WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.760 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.760 --> 00:00:02.880 align:middle line:90% And I had a boyfriend. 00:00:02.880 --> 00:00:05.130 align:middle line:84% But now I'll tell the story for those of you 00:00:05.130 --> 00:00:08.370 align:middle line:84% who are in the classes and I wouldn't mention it. 00:00:08.370 --> 00:00:11.730 align:middle line:84% Well, he was just-- he was a gypsy, a European gypsy. 00:00:11.730 --> 00:00:16.560 align:middle line:84% And it was his lifelong aim to become a South American 00:00:16.560 --> 00:00:17.220 align:middle line:90% dictator. 00:00:17.220 --> 00:00:21.210 align:middle line:84% And I suspect he's in Bolivia now working on it. 00:00:21.210 --> 00:00:23.790 align:middle line:84% His last words were, you're too naive. 00:00:23.790 --> 00:00:26.925 align:middle line:90% And he just laughed. 00:00:26.925 --> 00:00:30.198 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:00:30.198 --> 00:00:33.510 align:middle line:90% 00:00:33.510 --> 00:00:34.590 align:middle line:90% Anyway, so he was-- 00:00:34.590 --> 00:00:35.640 align:middle line:90% I don't know. 00:00:35.640 --> 00:00:38.640 align:middle line:84% These were-- if they were lies, they were a good lies. 00:00:38.640 --> 00:00:43.710 align:middle line:84% I appreciate a liar who can tell such fantastic ones that you 00:00:43.710 --> 00:00:46.050 align:middle line:90% can't really dispute them. 00:00:46.050 --> 00:00:48.750 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:00:48.750 --> 00:00:50.880 align:middle line:84% He said he worked for the CIA and he'd 00:00:50.880 --> 00:00:54.720 align:middle line:84% run guns between Cuba and South America. 00:00:54.720 --> 00:00:57.240 align:middle line:84% But like when we broke up for a whole week, 00:00:57.240 --> 00:01:00.330 align:middle line:84% I would hear footsteps outside my window. 00:01:00.330 --> 00:01:03.180 align:middle line:84% But then I found out it was some ex Hell's Angel 00:01:03.180 --> 00:01:04.560 align:middle line:90% guy who lived in the building. 00:01:04.560 --> 00:01:06.630 align:middle line:90% And he just-- there was a pool. 00:01:06.630 --> 00:01:09.900 align:middle line:84% He would take one, two, three, four, five, 00:01:09.900 --> 00:01:13.110 align:middle line:84% six steps toward the pool one night 00:01:13.110 --> 00:01:16.590 align:middle line:84% a week, every Wednesday night about 4:00 AM. 00:01:16.590 --> 00:01:19.650 align:middle line:84% And I was always up then, see, because I write 00:01:19.650 --> 00:01:21.870 align:middle line:90% from about 11:00 PM to 5:00 AM. 00:01:21.870 --> 00:01:24.540 align:middle line:90% Those are my good work hours. 00:01:24.540 --> 00:01:28.210 align:middle line:84% Six steps and then he'd stop, and he'd walk back. 00:01:28.210 --> 00:01:31.770 align:middle line:84% And so then when I just told a manager and he said, oh, yeah, 00:01:31.770 --> 00:01:33.630 align:middle line:90% Billy never quite makes it. 00:01:33.630 --> 00:01:38.770 align:middle line:84% He just-- he never made it to the pool. 00:01:38.770 --> 00:01:42.930 align:middle line:84% He said-- and he wore those heavy stomper boots. 00:01:42.930 --> 00:01:46.350 align:middle line:84% Like the stomp the hell out of you those boots. 00:01:46.350 --> 00:01:50.430 align:middle line:84% And I was convinced, though, that the mafia or somebody 00:01:50.430 --> 00:01:51.330 align:middle line:90% was after me. 00:01:51.330 --> 00:01:55.170 align:middle line:84% After the-- you should stay away from people like that gypsy. 00:01:55.170 --> 00:01:57.090 align:middle line:90% He ran away with $300. 00:01:57.090 --> 00:02:00.900 align:middle line:84% He was-- he managed the San Clemente Hotel. 00:02:00.900 --> 00:02:04.465 align:middle line:84% President Roosevelt had once slept in his room. 00:02:04.465 --> 00:02:07.620 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:02:07.620 --> 00:02:10.050 align:middle line:90% 00:02:10.050 --> 00:02:14.070 align:middle line:84% It's occupied chiefly by Marines and hippies. 