:07:25.180 --> 00:07:27.970 align:middle line:84% You skanky freaks don't deserve no sunlight. 00:07:27.970 --> 00:07:30.070 align:middle line:90% Find another star. 00:07:30.070 --> 00:07:33.070 align:middle line:84% Outside the parking lot of a closed down BBQ restaurant, 00:07:33.070 --> 00:07:36.040 align:middle line:84% somebody headlights drove up like glowing monster eyeballs 00:07:36.040 --> 00:07:37.600 align:middle line:90% blasting in Darlene face. 00:07:37.600 --> 00:07:41.890 align:middle line:84% And hallelujah, the car slowed down. 00:07:41.890 --> 00:07:44.590 align:middle line:84% Old cheapo car, VW Rabbit-something. 00:07:44.590 --> 00:07:46.870 align:middle line:84% Darlene couldn't see in, but somebody could see out. 00:07:46.870 --> 00:07:49.210 align:middle line:84% So the car slowed to a halt in the gravel. 00:07:49.210 --> 00:07:51.700 align:middle line:84% In there, it's some round-faced man about 50, 00:07:51.700 --> 00:07:54.160 align:middle line:84% leaning across a lap, cranking down that window, 00:07:54.160 --> 00:07:57.460 align:middle line:84% light brother with a short fro, wine-tinted Coke bottle 00:07:57.460 --> 00:07:58.960 align:middle line:90% glasses, rough skin. 00:07:58.960 --> 00:08:00.820 align:middle line:84% Had a cigarette stuck in his left hand. 00:08:00.820 --> 00:08:03.460 align:middle line:84% His round-ass belly up against the steering wheel. 00:08:03.460 --> 00:08:05.350 align:middle line:84% The lap in the passenger seat belonged 00:08:05.350 --> 00:08:08.080 align:middle line:84% to a skinny teenage boy in a short sleeve shirt. 00:08:08.080 --> 00:08:10.660 align:middle line:84% Kid had skin light as the man's pretty lips, 00:08:10.660 --> 00:08:14.500 align:middle line:84% ears out to here, the picture of a scared-ass virgin. 00:08:14.500 --> 00:08:17.890 align:middle line:84% Even a rookie could figure out that setup. 00:08:17.890 --> 00:08:20.320 align:middle line:84% Tobacco smoke poofed out in Darlene face. 00:08:20.320 --> 00:08:21.760 align:middle line:84% So she pulled back like somebody's 00:08:21.760 --> 00:08:24.160 align:middle line:84% done threw a snake at her, even though she a hardcore 00:08:24.160 --> 00:08:25.960 align:middle line:90% smoker herself. 00:08:25.960 --> 00:08:28.570 align:middle line:84% I thought Darlene could have made a living as a singer. 00:08:28.570 --> 00:08:31.600 align:middle line:84% She moved like a dainty princess, like one of them 00:08:31.600 --> 00:08:34.870 align:middle line:84% bougie Marilyn McCoo, Lola Falana types. 00:08:34.870 --> 00:08:36.549 align:middle line:84% On the AM radio in the car, she heard 00:08:36.549 --> 00:08:39.610 align:middle line:84% DeBarge doing "Rhythm of the Night," so she's like, good, 00:08:39.610 --> 00:08:40.900 align:middle line:90% they're middle class. 00:08:40.900 --> 00:08:42.610 align:middle line:90% They have some money. 00:08:42.610 --> 00:08:44.650 align:middle line:84% The man leant across the boy and went, 00:08:44.650 --> 00:08:46.960 align:middle line:84% what are you doing out here all alone, honey? 00:08:46.960 --> 00:08:47.830 align:middle line:90% Get cool. 00:08:47.830 --> 00:08:48.580 align:middle line:90% Get paid. 00:08:48.580 --> 00:08:49.480 align:middle line:90% Get some rocks. 00:08:49.480 --> 00:08:50.800 align:middle line:90% Go home. 00:08:50.800 --> 00:08:52.720 align:middle line:84% Darlene heard them phrases in her head. 00:08:52.720 --> 00:08:54.880 align:middle line:84% And I thought they had a nice rhythm to them. 00:08:54.880 --> 00:08:58.720 align:middle line:84% So I asked her to say them out loud, and she did. 00:08:58.720 --> 00:09:00.880 align:middle line:84% The father went, say what, go home? 00:09:00.880 --> 00:09:01.570 align:middle line:90% All right then. 00:09:01.570 --> 00:09:03.340 align:middle line:90% He spun the window roller once. 00:09:03.340 --> 00:09:05.590 align:middle line:84% But Darlene stuck her fingers in the top of the glass, 00:09:05.590 --> 00:09:06.550 align:middle line:90% so he stopped. 00:09:06.550 --> 00:09:08.800 align:middle line:90% The shit we do for love. 00:09:08.800 --> 00:09:11.050 align:middle line:90% The love we do for drugs. 