WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.398 align:middle line:90% [APPLAUSE] 00:00:01.398 --> 00:00:06.060 align:middle line:90% 00:00:06.060 --> 00:00:10.950 align:middle line:90% A lot of people ask me-- 00:00:10.950 --> 00:00:13.860 align:middle line:84% the question arises again and again-- 00:00:13.860 --> 00:00:16.980 align:middle line:84% how did you learn to read and write? 00:00:16.980 --> 00:00:20.700 align:middle line:84% Well, I can answer this for all of you by reading something 00:00:20.700 --> 00:00:24.780 align:middle line:84% that I wrote about the night I decided 00:00:24.780 --> 00:00:29.280 align:middle line:90% that I wanted to go to school. 00:00:29.280 --> 00:00:33.810 align:middle line:84% And it happened while I was in Florence. 00:00:33.810 --> 00:00:44.735 align:middle line:84% And it's a crazy story because I had a lot of friends in prison 00:00:44.735 --> 00:00:46.347 align:middle line:90% there. 00:00:46.347 --> 00:00:48.180 align:middle line:84% Anyway, I went to reclassification committee 00:00:48.180 --> 00:00:50.160 align:middle line:84% because they said I could go to school. 00:00:50.160 --> 00:00:53.640 align:middle line:84% And when I went to the reclass committee, 00:00:53.640 --> 00:00:55.458 align:middle line:84% Mad Dog Madril, Captain Avenitti, 00:00:55.458 --> 00:00:57.750 align:middle line:84% Five Hundred-- there was a guard named Five Hundred who 00:00:57.750 --> 00:01:00.330 align:middle line:84% was over Five Hundred pounds, and they 00:01:00.330 --> 00:01:02.358 align:middle line:90% would send him to crush people. 00:01:02.358 --> 00:01:03.900 align:middle line:84% And he had questioned me a few times, 00:01:03.900 --> 00:01:08.310 align:middle line:84% and I was terrified of the man, of his shoes-- they were huge. 00:01:08.310 --> 00:01:11.040 align:middle line:84% And like one stomp, he could break a few ribs, 00:01:11.040 --> 00:01:13.530 align:middle line:84% and another stomp would break your jaw. 00:01:13.530 --> 00:01:16.110 align:middle line:84% And his legs were like, must have been 200 pounds. 00:01:16.110 --> 00:01:18.465 align:middle line:84% Just one leg, and I'll just [WHOOSH].. 00:01:18.465 --> 00:01:23.070 align:middle line:84% It'd be like dropping a 200 pound weight on your head. 00:01:23.070 --> 00:01:25.470 align:middle line:84% Well anyway, I went to reclassification committee, 00:01:25.470 --> 00:01:28.020 align:middle line:84% and I didn't get in a fight, and I didn't do anything bad 00:01:28.020 --> 00:01:29.070 align:middle line:90% for about 90 days. 00:01:29.070 --> 00:01:31.170 align:middle line:84% And they said if you don't get in any fights, 00:01:31.170 --> 00:01:32.340 align:middle line:90% you can go to school. 00:01:32.340 --> 00:01:35.400 align:middle line:90% I wanted to learn how to read. 00:01:35.400 --> 00:01:37.140 align:middle line:90% And I went and I believed them. 00:01:37.140 --> 00:01:40.920 align:middle line:84% And when I got to reclassification committee, 00:01:40.920 --> 00:01:42.390 align:middle line:84% they said I couldn't go to school. 00:01:42.390 --> 00:01:45.000 align:middle line:84% And in fact, they were very insulting to me. 00:01:45.000 --> 00:01:46.740 align:middle line:84% And something had happened in my body 00:01:46.740 --> 00:01:49.170 align:middle line:84% where they disconnected my nervous system. 00:01:49.170 --> 00:01:52.020 align:middle line:84% When the guy-- when Mad Dog Madril, Captain Avenitti 00:01:52.020 --> 00:01:55.410 align:middle line:90% said it's over, the meeting. 00:01:55.410 --> 00:01:56.550 align:middle line:90% He said I could leave. 00:01:56.550 --> 00:01:59.970 align:middle line:84% And for the first time in my life, I panicked. 00:01:59.970 --> 00:02:05.220 align:middle line:84% I panicked and I said, up-- get up. 00:02:05.220 --> 00:02:08.928 align:middle line:84% And my body, for the first time, didn't obey my thoughts. 