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"Youth"

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"My sister and I at two
ends of the sofa reading,

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I suppose English novels.

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The television on,
various school books open,

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or places marked with
sheets of lined paper.

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Euclid, Pythagoras,
as though we had

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looked into the origin of
thought and preferred novels.

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[LAUGHTER]

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Sad sounds of our growing
up, twilight of cellos,

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a trace of a flute, the piccolo.

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And it seemed at the time
almost impossible to conceive

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of any of it as
evolving or mal-evolved.

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Sad sounds, anecdotes that
were really Still Lifes.

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The pages of the novel turning,
the two dogs snoring quietly.

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From the kitchen,
sounds of our mother,

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smell of Rosemary
of lamb roasting.

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A world in process of shifting,
of being made or dissolved,

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and yet we didn't live that way.

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All of us live our lives as
the simultaneous ritualized

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enactment of a great
principle, something

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felt, but not understood.

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And the remarks we
made were like lines

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in a play spoken with
conviction, but not from choice

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A principle, a terrifying
familial will that

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implied opposition to
change, to variation.

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A refusal even to ask questions.

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Now that world begins to shift
and eddy around us, only now

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when it no longer exists.

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It has become the present
unending and without form."

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