00:09:11.050 --> 00:09:14.440 align:middle line:84% The boy went, she meant her, dad, I think. 00:09:14.440 --> 00:09:17.710 align:middle line:84% We noticed a car keychain made of braided plastic 00:09:17.710 --> 00:09:19.840 align:middle line:84% swinging off the steering column. 00:09:19.840 --> 00:09:21.670 align:middle line:84% And the shadows of the braids was forming 00:09:21.670 --> 00:09:23.470 align:middle line:90% a pattern like a swastika. 00:09:23.470 --> 00:09:27.700 align:middle line:84% That got us both to thinking about what the book had said. 00:09:27.700 --> 00:09:31.917 align:middle line:84% What about the Jews, Darlene thought, and also said. 00:09:31.917 --> 00:09:32.750 align:middle line:90% What about the Jews? 00:09:32.750 --> 00:09:35.390 align:middle line:84% They couldn't have brought the Holocaust on themselves, right? 00:09:35.390 --> 00:09:37.880 align:middle line:90% The kid went, excuse me? 00:09:37.880 --> 00:09:39.110 align:middle line:90% The Jews, you know. 00:09:39.110 --> 00:09:41.670 align:middle line:90% She pointed at the keychain. 00:09:41.670 --> 00:09:43.350 align:middle line:90% Chosen people. 00:09:43.350 --> 00:09:44.040 align:middle line:90% Jews? 00:09:44.040 --> 00:09:45.780 align:middle line:90% the kid says. 00:09:45.780 --> 00:09:48.330 align:middle line:84% Yes, because if you're an antenna-- 00:09:48.330 --> 00:09:50.490 align:middle line:90% the kid went, ma'am, are you OK? 00:09:50.490 --> 00:09:53.580 align:middle line:90% With your good thoughts, I mean. 00:09:53.580 --> 00:09:55.650 align:middle line:84% The father shut the engine, took his glasses off, 00:09:55.650 --> 00:09:57.480 align:middle line:84% rubbed his eyes, put the glasses back on. 00:09:57.480 --> 00:10:00.900 align:middle line:84% He scratched his fro and went, how much it's going to be? 00:10:00.900 --> 00:10:04.260 align:middle line:84% The grid on the kid's shirt made Darlene remember a tablecloth 00:10:04.260 --> 00:10:06.210 align:middle line:90% from her childhood. 00:10:06.210 --> 00:10:10.500 align:middle line:84% People who know me well always be making interesting leaps 00:10:10.500 --> 00:10:12.390 align:middle line:90% and turns inside they head. 00:10:12.390 --> 00:10:14.340 align:middle line:90% I call it brain dancing. 00:10:14.340 --> 00:10:17.025 align:middle line:84% Me and Darlene was doing the hustle right about then. 00:10:17.025 --> 00:10:18.900 align:middle line:84% You could hear the flutes from that Van McCoy 00:10:18.900 --> 00:10:24.930 align:middle line:84% jam going doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo, do the Hustle! 00:10:24.930 --> 00:10:26.100 align:middle line:90% She poked the boy chest. 00:10:26.100 --> 00:10:28.680 align:middle line:84% And he bent his torso away like the curve on a banana. 00:10:28.680 --> 00:10:31.710 align:middle line:84% Let's put the basket of fried chicken right here, 00:10:31.710 --> 00:10:35.010 align:middle line:84% Darlene said, figuring a little joke might break the ice. 00:10:35.010 --> 00:10:36.870 align:middle line:84% They ain't get it, so she poked him again, 00:10:36.870 --> 00:10:38.220 align:middle line:90% closer to his belly button. 00:10:38.220 --> 00:10:41.370 align:middle line:84% And the potato salad goes here, she said. 00:10:41.370 --> 00:10:43.183 align:middle line:84% I busted out laughing, and so did Darlene. 00:10:43.183 --> 00:10:44.850 align:middle line:84% But she scratched up her lungs, and that 00:10:44.850 --> 00:10:46.510 align:middle line:90% made her cough and spit. 00:10:46.510 --> 00:10:47.640 align:middle line:90% Dad. 00:10:47.640 --> 00:10:50.100 align:middle line:84% The Afro father twisted his face, getting uptight, 00:10:50.100 --> 00:10:51.210 align:middle line:90% squirming in his seat. 00:10:51.210 --> 00:10:53.160 align:middle line:84% He tugged a chunky wallet out of his pants 00:10:53.160 --> 00:10:54.450 align:middle line:90% and peeled off two $20s. 00:10:54.450 --> 00:10:57.630 align:middle line:84% So Darlene says to me, see, the book is right. 