00:02:08.928 --> 00:02:10.470 align:middle line:84% And I said, Jimmy, you got to get up. 00:02:10.470 --> 00:02:11.130 align:middle line:90% What's going on? 00:02:11.130 --> 00:02:12.810 align:middle line:84% And I was really terrified that something terribly 00:02:12.810 --> 00:02:15.393 align:middle line:84% had gone wrong with my nervous system because I couldn't move. 00:02:15.393 --> 00:02:17.370 align:middle line:90% My body wouldn't move anymore. 00:02:17.370 --> 00:02:20.340 align:middle line:84% And Mad Dog looked at Five Hundred, 00:02:20.340 --> 00:02:22.530 align:middle line:84% and a counselor was in there too. 00:02:22.530 --> 00:02:24.000 align:middle line:84% But Mad Dog looked at Five Hundred, 00:02:24.000 --> 00:02:25.080 align:middle line:84% and I was looking at the counselor 00:02:25.080 --> 00:02:27.180 align:middle line:84% because he had promised me I could go to school. 00:02:27.180 --> 00:02:28.638 align:middle line:84% And I was saying, at the same time, 00:02:28.638 --> 00:02:30.810 align:middle line:84% I looked at Captain Avenitti, and he was saying, 00:02:30.810 --> 00:02:31.770 align:middle line:90% you're dismissed. 00:02:31.770 --> 00:02:33.810 align:middle line:84% And I was like, Jimmy, you got to get up, dude. 00:02:33.810 --> 00:02:35.643 align:middle line:84% And Captain Avenitti looked at Five Hundred, 00:02:35.643 --> 00:02:37.590 align:middle line:90% and Five Hundred got up. 00:02:37.590 --> 00:02:39.427 align:middle line:90% And I thought, holy shit, man. 00:02:39.427 --> 00:02:41.760 align:middle line:84% I said, Jimmy, you got to get up out of the chair, dude. 00:02:41.760 --> 00:02:44.160 align:middle line:90% But my body just didn't move. 00:02:44.160 --> 00:02:46.325 align:middle line:90% A trauma came out. 00:02:46.325 --> 00:02:47.700 align:middle line:84% I don't know what the trauma was, 00:02:47.700 --> 00:02:48.908 align:middle line:90% but something happened to me. 00:02:48.908 --> 00:02:51.130 align:middle line:84% And the next thing I remember was I got hit. 00:02:51.130 --> 00:02:54.720 align:middle line:84% And I remember hurling through the room, falling around, 00:02:54.720 --> 00:02:56.790 align:middle line:84% and then I remember waking up in my cell. 00:02:56.790 --> 00:03:00.090 align:middle line:84% And my legs were so badly beaten that I couldn't get up. 00:03:00.090 --> 00:03:02.190 align:middle line:84% And I remember one of the guards was 00:03:02.190 --> 00:03:05.370 align:middle line:84% so nice that he came to my cell and said, are you OK, man? 00:03:05.370 --> 00:03:06.593 align:middle line:90% Are you OK? 00:03:06.593 --> 00:03:07.260 align:middle line:90% And I was like-- 00:03:07.260 --> 00:03:09.302 align:middle line:84% I didn't even know I hadn't been out of the room. 00:03:09.302 --> 00:03:11.650 align:middle line:84% And I tried to get up, and I couldn't walk. 00:03:11.650 --> 00:03:13.948 align:middle line:84% And I had blood on my face and stuff. 00:03:13.948 --> 00:03:15.990 align:middle line:84% And it was really amazing because I was thinking, 00:03:15.990 --> 00:03:19.610 align:middle line:84% this guard I always thought was a mean guard was asking me, 00:03:19.610 --> 00:03:20.110 align:middle line:90% are you OK? 00:03:20.110 --> 00:03:21.800 align:middle line:90% You want to go to the infirmary? 00:03:21.800 --> 00:03:23.160 align:middle line:90% I was like, I'm OK. 00:03:23.160 --> 00:03:25.560 align:middle line:84% So I decided something happened, and I just 00:03:25.560 --> 00:03:29.430 align:middle line:84% started staying in my cell, and I quit working. 