00:02:14.070 --> 00:02:18.120 align:middle line:84% And the Marines actually, I think they wear long hair wigs. 00:02:18.120 --> 00:02:21.120 align:middle line:90% A lot of the Marines did. 00:02:21.120 --> 00:02:25.048 align:middle line:84% I'd see one one day with his skinhead, that's 00:02:25.048 --> 00:02:26.340 align:middle line:90% what they called them out here. 00:02:26.340 --> 00:02:28.170 align:middle line:90% And then he'd have hair-- 00:02:28.170 --> 00:02:32.510 align:middle line:84% it was down past his waist, headband and everything. 00:02:32.510 --> 00:02:33.270 align:middle line:90% Hey, man. 00:02:33.270 --> 00:02:35.013 align:middle line:90% Having a party tonight. 00:02:35.013 --> 00:02:38.394 align:middle line:90% [LAUGHTER] 00:02:38.394 --> 00:02:45.160 align:middle line:90% 00:02:45.160 --> 00:02:49.210 align:middle line:84% Anyway, we should get to the poem. 00:02:49.210 --> 00:02:51.610 align:middle line:84% But anyway, he managed that hotel. 00:02:51.610 --> 00:02:54.490 align:middle line:84% And they don't like it because it's the biggest 00:02:54.490 --> 00:02:57.760 align:middle line:90% building in San Clemente. 00:02:57.760 --> 00:03:01.420 align:middle line:84% It's very-- the tallest building and all those hippies 00:03:01.420 --> 00:03:02.170 align:middle line:90% are there. 00:03:02.170 --> 00:03:06.400 align:middle line:84% And they were trying to close it down when I left. 00:03:06.400 --> 00:03:08.440 align:middle line:84% I don't know if they succeeded, but it's run, 00:03:08.440 --> 00:03:13.510 align:middle line:84% owned by this queer who still lived with his mother who 00:03:13.510 --> 00:03:15.850 align:middle line:90% is 45 named Bill Hossler. 00:03:15.850 --> 00:03:18.020 align:middle line:84% And he was like a hippie hotel magnate. 00:03:18.020 --> 00:03:21.820 align:middle line:84% He had couple in Hollywood, two in Laguna Beach, 00:03:21.820 --> 00:03:23.740 align:middle line:90% and one in San Clemente. 00:03:23.740 --> 00:03:25.970 align:middle line:90% But I lived in a real nice one. 00:03:25.970 --> 00:03:27.860 align:middle line:90% See ours had a pool. 00:03:27.860 --> 00:03:32.080 align:middle line:84% It was a little step up from the other ones. 00:03:32.080 --> 00:03:34.630 align:middle line:84% It was-- they catered to Canadians. 00:03:34.630 --> 00:03:38.470 align:middle line:84% After I got there, I found out if you were gay 00:03:38.470 --> 00:03:40.460 align:middle line:84% or if you just didn't give a shit 00:03:40.460 --> 00:03:45.430 align:middle line:84% and if you were a Canadian dealer, it was all right. 00:03:45.430 --> 00:03:48.530 align:middle line:84% But then-- but then one of the managers, 00:03:48.530 --> 00:03:50.200 align:middle line:84% he said, you can smoke a little grass. 00:03:50.200 --> 00:03:50.890 align:middle line:90% It's all right. 00:03:50.890 --> 00:03:53.110 align:middle line:90% But then he would bust people. 00:03:53.110 --> 00:03:56.170 align:middle line:84% He would say-- [LAUGHS] he would say, look 00:03:56.170 --> 00:03:57.520 align:middle line:90% where I found in that room. 00:03:57.520 --> 00:03:59.080 align:middle line:84% And he'd show me what he'd found, 00:03:59.080 --> 00:04:02.290 align:middle line:84% like maybe a spoon, some heroin, or like grass. 00:04:02.290 --> 00:04:05.350 align:middle line:84% And he'd say, I don't know how the cops found out about it. 00:04:05.350 --> 00:04:10.300 align:middle line:84% And he did-- he had no compunctions. 00:04:10.300 --> 00:04:12.950 align:middle line:84% Like there was a Black guy who lived there 00:04:12.950 --> 00:04:14.260 align:middle line:90% and I went to dinner with. 00:04:14.260 --> 00:04:14.890 align:middle line:90% He was gay. 00:04:14.890 --> 00:04:17.065 align:middle line:84% He and his wife, sort of, like his roommate. 