00:10:57.630 --> 00:11:01.260 align:middle line:84% I thought a good thought, and here go the $20s I dreamed of. 00:11:01.260 --> 00:11:03.360 align:middle line:90% Nice trick, I said. 00:11:03.360 --> 00:11:05.490 align:middle line:84% The man went, OK, here go my fried chicken. 00:11:05.490 --> 00:11:06.990 align:middle line:84% That's my fried chicken right there. 00:11:06.990 --> 00:11:08.340 align:middle line:90% What you do for $40? 00:11:08.340 --> 00:11:09.840 align:middle line:90% Her eyebrows rose. 00:11:09.840 --> 00:11:11.550 align:middle line:90% Dad, she is-- 00:11:11.550 --> 00:11:13.650 align:middle line:84% The father yelling and muttering at the same time. 00:11:13.650 --> 00:11:15.390 align:middle line:90% You can just shut the fuck up. 00:11:15.390 --> 00:11:19.200 align:middle line:84% You're going to prove to me you're not like that to-night. 00:11:19.200 --> 00:11:21.750 align:middle line:90% Punk cousin done turned you. 00:11:21.750 --> 00:11:24.450 align:middle line:84% The son closed his eyes and twisted away from the father. 00:11:24.450 --> 00:11:26.730 align:middle line:90% No, dad, it wasn't what you-- 00:11:26.730 --> 00:11:28.592 align:middle line:84% The son gulped down a sigh and stroked 00:11:28.592 --> 00:11:31.050 align:middle line:84% the car door handle like he probably do his dick in private 00:11:31.050 --> 00:11:34.320 align:middle line:84% then punched it in a kind of half-assed way. 00:11:34.320 --> 00:11:37.170 align:middle line:84% His Adam's apple shot down his neck and then right back up. 00:11:37.170 --> 00:11:39.150 align:middle line:84% The father chucked them bills in the kid lap. 00:11:39.150 --> 00:11:40.170 align:middle line:90% But the kid ain't budge. 00:11:40.170 --> 00:11:42.660 align:middle line:84% So in the pause, my girl picked up the Jackson twins, 00:11:42.660 --> 00:11:44.580 align:middle line:84% all gentle, like they was babies. 00:11:44.580 --> 00:11:46.290 align:middle line:84% She folded them together, thinking, 00:11:46.290 --> 00:11:48.870 align:middle line:90% my ticket to the morning light. 00:11:48.870 --> 00:11:50.700 align:middle line:90% Now we both got excited. 00:11:50.700 --> 00:11:52.313 align:middle line:90% $40 clams, not much. 00:11:52.313 --> 00:11:53.730 align:middle line:84% But it did mean we was going to be 00:11:53.730 --> 00:11:55.500 align:middle line:84% spending a whole bunch of time together 00:11:55.500 --> 00:11:57.240 align:middle line:90% in the very near future. 00:11:57.240 --> 00:12:01.320 align:middle line:84% We was like, love, soft as an easy chair, love, 00:12:01.320 --> 00:12:03.665 align:middle line:90% fresh as the morning air. 00:12:03.665 --> 00:12:05.040 align:middle line:84% Darlene wondered if we could just 00:12:05.040 --> 00:12:07.560 align:middle line:84% book right then so she wouldn't have had to do nothing else. 00:12:07.560 --> 00:12:10.800 align:middle line:84% She had too much pride in her heart for this line of work. 00:12:10.800 --> 00:12:12.770 align:middle line:84% And I kept telling her, yeah, fine. 00:12:12.770 --> 00:12:13.530 align:middle line:90% Do what you want. 00:12:13.530 --> 00:12:15.330 align:middle line:90% I don't judge nobody. 00:12:15.330 --> 00:12:18.120 align:middle line:84% The father broke the silence and went, get out the car. 00:12:18.120 --> 00:12:19.170 align:middle line:90% Get in them bushes. 00:12:19.170 --> 00:12:20.160 align:middle line:90% Get laid. 00:12:20.160 --> 00:12:21.630 align:middle line:90% He stuck out his lower lip. 00:12:21.630 --> 00:12:23.420 align:middle line:90% Bitch got my money now. 00:12:23.420 --> 00:12:25.170 align:middle line:84% The kid put his hand on the door and went, 00:12:25.170 --> 00:12:27.690 align:middle line:90% you mean your fried chicken. 00:12:27.690 --> 00:12:29.670 align:middle line:84% Darlene smiled more than her usual amount 00:12:29.670 --> 00:12:31.620 align:middle line:84% because she still thinking about the $40 00:12:31.620 --> 00:12:33.810 align:middle line:84% and had forgot that they could see her. 00:12:33.810 --> 00:12:36.300 align:middle line:84% The son kept staring, and his face gone all tight. 