WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.840 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.840 --> 00:00:07.050 align:middle line:84% "'For Love.' Yesterday, I wanted to speak of it. 00:00:07.050 --> 00:00:09.495 align:middle line:84% That sense, above the others, to me." 00:00:09.495 --> 00:00:11.310 align:middle line:90% Let me start it again. 00:00:11.310 --> 00:00:13.680 align:middle line:84% "Yesterday I wanted to speak of it, 00:00:13.680 --> 00:00:16.920 align:middle line:84% that sense above the others to me important 00:00:16.920 --> 00:00:21.570 align:middle line:84% because all that I know derives from what it teaches me. 00:00:21.570 --> 00:00:25.140 align:middle line:84% Today, what is it that is finally so helpless, 00:00:25.140 --> 00:00:27.930 align:middle line:84% different, despairs of its own statement, 00:00:27.930 --> 00:00:32.820 align:middle line:84% wants to turn away endlessly to turn away. 00:00:32.820 --> 00:00:34.290 align:middle line:90% If the moon did not-- 00:00:34.290 --> 00:00:36.880 align:middle line:84% no, if you did not I wouldn't either, 00:00:36.880 --> 00:00:39.690 align:middle line:84% but what would I not do, what prevention, 00:00:39.690 --> 00:00:42.600 align:middle line:90% what thing so quickly stopped. 00:00:42.600 --> 00:00:46.050 align:middle line:84% That is love yesterday or tomorrow, not now. 00:00:46.050 --> 00:00:48.210 align:middle line:90% Can I eat what you give me? 00:00:48.210 --> 00:00:49.770 align:middle line:90% I have not earned it. 00:00:49.770 --> 00:00:52.930 align:middle line:84% Must I think of everything as earned. 00:00:52.930 --> 00:00:56.910 align:middle line:84% Now love also becomes a reward so remote from me 00:00:56.910 --> 00:01:00.330 align:middle line:84% I have only made it with my mind. 00:01:00.330 --> 00:01:04.140 align:middle line:84% Here is tedium, despair, a painful sense 00:01:04.140 --> 00:01:08.520 align:middle line:84% of isolation and whimsical if pompous self-regard. 00:01:08.520 --> 00:01:12.280 align:middle line:84% But that image is only of the mind's vague structure, 00:01:12.280 --> 00:01:15.135 align:middle line:84% vague to me because it is my own." 00:01:15.135 --> 00:01:20.850 align:middle line:90% 00:01:20.850 --> 00:01:23.700 align:middle line:90% Now-- "Because it is my own. 00:01:23.700 --> 00:01:26.880 align:middle line:90% Love, what do I think to say. 00:01:26.880 --> 00:01:27.990 align:middle line:90% I cannot say it. 00:01:27.990 --> 00:01:32.580 align:middle line:84% What have you become to ask, what have I made you into, 00:01:32.580 --> 00:01:37.440 align:middle line:84% companion, good company, crossed legs with skirt, or soft body 00:01:37.440 --> 00:01:40.140 align:middle line:90% under the bones of the bed. 00:01:40.140 --> 00:01:43.080 align:middle line:84% Nothing says anything but that which it wishes 00:01:43.080 --> 00:01:45.450 align:middle line:84% would come true, fears what else might 00:01:45.450 --> 00:01:49.950 align:middle line:84% happen in some other place, some other time not this one. 00:01:49.950 --> 00:01:54.870 align:middle line:84% A voice in my place, an echo of that only in yours. 00:01:54.870 --> 00:01:58.860 align:middle line:84% Let me stumble into not the confession but the obsession 00:01:58.860 --> 00:02:00.750 align:middle line:90% I begin with now. 00:02:00.750 --> 00:02:07.410 align:middle line:84% For you also, also some time beyond place or place 00:02:07.410 --> 00:02:11.009 align:middle line:84% beyond time, no mind left to say anything 00:02:11.009 --> 00:02:14.490 align:middle line:90% at all, that face gone, now. 00:02:14.490 --> 00:02:17.955 align:middle line:84% Into the company of love it all returns." 00:02:17.955 --> 00:02:21.460 align:middle line:90% 00:02:21.460 --> 00:02:27.630 align:middle line:90% Now right. 00:02:27.630 --> 00:02:32.410 align:middle line:90% 00:02:32.410 --> 00:02:35.680 align:middle line:90% I don't think-- 00:02:35.680 --> 00:02:39.040 align:middle line:84% I've been trying then there's a period of about two years 00:02:39.040 --> 00:02:41.005 align:middle line:84% when I wrote very few poems indeed. 00:02:41.005 --> 00:02:43.600 align:middle line:90% 00:02:43.600 --> 00:02:44.980 align:middle line:84% This is not an excuse but I think 00:02:44.980 --> 00:02:47.105 align:middle line:84% what happened was is again, that sense of the books 00:02:47.105 --> 00:02:50.260 align:middle line:84% being summary and all and then I couldn't see anything 00:02:50.260 --> 00:02:51.870 align:middle line:90% clearly possible for a time. 00:02:51.870 --> 00:02:57.340 align:middle line:84% And as it happened, happily, I got 00:02:57.340 --> 00:03:00.940 align:middle line:84% started writing this novel, which curiously became 00:03:00.940 --> 00:03:04.120 align:middle line:84% an exploration of the whole complex of feeling, which much 00:03:04.120 --> 00:03:07.300 align:middle line:90% of this book of poems involves. 00:03:07.300 --> 00:03:08.650 align:middle line:90% I think what I'd like to do-- 00:03:08.650 --> 00:03:09.515 align:middle line:84% I thought perhaps to read a story, 00:03:09.515 --> 00:03:10.570 align:middle line:84% but I think what I'd like to do is read 00:03:10.570 --> 00:03:13.000 align:middle line:84% an early chapter of that, which will then just about 00:03:13.000 --> 00:03:16.060 align:middle line:90% finished things up. 00:03:16.060 --> 00:03:18.610 align:middle line:84% The poems that I'm writing now and are 00:03:18.610 --> 00:03:20.452 align:middle line:90% trying to get straight again-- 00:03:20.452 --> 00:03:22.660 align:middle line:84% maybe I'll read one of them just to give you a sense. 00:03:22.660 --> 00:03:29.080 align:middle line:84% They're not that much distinct but let's see. 00:03:29.080 --> 00:03:30.622 align:middle line:90% A couple I like. 00:03:30.622 --> 00:03:31.330 align:middle line:90% Something recent. 00:03:31.330 --> 00:03:33.420 align:middle line:90% We'll say within the month. 00:03:33.420 --> 00:03:34.361 align:middle line:90%