00:03:29.430 --> 00:03:33.600 align:middle line:84% Over the next week, I quit making my bunk 00:03:33.600 --> 00:03:36.390 align:middle line:90% and cleaning my cell. 00:03:36.390 --> 00:03:38.490 align:middle line:84% As usual, every time the Bull came down the tier, 00:03:38.490 --> 00:03:41.790 align:middle line:84% he placed a writeup on the bars for breaking rules. 00:03:41.790 --> 00:03:43.950 align:middle line:84% When I looked at the pile of pink slips, 00:03:43.950 --> 00:03:47.130 align:middle line:84% I had the feeling I was fucking everything up. 00:03:47.130 --> 00:03:49.320 align:middle line:84% I also knew that by simply refusing to take them 00:03:49.320 --> 00:03:52.590 align:middle line:84% off the bars, I was deflating the importance of what 00:03:52.590 --> 00:03:54.282 align:middle line:90% they represented. 00:03:54.282 --> 00:03:55.990 align:middle line:84% For the next few days when the tier guard 00:03:55.990 --> 00:03:59.010 align:middle line:84% stood in front of my cell with his clipboard at count time 00:03:59.010 --> 00:04:01.830 align:middle line:84% and barked out my number, I turned my back on him 00:04:01.830 --> 00:04:03.840 align:middle line:90% like he wasn't there. 00:04:03.840 --> 00:04:07.080 align:middle line:84% He placed another writeup on the bars and moved on. 00:04:07.080 --> 00:04:10.200 align:middle line:84% The cons wondered when I might get up and stand for count 00:04:10.200 --> 00:04:12.300 align:middle line:90% time, but I never did. 00:04:12.300 --> 00:04:13.770 align:middle line:84% To this day, it still amazes me how 00:04:13.770 --> 00:04:17.339 align:middle line:84% taking myself out of the system and refusing to work 00:04:17.339 --> 00:04:19.649 align:middle line:90% had everybody in an upheaval-- 00:04:19.649 --> 00:04:22.260 align:middle line:84% from guards, friends, cons, everyone. 00:04:22.260 --> 00:04:26.220 align:middle line:84% The more I did nothing, the more aggravated everyone became. 00:04:26.220 --> 00:04:28.830 align:middle line:84% It was the first time I felt I was accomplishing something, 00:04:28.830 --> 00:04:31.920 align:middle line:90% even though I couldn't see why. 00:04:31.920 --> 00:04:33.420 align:middle line:84% Regardless of what little my life 00:04:33.420 --> 00:04:35.190 align:middle line:84% meant in the larger scheme of things, 00:04:35.190 --> 00:04:38.400 align:middle line:84% at least for the moment, it was my life and not the wardens, 00:04:38.400 --> 00:04:40.380 align:middle line:84% despite what he had shouted at me. 00:04:40.380 --> 00:04:43.560 align:middle line:84% It didn't belong to the state, the judge, the guards, 00:04:43.560 --> 00:04:45.000 align:middle line:90% or the cons. 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:48.190 align:middle line:84% They told me all my life what to do, and I did. 00:04:48.190 --> 00:04:50.412 align:middle line:90% But I couldn't take it anymore. 00:04:50.412 --> 00:04:52.620 align:middle line:84% Before my reclass hearing, I was getting it together. 00:04:52.620 --> 00:04:54.270 align:middle line:84% I had friends and respect, and I was 00:04:54.270 --> 00:04:56.070 align:middle line:84% starting to believe I was going to make it. 00:04:56.070 --> 00:04:58.500 align:middle line:84% Who knew that not working would take me out of my life 00:04:58.500 --> 00:05:01.630 align:middle line:84% as I lived it, and a whole new, chaotic, unrecognizable 00:05:01.630 --> 00:05:03.040 align:middle line:90% reality? 00:05:03.040 --> 00:05:04.965 align:middle line:90% It started with my homeboys. 00:05:04.965 --> 00:05:07.090 align:middle line:84% At first they extended their hands and their hearts 00:05:07.090 --> 00:05:09.560 align:middle line:84% to help me with whatever might be disturbing me. 00:05:09.560 --> 00:05:10.750 align:middle line:90% I backed them up. 00:05:10.750 --> 00:05:12.160 align:middle line:90% I had a lot of respect. 00:05:12.160 --> 00:05:14.740 align:middle line:84% They'd stop at my cell and exchange a few words. 