00:12:36.300 --> 00:12:38.160 align:middle line:90% Dad, this isn't Christian, dad. 00:12:38.160 --> 00:12:39.930 align:middle line:84% I want my first time to be special. 00:12:39.930 --> 00:12:42.150 align:middle line:84% You said you wanted me to wait for marriage. 00:12:42.150 --> 00:12:43.920 align:middle line:84% The father ashed in the tray, said, 00:12:43.920 --> 00:12:45.900 align:middle line:84% don't give me that first time bullshit. 00:12:45.900 --> 00:12:50.132 align:middle line:84% You've done some damn unholy shit already. 00:12:50.132 --> 00:12:51.090 align:middle line:90% You think I don't know? 00:12:51.090 --> 00:12:54.135 align:middle line:90% You think I'm stupid, something? 00:12:54.135 --> 00:12:56.760 align:middle line:84% The kid turned his shoulders and leaned into the father's face, 00:12:56.760 --> 00:12:58.290 align:middle line:84% trying to keep his words private. 00:12:58.290 --> 00:13:00.000 align:middle line:90% Urgh, he growled. 00:13:00.000 --> 00:13:01.980 align:middle line:90% She's really out of it. 00:13:01.980 --> 00:13:05.940 align:middle line:84% What was that crazy stuff she said about the Holocaust? 00:13:05.940 --> 00:13:08.340 align:middle line:84% Darlene shoved the Jackson twins deep in her bag 00:13:08.340 --> 00:13:10.890 align:middle line:84% to hide them shits from robbers under a change purse 00:13:10.890 --> 00:13:14.490 align:middle line:84% she found on a bathroom floor, a scratched pair of sunglasses, 00:13:14.490 --> 00:13:16.530 align:middle line:90% and a bunch of open lipsticks. 00:13:16.530 --> 00:13:19.140 align:middle line:84% She ain't know, but one of them had got extended 00:13:19.140 --> 00:13:22.320 align:middle line:84% and be smearing her possessions with all kind of red smudges. 00:13:22.320 --> 00:13:25.230 align:middle line:84% I knew because my ass was in the damn purse, 00:13:25.230 --> 00:13:27.210 align:middle line:84% a couple of tiny rocks in a glass vial 00:13:27.210 --> 00:13:29.720 align:middle line:90% that she thought she had lost. 00:13:29.720 --> 00:13:32.240 align:middle line:84% Two months ago on Easter Sunday, some guy 00:13:32.240 --> 00:13:34.490 align:middle line:84% who called hisself a coon-ass car salesman 00:13:34.490 --> 00:13:38.000 align:middle line:84% paid her to watch him fuck a watermelon. 00:13:38.000 --> 00:13:39.800 align:middle line:90% No lie. 00:13:39.800 --> 00:13:42.770 align:middle line:84% Set that melon on his card table, knifed his self 00:13:42.770 --> 00:13:44.990 align:middle line:84% a round hole in it, and made her egg him 00:13:44.990 --> 00:13:49.040 align:middle line:84% on while he's sliding his dick in and out that little globe. 00:13:49.040 --> 00:13:53.075 align:middle line:84% He says to her, it turned me on to got somebody watching. 00:13:53.075 --> 00:13:56.090 align:middle line:90% I like the shame. 00:13:56.090 --> 00:13:58.340 align:middle line:90% She couldn't think what to say. 00:13:58.340 --> 00:14:01.290 align:middle line:90% Screw that round thing. 00:14:01.290 --> 00:14:02.720 align:middle line:90% Mm, juice it, boy. 00:14:02.720 --> 00:14:03.740 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:14:03.740 --> 00:14:06.530 align:middle line:84% The fruit start weeping pink water out the hole. 00:14:06.530 --> 00:14:08.210 align:middle line:90% His hairy butt went, urgh! 00:14:08.210 --> 00:14:10.310 align:middle line:90% And he came inside that melon. 00:14:10.310 --> 00:14:11.210 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:14:11.210 --> 00:14:13.280 align:middle line:84% When he pulled out, he grinned and said, 00:14:13.280 --> 00:14:14.930 align:middle line:84% hope it don't get knocked up because I 00:14:14.930 --> 00:14:17.630 align:middle line:90% don't want no green children. 00:14:17.630 --> 00:14:20.570 align:middle line:84% Even remembering that shit, we couldn't stop laughing. 00:14:20.570 --> 00:14:22.220 align:middle line:90% Don't want no green children. 00:14:22.220 --> 00:14:24.470 align:middle line:84% Like there going to be a little watermelons with legs. 00:14:24.470 --> 00:14:26.960 align:middle line:84% I tell you though, Mr. Melon-Fucker 00:14:26.960 --> 00:14:28.940 align:middle line:90% had some green money. 