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"Apparition."

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I'm carrying an orange
plastic basket of compost

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down from the top of the
garden, sweet dark, fibrous rot,

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promising, when the light
changes as if someone slipped

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a switch that does what?--

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reverses the day.

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Leaves chorusing, dizzy.

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And then my mother says--

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she's been gone more than 30
years, not her voice, the voice

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of her in me--

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You've got to forgive me.

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I'm choked and sputter in
the wild daylight, speechless

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to that.

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Maybe I'm really
crazy now, but I

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believe in the backwards
morning I am my mother's son.

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We are at last equally in
love with intoxication.

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I am unregenerate.

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The trees are on fire,
58 years of lost bells.

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I drop my basket and stand
struck in the iron mouth

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afternoon.

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She says, I never
meant to harm you.

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Then the young dog barks
down by the front gate.

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He's probably gotten out,
and she says calmly, clearly,

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go take care of your baby.

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