00:05:14.740 --> 00:05:16.880 align:middle line:90% Now they started avoiding me. 00:05:16.880 --> 00:05:18.730 align:middle line:84% They avoided my eyes, or if they did look, 00:05:18.730 --> 00:05:21.370 align:middle line:84% it was a quick side view that meant they now suspected me 00:05:21.370 --> 00:05:23.710 align:middle line:84% of being a coward, or betraying their trust, 00:05:23.710 --> 00:05:25.150 align:middle line:90% or letting them down. 00:05:25.150 --> 00:05:27.340 align:middle line:84% I could sense the peer pressure boiling over, 00:05:27.340 --> 00:05:30.910 align:middle line:84% the secret accusations in their blood, the hardcore, stone cold 00:05:30.910 --> 00:05:31.420 align:middle line:90% glares. 00:05:31.420 --> 00:05:33.250 align:middle line:84% And finally I heard the words I dreaded-- 00:05:33.250 --> 00:05:35.170 align:middle line:90% maybe he's a snitch. 00:05:35.170 --> 00:05:36.610 align:middle line:90% No, maybe he's a punk. 00:05:36.610 --> 00:05:37.860 align:middle line:90% Man, he's afraid. 00:05:37.860 --> 00:05:38.360 align:middle line:90% Es puto. 00:05:38.360 --> 00:05:39.425 align:middle line:90% No vale verga. 00:05:39.425 --> 00:05:40.150 align:middle line:90% No tiene corazón. 00:05:40.150 --> 00:05:41.290 align:middle line:90% Chale con aquel vato. 00:05:41.290 --> 00:05:42.100 align:middle line:90% He's a sissy. 00:05:42.100 --> 00:05:45.160 align:middle line:84% He ain't worth it, doesn't have heart, forget him. 00:05:45.160 --> 00:05:48.190 align:middle line:84% Guards on every shift routinely came to my cell, 00:05:48.190 --> 00:05:51.460 align:middle line:84% and raking a baton across the bars, called my number. 00:05:51.460 --> 00:05:54.370 align:middle line:84% When I just stared back, they checked my number off 00:05:54.370 --> 00:05:57.370 align:middle line:84% on a clipboard and placed another writeup on the others. 00:05:57.370 --> 00:05:59.170 align:middle line:84% The counselor came up on the third week. 00:05:59.170 --> 00:06:00.790 align:middle line:84% What the hell are you trying to pull? 00:06:00.790 --> 00:06:02.890 align:middle line:90% He stood away from the bars. 00:06:02.890 --> 00:06:05.110 align:middle line:90% Fuck you, liar, I said. 00:06:05.110 --> 00:06:07.720 align:middle line:84% Turned my back on him and faced the sink. 00:06:07.720 --> 00:06:11.830 align:middle line:84% I spooned coffee in my plastic cup, filled it with hot water 00:06:11.830 --> 00:06:13.660 align:middle line:90% from the tap, and stirred it. 00:06:13.660 --> 00:06:16.180 align:middle line:84% I turned and stared at him, thinking, 00:06:16.180 --> 00:06:18.710 align:middle line:84% you promised me, man, I could go to school. 00:06:18.710 --> 00:06:20.890 align:middle line:90% Why'd you do that, man? 00:06:20.890 --> 00:06:23.710 align:middle line:84% Behind him other cons across the way were watching. 00:06:23.710 --> 00:06:26.433 align:middle line:84% I drank the coffee and felt it warm and bitter in my stomach. 00:06:26.433 --> 00:06:28.600 align:middle line:84% The whole time I was glaring at him, I was thinking, 00:06:28.600 --> 00:06:30.828 align:middle line:90% why did you set me up? 00:06:30.828 --> 00:06:32.620 align:middle line:84% My look must have frightened him because he 00:06:32.620 --> 00:06:34.750 align:middle line:90% left without saying anything. 00:06:34.750 --> 00:06:36.640 align:middle line:84% Later, when everyone had come in from work 00:06:36.640 --> 00:06:39.160 align:middle line:84% and was showering and getting ready for supper, 00:06:39.160 --> 00:06:41.440 align:middle line:84% five guards stormed through the front of the block 00:06:41.440 --> 00:06:44.680 align:middle line:84% into the landing with riot gear helmets, shields and batons. 