00:14:28.940 --> 00:14:32.610 align:middle line:84% Darlene spent most of it on me in a day. 00:14:32.610 --> 00:14:34.970 align:middle line:84% Somebody as inside herself as Darlene right then, 00:14:34.970 --> 00:14:36.830 align:middle line:84% without no natural talent for hooking, 00:14:36.830 --> 00:14:41.540 align:middle line:84% could watch some melon-fuckers on the regular though, not bad, 00:14:41.540 --> 00:14:43.490 align:middle line:84% not like some of them other Johns. 00:14:43.490 --> 00:14:45.620 align:middle line:84% Melons had it all over cigarette butts, 00:14:45.620 --> 00:14:47.870 align:middle line:84% getting stabbed, leather belts across the back, 00:14:47.870 --> 00:14:50.780 align:middle line:84% and a curtain rod up the ass, all of which she had either had 00:14:50.780 --> 00:14:52.520 align:middle line:90% or come close to having. 00:14:52.520 --> 00:14:55.790 align:middle line:84% For a while, Darlene had this gentle, fresh attitude 00:14:55.790 --> 00:14:57.560 align:middle line:84% that made motherfuckers want to kick her 00:14:57.560 --> 00:15:00.752 align:middle line:84% in the tits like a girl in one of them Z movies. 00:15:00.752 --> 00:15:02.960 align:middle line:84% Out on the street, she always thinking about somebody 00:15:02.960 --> 00:15:04.340 align:middle line:90% might kill me. 00:15:04.340 --> 00:15:07.610 align:middle line:84% She got so obsessed with dying that she ain't 00:15:07.610 --> 00:15:10.370 align:middle line:90% take no precautions against it. 00:15:10.370 --> 00:15:13.520 align:middle line:84% To Darlene, copping ain't never meant risking her life, 00:15:13.520 --> 00:15:16.340 align:middle line:84% because not copping felt like dying anyhow. 00:15:16.340 --> 00:15:18.740 align:middle line:84% And she ain't lost that game yet. 00:15:18.740 --> 00:15:22.400 align:middle line:84% And if she did lose, well, hell, she wouldn't know. 00:15:22.400 --> 00:15:24.170 align:middle line:84% Her idea of heaven was that the two of us 00:15:24.170 --> 00:15:27.230 align:middle line:84% could kick it together 27/9 like we would say. 00:15:27.230 --> 00:15:29.720 align:middle line:84% That's 27 hours a day, nine days a week, 00:15:29.720 --> 00:15:32.270 align:middle line:84% without nobody judging our relationship, 00:15:32.270 --> 00:15:35.150 align:middle line:84% without none of the issues you get from having a body. 00:15:35.150 --> 00:15:37.260 align:middle line:84% Y'all think a body be who you is, 00:15:37.260 --> 00:15:40.310 align:middle line:84% but it ain't nothing but a motherfucking sack of meat. 00:15:40.310 --> 00:15:41.810 align:middle line:84% Darlene start inching away, thinking 00:15:41.810 --> 00:15:43.010 align:middle line:90% about making a run for it. 00:15:43.010 --> 00:15:44.840 align:middle line:84% To where, she ain't have no idea. 00:15:44.840 --> 00:15:46.610 align:middle line:84% And the father shouted her to stay put, 00:15:46.610 --> 00:15:48.320 align:middle line:90% but she ain't heard him right. 00:15:48.320 --> 00:15:50.600 align:middle line:84% Another thought that we had sewed together in her mind 00:15:50.600 --> 00:15:53.390 align:middle line:84% right then, like a thrift store quilt, spilled out her mouth 00:15:53.390 --> 00:15:54.890 align:middle line:90% without her realizing. 00:15:54.890 --> 00:16:02.300 align:middle line:84% Who does a watermelon laugh at when you kill it? 00:16:02.300 --> 00:16:03.800 align:middle line:90% Dad, I can't do this. 00:16:03.800 --> 00:16:05.240 align:middle line:90% I can't do this. 00:16:05.240 --> 00:16:07.400 align:middle line:84% Then get my motherfucking money back. 00:16:07.400 --> 00:16:07.940 align:middle line:90% What? 00:16:07.940 --> 00:16:08.660 align:middle line:90% You're kidding. 00:16:08.660 --> 00:16:09.545 align:middle line:90% Dad-- 00:16:09.545 --> 00:16:12.500 align:middle line:84% An ambulance screamed by, honking a high note 00:16:12.500 --> 00:16:13.440 align:middle line:90% then a low note. 00:16:13.440 --> 00:16:14.780 align:middle line:90% And that took they intention. 