00:04:17.065 --> 00:04:19.839 align:middle line:90% 00:04:19.839 --> 00:04:22.810 align:middle line:84% I got trapped in a queer triangle for a while. 00:04:22.810 --> 00:04:26.410 align:middle line:90% That's real-- it's really-- 00:04:26.410 --> 00:04:27.310 align:middle line:90% it's real sad. 00:04:27.310 --> 00:04:29.440 align:middle line:90% It's heavier than anything. 00:04:29.440 --> 00:04:31.180 align:middle line:90% It's really hard. 00:04:31.180 --> 00:04:32.980 align:middle line:90% I had to go and help him-- 00:04:32.980 --> 00:04:34.360 align:middle line:90% help him leave George. 00:04:34.360 --> 00:04:37.050 align:middle line:90% I had to help Fred leave George. 00:04:37.050 --> 00:04:42.130 align:middle line:84% And I was so tired when Fred left, but anyway George-- 00:04:42.130 --> 00:04:44.050 align:middle line:84% I went to dinner with George though. 00:04:44.050 --> 00:04:45.948 align:middle line:84% He took me out and he says, well, I'm 00:04:45.948 --> 00:04:46.990 align:middle line:90% going to lower your rent. 00:04:46.990 --> 00:04:48.310 align:middle line:90% George was English. 00:04:48.310 --> 00:04:51.220 align:middle line:84% Then I found out that all along that Black-- 00:04:51.220 --> 00:04:53.680 align:middle line:84% he had been charging the Black guy more rent 00:04:53.680 --> 00:04:56.240 align:middle line:90% than anybody else. $20 more. 00:04:56.240 --> 00:04:57.820 align:middle line:90% Like he didn't care. 00:04:57.820 --> 00:05:00.760 align:middle line:84% I can't be-- he'd be real nice to me and take me to dinner 00:05:00.760 --> 00:05:02.980 align:middle line:84% and all along he'd been charging me 00:05:02.980 --> 00:05:08.050 align:middle line:84% $20 more than other people paid for my rent. 00:05:08.050 --> 00:05:09.670 align:middle line:90% It's incredible. 00:05:09.670 --> 00:05:13.150 align:middle line:90% That's California. 00:05:13.150 --> 00:05:16.300 align:middle line:90% Now I'm going to read. 00:05:16.300 --> 00:05:19.270 align:middle line:84% Oh, boy, I'm really talking a lot. 00:05:19.270 --> 00:05:20.830 align:middle line:90% Jesus! 00:05:20.830 --> 00:05:24.910 align:middle line:90% This is called "Cuba, 1962." 00:05:24.910 --> 00:05:27.610 align:middle line:84% "When the rooster jumps up on the windowsill 00:05:27.610 --> 00:05:30.520 align:middle line:84% and spreads his red gold wings, I 00:05:30.520 --> 00:05:34.720 align:middle line:84% wake thinking it is the sun and call Juanita. 00:05:34.720 --> 00:05:38.560 align:middle line:84% Hearing her answer, but only in my mind. 00:05:38.560 --> 00:05:42.130 align:middle line:84% I know she is already outside breaking the cane off 00:05:42.130 --> 00:05:46.780 align:middle line:84% at ground level using only her big Indian hands. 00:05:46.780 --> 00:05:49.450 align:middle line:84% I get the machete and walk among the cane 00:05:49.450 --> 00:05:53.530 align:middle line:84% until I see her lying face down in the dirt. 00:05:53.530 --> 00:05:56.890 align:middle line:84% Juanita dead in the morning like this. 00:05:56.890 --> 00:05:58.660 align:middle line:90% I raise the machete. 00:05:58.660 --> 00:06:01.480 align:middle line:84% What I take from the Earth, I give back, 00:06:01.480 --> 00:06:03.790 align:middle line:90% and cut off her feet. 00:06:03.790 --> 00:06:06.280 align:middle line:84% I lift the body and carry it to the wagon 00:06:06.280 --> 00:06:09.280 align:middle line:84% where I load the cane to sell in the village. 00:06:09.280 --> 00:06:12.640 align:middle line:84% Whoever taste my woman in his candy, his cake, 00:06:12.640 --> 00:06:15.310 align:middle line:84% taste something sweeter than this sugar cane. 00:06:15.310 --> 00:06:16.390 align:middle line:90% It is grief. 00:06:16.390 --> 00:06:19.130 align:middle line:84% If you eat too much of it, you want more. 00:06:19.130 --> 00:06:21.840 align:middle line:90% You can never get enough." 00:06:21.840 --> 00:06:25.103 align:middle line:90%