00:06:44.680 --> 00:06:49.090 align:middle line:84% And in the lead, Mad Dog Madril yelled at the tier guard 00:06:49.090 --> 00:06:52.540 align:middle line:84% to wreck my cell as the goons came up the shaking stairwell. 00:06:52.540 --> 00:06:54.640 align:middle line:90% Shake it down, Mad Dog seethed. 00:06:54.640 --> 00:06:57.120 align:middle line:84% He pushed me out on the tier in my boxers. 00:06:57.120 --> 00:06:58.787 align:middle line:84% Cons stuck mirrors out through the bars, 00:06:58.787 --> 00:07:01.203 align:middle line:84% and I could see their confused faces and their questioning 00:07:01.203 --> 00:07:01.780 align:middle line:90% eyes. 00:07:01.780 --> 00:07:03.430 align:middle line:84% The goons ripped the mattress apart, 00:07:03.430 --> 00:07:06.520 align:middle line:84% squeezed out the toothpaste tube, emptied my tobacco bag 00:07:06.520 --> 00:07:08.440 align:middle line:84% searching my cell for a shank or drugs. 00:07:08.440 --> 00:07:10.180 align:middle line:84% And all they found was a small packet 00:07:10.180 --> 00:07:11.470 align:middle line:90% of sugar from the kitchen. 00:07:11.470 --> 00:07:14.410 align:middle line:84% Add contraband to the charges, Mad Dog commanded. 00:07:14.410 --> 00:07:16.450 align:middle line:84% Five Hundred jabbed me with a stick in the back 00:07:16.450 --> 00:07:17.950 align:middle line:84% and marched me down into the landing 00:07:17.950 --> 00:07:19.540 align:middle line:90% in the middle of the block. 00:07:19.540 --> 00:07:21.340 align:middle line:84% Cons stood at the bars as one voice. 00:07:21.340 --> 00:07:23.860 align:middle line:84% And then another and another cursed in a deafening roar. 00:07:23.860 --> 00:07:28.300 align:middle line:84% They shook the bars, yelping like hyenas over fresh kill. 00:07:28.300 --> 00:07:31.180 align:middle line:84% I tried to tell myself they were cursing the guards, 00:07:31.180 --> 00:07:33.340 align:middle line:84% but it was me they were condemning. 00:07:33.340 --> 00:07:35.800 align:middle line:84% I remember the humiliation of seeing them grip the bars 00:07:35.800 --> 00:07:38.920 align:middle line:84% and push their faces forward as they screamed. 00:07:38.920 --> 00:07:41.380 align:middle line:84% They had revealed their secrets to me. 00:07:41.380 --> 00:07:43.040 align:middle line:90% I was one of them. 00:07:43.040 --> 00:07:44.680 align:middle line:84% And believing I had turned on them 00:07:44.680 --> 00:07:46.660 align:middle line:84% made me no different from all the perpetrators 00:07:46.660 --> 00:07:48.100 align:middle line:90% who had killed their spirits. 00:07:48.100 --> 00:07:51.190 align:middle line:84% Because I was the friend they had embraced, and now 00:07:51.190 --> 00:07:55.540 align:middle line:84% who thought had turned and who had stabbed them in the back. 00:07:55.540 --> 00:08:00.140 align:middle line:84% That was one of the worst and strangest days of my life. 00:08:00.140 --> 00:08:03.590 align:middle line:84% Their rage forcing me to find out something about myself 00:08:03.590 --> 00:08:07.130 align:middle line:84% which didn't exist, yet which I felt struggling to come out. 00:08:07.130 --> 00:08:09.130 align:middle line:84% Stripped of everything I believed in-- my pride, 00:08:09.130 --> 00:08:11.410 align:middle line:90% my friends, my reputation-- 00:08:11.410 --> 00:08:12.700 align:middle line:90% everything was gone. 00:08:12.700 --> 00:08:15.700 align:middle line:84% And I felt as if I was on the verge of discovering something 00:08:15.700 --> 00:08:18.940 align:middle line:90% else about myself in the world. 00:08:18.940 --> 00:08:21.160 align:middle line:84% And I was facing the tears toward myself 00:08:21.160 --> 00:08:24.130 align:middle line:84% when a cup of scalding water hit me in the shoulder from behind. 00:08:24.130 --> 00:08:27.070 align:middle line:84% I turned, and someone else threw urine, 00:08:27.070 --> 00:08:30.460 align:middle line:84% and then someone else threw a Styrofoam cup of feces. 