00:16:14.780 --> 00:16:16.447 align:middle line:84% They waited like criminals for the sound 00:16:16.447 --> 00:16:18.980 align:middle line:84% to die down, for normal cars to whiz over the asphalt again 00:16:18.980 --> 00:16:21.650 align:middle line:84% so they could get calm enough to ignore the background noise. 00:16:21.650 --> 00:16:25.010 align:middle line:84% And Darlene took a couple of tiny steps away from them too, 00:16:25.010 --> 00:16:27.890 align:middle line:84% before some regular noises crept back in. 00:16:27.890 --> 00:16:30.020 align:middle line:84% The kid moved his eyes to the father head 00:16:30.020 --> 00:16:33.350 align:middle line:84% then to Darlene face and swiveled again. 00:16:33.350 --> 00:16:37.850 align:middle line:84% First, he asked politely, he go, ma'am, and opened the car door. 00:16:37.850 --> 00:16:40.940 align:middle line:84% The word ma'am itself made her back up faster, 00:16:40.940 --> 00:16:43.520 align:middle line:84% like a curse reminding her who she should have been. 00:16:43.520 --> 00:16:46.940 align:middle line:84% So she turned and started to book behind the dusty front 00:16:46.940 --> 00:16:48.830 align:middle line:84% entrance to the barbecue, thinking 00:16:48.830 --> 00:16:50.900 align:middle line:84% the Jackson twins was hers now, and she ain't 00:16:50.900 --> 00:16:52.910 align:middle line:90% had to do nothing to the kid. 00:16:52.910 --> 00:16:55.100 align:middle line:84% A plastic cowboy on a red bucking bronco 00:16:55.100 --> 00:16:57.560 align:middle line:84% be dangling off the roof, broken furniture sitting 00:16:57.560 --> 00:17:00.260 align:middle line:84% behind that greasy window pane, and a For Lease sign 00:17:00.260 --> 00:17:03.579 align:middle line:84% be hanging by one corner inside the damn window. 00:17:03.579 --> 00:17:05.329 align:middle line:84% The father shoved the son against the door 00:17:05.329 --> 00:17:07.162 align:middle line:84% and went, what's the matter with you, nigga? 00:17:07.162 --> 00:17:08.490 align:middle line:90% Get that money. 00:17:08.490 --> 00:17:10.950 align:middle line:90% Ow, my elbow. 00:17:10.950 --> 00:17:13.319 align:middle line:84% Darlene ran, but it was a fence back there, 00:17:13.319 --> 00:17:14.970 align:middle line:90% and she couldn't jump that shit. 00:17:14.970 --> 00:17:18.060 align:middle line:84% The fence was too high, and she was too high. 00:17:18.060 --> 00:17:20.940 align:middle line:84% And a razor wire be swizzling around the top of the fence. 00:17:20.940 --> 00:17:23.130 align:middle line:84% She heard the car door slam and feet 00:17:23.130 --> 00:17:24.510 align:middle line:90% slap the asphalt behind her. 00:17:24.510 --> 00:17:26.490 align:middle line:84% And next thing she know, the son of a bitch 00:17:26.490 --> 00:17:27.839 align:middle line:90% had her wrists behind her back. 00:17:27.839 --> 00:17:31.080 align:middle line:84% He got some kind of sharp, athletic thing zapping 00:17:31.080 --> 00:17:33.900 align:middle line:84% through his fingers like a depth charge, youth 00:17:33.900 --> 00:17:36.900 align:middle line:84% buzzing in his veins, all gruff and rowdy and shit. 00:17:36.900 --> 00:17:39.240 align:middle line:84% She bucked around and thrust her legs back, 00:17:39.240 --> 00:17:40.920 align:middle line:84% trying to find his nuts with her heel. 00:17:40.920 --> 00:17:43.470 align:middle line:84% But she kept kicking her bag on accident. 00:17:43.470 --> 00:17:45.780 align:middle line:84% She ain't had his kind of strength. 00:17:45.780 --> 00:17:48.750 align:middle line:84% Some vagrant brother be lying by the dumpster without no shoes 00:17:48.750 --> 00:17:52.210 align:middle line:84% on, showing off his rough-ass swollen feet. 00:17:52.210 --> 00:17:53.880 align:middle line:84% One of them had a open sore that's 00:17:53.880 --> 00:17:56.280 align:middle line:90% all meaty and tracked in flies. 00:17:56.280 --> 00:17:58.920 align:middle line:84% Darlene yelling murder and rape, but the bum just lift his head 00:17:58.920 --> 00:18:00.420 align:middle line:90% and don't react no further. 