WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.580 align:middle line:90% 00:00:02.580 --> 00:00:04.830 align:middle line:84% This is the next title I tried on my editor-- 00:00:04.830 --> 00:00:08.189 align:middle line:84% "Because You Aren't Here to Be What I Can't Think Of." 00:00:08.189 --> 00:00:10.320 align:middle line:90% She turned that right down. 00:00:10.320 --> 00:00:12.030 align:middle line:84% They'll never remember that, she said. 00:00:12.030 --> 00:00:17.814 align:middle line:90% 00:00:17.814 --> 00:00:20.850 align:middle line:84% "Because you aren't here to be what I can't think of I 00:00:20.850 --> 00:00:22.050 align:middle line:90% need most. 00:00:22.050 --> 00:00:24.690 align:middle line:84% Because you aren't pouring me a scotch with your hands 00:00:24.690 --> 00:00:26.820 align:middle line:90% all over the ice cubes. 00:00:26.820 --> 00:00:29.640 align:middle line:84% Because the moon's another streetlight and your lights are 00:00:29.640 --> 00:00:33.180 align:middle line:84% off and on in someone else's; because you warned me, 00:00:33.180 --> 00:00:36.060 align:middle line:84% thinking were good, but you weren't. 00:00:36.060 --> 00:00:39.270 align:middle line:84% Because I imagine your almost-skinny legs and ideal 00:00:39.270 --> 00:00:42.720 align:middle line:84% ass from the back as you put more Debussy on the stereo 00:00:42.720 --> 00:00:46.500 align:middle line:84% with the 10:00 AM sun deliciously licking you. 00:00:46.500 --> 00:00:48.840 align:middle line:84% Because I'm in trouble, hotheaded, 00:00:48.840 --> 00:00:52.620 align:middle line:84% bored with the necessary, and can't put on my jogging shoes 00:00:52.620 --> 00:00:56.160 align:middle line:84% in spite of their blue Nike stride. 00:00:56.160 --> 00:00:59.460 align:middle line:84% Because your mouth is wistful, off on the grand tour, 00:00:59.460 --> 00:01:01.350 align:middle line:90% and I want to be every stop. 00:01:01.350 --> 00:01:04.260 align:middle line:84% Because you won't stop long enough to get really 00:01:04.260 --> 00:01:07.620 align:middle line:84% scared when you see how deep you go in me, how deep I 00:01:07.620 --> 00:01:10.000 align:middle line:90% come inside you, inside you. 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:12.990 align:middle line:84% Let me go inside you and come up for more. 00:01:12.990 --> 00:01:16.290 align:middle line:84% Because there are the soft syllabic fruits of Brazil 00:01:16.290 --> 00:01:20.220 align:middle line:84% yet to taste and our 20 juicy fingers amoroso 00:01:20.220 --> 00:01:21.840 align:middle line:90% on a white cotton shore. 00:01:21.840 --> 00:01:22.890 align:middle line:90% In what country? 00:01:22.890 --> 00:01:25.950 align:middle line:90% Is it meant for us? 00:01:25.950 --> 00:01:28.920 align:middle line:84% Because we are changing each other's proportions 00:01:28.920 --> 00:01:31.080 align:middle line:90% and how much there is to know. 00:01:31.080 --> 00:01:34.650 align:middle line:84% Because you still believe you are always in control. 00:01:34.650 --> 00:01:37.990 align:middle line:84% Oh, a syllogism is a safe place to be, 00:01:37.990 --> 00:01:42.060 align:middle line:84% but not as mysterious as a rare Chablis. 00:01:42.060 --> 00:01:44.850 align:middle line:84% Because I keep trying to be ambidextrous and adapt 00:01:44.850 --> 00:01:46.050 align:middle line:90% to this double vision. 00:01:46.050 --> 00:01:47.250 align:middle line:90% But my eyes hurt. 00:01:47.250 --> 00:01:49.020 align:middle line:84% And in the last dream, you came right in 00:01:49.020 --> 00:01:50.940 align:middle line:90% and went to sleep on my floor. 00:01:50.940 --> 00:01:52.710 align:middle line:84% Because I want to tell you the truth. 00:01:52.710 --> 00:01:55.440 align:middle line:84% And you think of yourself as not truthful enough. 00:01:55.440 --> 00:01:59.250 align:middle line:84% But you listen and are sometimes coming nearer. 00:01:59.250 --> 00:02:02.700 align:middle line:84% Because the old stories, you know them backwards. 00:02:02.700 --> 00:02:04.200 align:middle line:90% You know them forwards. 00:02:04.200 --> 00:02:06.630 align:middle line:84% And they need more pictures in them with windows, 00:02:06.630 --> 00:02:11.100 align:middle line:84% and doorways, and smoke drawn in pencil curling out the chimney. 00:02:11.100 --> 00:02:13.057 align:middle line:84% Because it's getting late and you know 00:02:13.057 --> 00:02:15.480 align:middle line:84% you can fool almost anyone but me. 00:02:15.480 --> 00:02:17.310 align:middle line:90% But so what? 00:02:17.310 --> 00:02:20.790 align:middle line:84% There you are now in your fabulous brown Italian shoes-- 00:02:20.790 --> 00:02:23.040 align:middle line:84% the man whose soul I love and chest 00:02:23.040 --> 00:02:27.750 align:middle line:84% under cotton shirt, which I bite into with this thought in spite 00:02:27.750 --> 00:02:31.350 align:middle line:84% of those not quite open eyes, so intent on their hiding 00:02:31.350 --> 00:02:33.090 align:middle line:90% you are careful of. 00:02:33.090 --> 00:02:35.970 align:middle line:84% Because there's a saxophone playing between our telephones. 00:02:35.970 --> 00:02:38.820 align:middle line:84% But you can't pick it up because of your other life, 00:02:38.820 --> 00:02:41.970 align:middle line:84% the life that came first, that comes first tonight 00:02:41.970 --> 00:02:44.880 align:middle line:84% even in our city, life I came after, 00:02:44.880 --> 00:02:47.520 align:middle line:84% and other lives that I continue to come after. 00:02:47.520 --> 00:02:52.560 align:middle line:84% Because logic always dictates an order, reasonable, one before 00:02:52.560 --> 00:02:55.140 align:middle line:90% two, two before three. 00:02:55.140 --> 00:03:00.180 align:middle line:84% Because I will not always be she who is willing to be logical, 00:03:00.180 --> 00:03:03.990 align:middle line:90% not always be two, three. 00:03:03.990 --> 00:03:08.190 align:middle line:84% Because I love the new in you and the years of us 00:03:08.190 --> 00:03:12.330 align:middle line:84% but listen closely when you tell yourself to me how you never 00:03:12.330 --> 00:03:17.100 align:middle line:84% want to hurt again someone, as though only one of us 00:03:17.100 --> 00:03:19.140 align:middle line:90% were someone. 00:03:19.140 --> 00:03:21.120 align:middle line:84% Because I want to do it, let's do it 00:03:21.120 --> 00:03:22.800 align:middle line:90% to a brassy salsa trumpet. 00:03:22.800 --> 00:03:25.230 align:middle line:84% Because I'm not on a dance floor with you, 00:03:25.230 --> 00:03:29.400 align:middle line:84% but here hanging out with my shadow over a city of windows, 00:03:29.400 --> 00:03:35.360 align:middle line:84% lit up, imagining another kind of life, almost like this one.