WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:03.310 align:middle line:90% 00:00:03.310 --> 00:00:04.546 align:middle line:90% "Civilization." 00:00:04.546 --> 00:00:07.640 align:middle line:90% 00:00:07.640 --> 00:00:08.630 align:middle line:90% "Civilization. 00:00:08.630 --> 00:00:13.660 align:middle line:90% 00:00:13.660 --> 00:00:16.810 align:middle line:90% There's an art to everything. 00:00:16.810 --> 00:00:21.340 align:middle line:84% How the rain means April and an ongoingness like that of song 00:00:21.340 --> 00:00:23.215 align:middle line:90% until at last it ends. 00:00:23.215 --> 00:00:26.120 align:middle line:90% 00:00:26.120 --> 00:00:28.880 align:middle line:84% A centuries old set of silver hand bells 00:00:28.880 --> 00:00:34.350 align:middle line:84% that once an altar boy swung processing. 00:00:34.350 --> 00:00:36.600 align:middle line:84% You're the same wilderness you've always 00:00:36.600 --> 00:00:40.950 align:middle line:84% been slashing through briars, the bracken 00:00:40.950 --> 00:00:44.020 align:middle line:90% of your invasive self. 00:00:44.020 --> 00:00:48.340 align:middle line:90% So he said in a dream. 00:00:48.340 --> 00:00:51.790 align:middle line:84% But the rest of it, all the rest, 00:00:51.790 --> 00:00:58.000 align:middle line:84% was waking more often than not to the next extravagance 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:03.160 align:middle line:84% to Blackamoor statues each mirroring the other, 00:01:03.160 --> 00:01:08.170 align:middle line:84% each hoisting forever upward his burden of hand-painted carved 00:01:08.170 --> 00:01:11.050 align:middle line:90% by hand peacock feathers. 00:01:11.050 --> 00:01:13.490 align:middle line:90% Don't you know it? 00:01:13.490 --> 00:01:18.010 align:middle line:84% 'Don't you know I love you' he said. 00:01:18.010 --> 00:01:20.450 align:middle line:90% He was shaking. 00:01:20.450 --> 00:01:24.200 align:middle line:90% He said, 'I love you' 00:01:24.200 --> 00:01:27.280 align:middle line:90% There's an art to everything. 00:01:27.280 --> 00:01:31.780 align:middle line:84% But I've done with this life what I meant not to do 00:01:31.780 --> 00:01:35.800 align:middle line:84% or would have meant maybe had I understood. 00:01:35.800 --> 00:01:41.110 align:middle line:84% Though I have no regrets, not the broken but still flowering 00:01:41.110 --> 00:01:46.450 align:middle line:84% dogwood, not the honey locust either, not even 00:01:46.450 --> 00:01:49.930 align:middle line:84% the ghost walnut with its non-branches whose 00:01:49.930 --> 00:01:54.970 align:middle line:90% every shadow is memory, memory. 00:01:54.970 --> 00:01:59.110 align:middle line:84% As he said to me once, 'that's all garbage down the river 00:01:59.110 --> 00:02:04.030 align:middle line:84% now' turning but as the utterly lost-- 00:02:04.030 --> 00:02:08.560 align:middle line:84% because addicted-- do: resigned all over again. 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:10.990 align:middle line:90% It only looked. 00:02:10.990 --> 00:02:15.340 align:middle line:84% It-- it must only look like leaving. 00:02:15.340 --> 00:02:20.350 align:middle line:84% There's an art to everything, even turning away. 00:02:20.350 --> 00:02:25.780 align:middle line:84% How eventually even hunger can become a space to live in. 00:02:25.780 --> 00:02:28.420 align:middle line:84% How they made out of shamelessness something 00:02:28.420 --> 00:02:31.240 align:middle line:84% beautiful for as long as they could." 00:02:31.240 --> 00:02:35.130 align:middle line:90% 00:02:35.130 --> 00:02:37.710 align:middle line:84% I get lots of flak from a certain friend 00:02:37.710 --> 00:02:39.750 align:middle line:90% of mine for that poem. 00:02:39.750 --> 00:02:43.890 align:middle line:84% Because his favorite phrase is that's 00:02:43.890 --> 00:02:46.170 align:middle line:90% all garbage down the river now. 00:02:46.170 --> 00:02:48.600 align:middle line:84% So when that appeared in the poem, 00:02:48.600 --> 00:02:51.630 align:middle line:84% he wanted to know like, what about royalties, 00:02:51.630 --> 00:02:55.230 align:middle line:90% royalties for a poem. 00:02:55.230 --> 00:02:58.080 align:middle line:84% And he has these Blackamoor statues. 00:02:58.080 --> 00:03:01.230 align:middle line:84% And he has these old silver hand bells 00:03:01.230 --> 00:03:03.936 align:middle line:90% from when he was an altar boy. 00:03:03.936 --> 00:03:07.950 align:middle line:84% It's like be careful who you sleep with. 00:03:07.950 --> 00:03:09.750 align:middle line:90% That's the motto of that. 00:03:09.750 --> 00:03:16.240 align:middle line:90% 00:03:16.240 --> 00:03:18.490 align:middle line:84% "Immaculate each leaf and every flower." 00:03:18.490 --> 00:03:21.160 align:middle line:90% 00:03:21.160 --> 00:03:28.400 align:middle line:84% Which now that I think of it is a little bit of a faye title. 00:03:28.400 --> 00:03:31.090 align:middle line:90% But it's there now.