00:18:00.420 --> 00:18:02.430 align:middle line:84% The young man hand came down over her mouth, 00:18:02.430 --> 00:18:05.190 align:middle line:84% and it tasted soapy, cleaner than some of Darlene's most 00:18:05.190 --> 00:18:06.930 align:middle line:90% recent meals. 00:18:06.930 --> 00:18:08.910 align:middle line:84% So she licking the webs between his fingers 00:18:08.910 --> 00:18:16.170 align:middle line:90% to get him to let go her face. 00:18:16.170 --> 00:18:19.050 align:middle line:84% But he just clamped onto her jaw more tighter. 00:18:19.050 --> 00:18:20.328 align:middle line:90% [CLEARS THROAT] 00:18:20.328 --> 00:18:21.180 align:middle line:90% 00:18:21.180 --> 00:18:23.700 align:middle line:84% The bum lift his head and put it down again. 00:18:23.700 --> 00:18:26.800 align:middle line:84% A bottle of Old Crow be his pillow and pacifier. 00:18:26.800 --> 00:18:28.530 align:middle line:84% The kid let go her mouth and figured 00:18:28.530 --> 00:18:30.570 align:middle line:84% out how to cram his hand into the bag and rifle 00:18:30.570 --> 00:18:32.160 align:middle line:90% through without letting her go. 00:18:32.160 --> 00:18:34.830 align:middle line:84% Once he had got the money, the bag fell off her arm. 00:18:34.830 --> 00:18:36.210 align:middle line:90% And he pushed her forward. 00:18:36.210 --> 00:18:39.300 align:middle line:84% She twisted her ankle and fell on her face against the curb 00:18:39.300 --> 00:18:40.030 align:middle line:90% by the dumpster. 00:18:40.030 --> 00:18:42.030 align:middle line:84% And she could feel her nose and lip and face 00:18:42.030 --> 00:18:43.770 align:middle line:90% had swole up already. 00:18:43.770 --> 00:18:47.370 align:middle line:84% A police car slowed down 50 yards away on the main road. 00:18:47.370 --> 00:18:49.650 align:middle line:84% One cop checked the scene from the passenger side, 00:18:49.650 --> 00:18:52.020 align:middle line:84% but they ain't stop, probably because the father 00:18:52.020 --> 00:18:54.000 align:middle line:90% had said everything cool. 00:18:54.000 --> 00:18:56.710 align:middle line:84% Darlene spat out two teeth and felt a third so loose, 00:18:56.710 --> 00:18:58.710 align:middle line:84% it come out when she touched it with her tongue. 00:18:58.710 --> 00:19:01.410 align:middle line:84% She rolled that puppy around in her mouth. 00:19:01.410 --> 00:19:03.780 align:middle line:84% I guess that made Darlene go more nuts. 00:19:03.780 --> 00:19:07.650 align:middle line:84% She's not vain, but she had to keep her looks to get business. 00:19:07.650 --> 00:19:10.200 align:middle line:84% I made sure she knew at least that. 00:19:10.200 --> 00:19:12.690 align:middle line:84% She picked up them teeth, stuck them in her skirt pocket, 00:19:12.690 --> 00:19:15.510 align:middle line:84% and tore after the kid, leapt on his back right 00:19:15.510 --> 00:19:16.980 align:middle line:84% as his hand touched the door handle 00:19:16.980 --> 00:19:18.690 align:middle line:84% and tried to throttle the motherfucker, 00:19:18.690 --> 00:19:20.880 align:middle line:84% using his shirt collar to get control. 00:19:20.880 --> 00:19:25.000 align:middle line:84% Man, she wanted that $40 something bad. 00:19:25.000 --> 00:19:28.060 align:middle line:84% But some powerful surprise demon leapt up out the kid too. 00:19:28.060 --> 00:19:30.310 align:middle line:84% And he threw her off and slammed her in the cheek. 00:19:30.310 --> 00:19:31.930 align:middle line:90% Darlene head snapped back. 00:19:31.930 --> 00:19:33.850 align:middle line:84% And then she stumbled and doubled over. 00:19:33.850 --> 00:19:37.630 align:middle line:84% Dull heavy pain spread out from her nose into her skull. 00:19:37.630 --> 00:19:39.640 align:middle line:84% She couldn't turn her neck without no more pain. 00:19:39.640 --> 00:19:42.280 align:middle line:84% And she tasted iron and salt, touched her lip, 00:19:42.280 --> 00:19:45.200 align:middle line:84% and held out her hand to see some cherry red fingertips. 00:19:45.200 --> 00:19:48.130 align:middle line:84% And all her love lines and hot lines and fate lines 00:19:48.130 --> 00:19:49.930 align:middle line:90% be wet with blood. 