00:08:30.460 --> 00:08:32.110 align:middle line:84% It was as if I was standing outside 00:08:32.110 --> 00:08:34.690 align:middle line:90% of myself watching this. 00:08:34.690 --> 00:08:37.809 align:middle line:84% I told myself, got nothing to do with me. 00:08:37.809 --> 00:08:39.900 align:middle line:90% I wiped my face with my hands. 00:08:39.900 --> 00:08:41.650 align:middle line:84% The yelling caught on, and the whole block 00:08:41.650 --> 00:08:43.610 align:middle line:90% was cursing from both sides. 00:08:43.610 --> 00:08:46.900 align:middle line:84% And when I go back to that night now, I think I felt at the time 00:08:46.900 --> 00:08:48.760 align:middle line:90% that I was insane. 00:08:48.760 --> 00:08:50.237 align:middle line:90% I must have been. 00:08:50.237 --> 00:08:51.820 align:middle line:84% That it would only be a matter of time 00:08:51.820 --> 00:08:54.220 align:middle line:84% before I swirled into a pit of disintegration. 00:08:54.220 --> 00:08:56.050 align:middle line:84% And with white eyes I watched the ones 00:08:56.050 --> 00:08:59.780 align:middle line:90% who didn't scream watch me. 00:08:59.780 --> 00:09:02.410 align:middle line:84% They were watching me with detached pity thinking, 00:09:02.410 --> 00:09:04.420 align:middle line:90% they thought I was crazy. 00:09:04.420 --> 00:09:06.760 align:middle line:84% And even them, they could go crazy. 00:09:06.760 --> 00:09:08.410 align:middle line:90% Anyone could break now. 00:09:08.410 --> 00:09:10.120 align:middle line:90% A link in the chain had snapped. 00:09:10.120 --> 00:09:13.810 align:middle line:84% And for that, their repugnance stormed down on me, 00:09:13.810 --> 00:09:16.670 align:middle line:84% shaking tears and trembling concrete. 00:09:16.670 --> 00:09:19.690 align:middle line:84% And I stood there, quietly taking it all in, 00:09:19.690 --> 00:09:23.920 align:middle line:84% pretending to myself someone else was standing there, 00:09:23.920 --> 00:09:26.050 align:middle line:90% not me. 00:09:26.050 --> 00:09:28.000 align:middle line:84% Mad Dog Madril came down and chained me 00:09:28.000 --> 00:09:31.060 align:middle line:84% around the waist, hands and wrists. 00:09:31.060 --> 00:09:33.310 align:middle line:84% And then he and the goons marched me out of the block. 00:09:33.310 --> 00:09:35.970 align:middle line:90% 00:09:35.970 --> 00:09:41.760 align:middle line:84% Outside, going across the yard, I looked up at the stars, 00:09:41.760 --> 00:09:43.620 align:middle line:90% and I knew. 00:09:43.620 --> 00:09:46.380 align:middle line:84% Despite this loathing by the world, 00:09:46.380 --> 00:09:50.220 align:middle line:84% by everyone, by standing up for myself 00:09:50.220 --> 00:09:54.370 align:middle line:84% I had done something completely new. 00:09:54.370 --> 00:09:57.640 align:middle line:84% I might have lost the respect of my peers. 00:09:57.640 --> 00:09:59.430 align:middle line:84% But I was feeling a sense of my own worth 00:09:59.430 --> 00:10:02.080 align:middle line:90% that I never felt before. 00:10:02.080 --> 00:10:05.160 align:middle line:84% I knew I was no longer a 22-year-old illiterate Brown 00:10:05.160 --> 00:10:09.090 align:middle line:84% man, not just another con with a number who was going to submit 00:10:09.090 --> 00:10:11.760 align:middle line:90% to the degradation-- 00:10:11.760 --> 00:10:13.620 align:middle line:90% not anymore. 00:10:13.620 --> 00:10:18.690 align:middle line:84% Something had altered in me, and I felt tremendous pride 00:10:18.690 --> 00:10:22.860 align:middle line:84% at having taken this one little step I now 00:10:22.860 --> 00:10:28.710 align:middle line:84% knew I'd wanted to take for the longest time. 00:10:28.710 --> 00:10:31.760 align:middle line:90% [APPLAUSE]