00:19:49.930 --> 00:19:58.190 align:middle line:84% The car wheels were skipping around in the gravel. 00:19:58.190 --> 00:19:59.750 align:middle line:84% Then the car turned onto the road 00:19:59.750 --> 00:20:01.700 align:middle line:84% and got smaller in the distance till you 00:20:01.700 --> 00:20:02.930 align:middle line:90% couldn't see it no more. 00:20:02.930 --> 00:20:05.060 align:middle line:84% The dust be mixing with the gritty, metal taste 00:20:05.060 --> 00:20:05.660 align:middle line:90% in her mouth. 00:20:05.660 --> 00:20:08.800 align:middle line:84% And she spat the blood and the grit on the dirt. 00:20:08.800 --> 00:20:11.710 align:middle line:90% Her gums was throbbing real bad. 00:20:11.710 --> 00:20:15.950 align:middle line:90% $40, shit, Darlene, I said. 00:20:15.950 --> 00:20:19.600 align:middle line:84% We could have been done for at least one motherfucking day. 00:20:19.600 --> 00:20:21.610 align:middle line:84% As much as I love Darlene, I couldn't 00:20:21.610 --> 00:20:23.350 align:middle line:90% hide my disappointment. 00:20:23.350 --> 00:20:25.420 align:middle line:84% I could get sort of angry sometimes. 00:20:25.420 --> 00:20:26.800 align:middle line:90% I ain't proud of it. 00:20:26.800 --> 00:20:29.480 align:middle line:84% But she had a thing where she crumbled under pressure. 00:20:29.480 --> 00:20:30.850 align:middle line:90% So I threw a fit. 00:20:30.850 --> 00:20:31.970 align:middle line:90% I lost it. 00:20:31.970 --> 00:20:34.270 align:middle line:84% I was hollering and cussing and accusing her 00:20:34.270 --> 00:20:36.180 align:middle line:90% of being unfaithful to me. 00:20:36.180 --> 00:20:38.680 align:middle line:84% Then I guess I made it clear that I wouldn't let her go home 00:20:38.680 --> 00:20:41.410 align:middle line:84% until she gets some money and we could go brain dancing together 00:20:41.410 --> 00:20:43.150 align:middle line:90% 27/9. 00:20:43.150 --> 00:20:45.190 align:middle line:84% She looked at me with her cheeks deflated. 00:20:45.190 --> 00:20:48.310 align:middle line:84% Who's going to pick up my sorry behind now, she asked, 00:20:48.310 --> 00:20:51.850 align:middle line:84% with my face broken, three missing teeth, and no shoes? 00:20:51.850 --> 00:20:53.510 align:middle line:90% I can't do this anymore. 00:20:53.510 --> 00:20:54.580 align:middle line:90% This is horrible. 00:20:54.580 --> 00:20:56.110 align:middle line:90% I give up. 00:20:56.110 --> 00:20:58.570 align:middle line:90% God damn it, I shouted. 00:20:58.570 --> 00:21:00.070 align:middle line:90% Maybe crew cut's right. 00:21:00.070 --> 00:21:02.910 align:middle line:90% Maybe you is lazy, you fucking-- 00:21:02.910 --> 00:21:05.670 align:middle line:84% I made myself hoarse yelling inside her head. 00:21:05.670 --> 00:21:07.710 align:middle line:84% I called her a billion nasty insults 00:21:07.710 --> 00:21:09.900 align:middle line:90% I can't even repeat here. 00:21:09.900 --> 00:21:11.940 align:middle line:84% I went, you don't really want to be with me. 00:21:11.940 --> 00:21:13.170 align:middle line:90% You don't love me. 00:21:13.170 --> 00:21:14.160 align:middle line:90% I cried. 00:21:14.160 --> 00:21:17.160 align:middle line:90% She made me weep. 00:21:17.160 --> 00:21:20.250 align:middle line:84% Scotty, she screamed, please stop. 00:21:20.250 --> 00:21:22.200 align:middle line:84% Just tell me how I can get the money now. 00:21:22.200 --> 00:21:23.880 align:middle line:90% Scotty, I do love you. 00:21:23.880 --> 00:21:26.340 align:middle line:90% And I will do anything for you. 00:21:26.340 --> 00:21:28.440 align:middle line:90% I pointed her face at the road. 00:21:28.440 --> 00:21:30.510 align:middle line:90% Get out there, I said. 00:21:30.510 --> 00:21:33.810 align:middle line:84% Ain't nothing shameful about trying to survive, bitch. 00:21:33.810 --> 00:21:36.860 align:middle line:84% Don't you know the street always got an answer? 00:21:36.860 --> 00:21:38.780 align:middle line:90% And of course I was right. 00:21:38.780 --> 00:21:39.590 align:middle line:90% Thank you. 00:21:39.590 --> 00:21:42.040 align:middle line:90% [APPLAUSE]