WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.320 align:middle line:90% 00:00:01.320 --> 00:00:05.070 align:middle line:84% I'm going to read just a little bit from the opening. 00:00:05.070 --> 00:00:07.920 align:middle line:84% Ander alluded a little bit to what this book is about. 00:00:07.920 --> 00:00:08.970 align:middle line:90% I won't say too much. 00:00:08.970 --> 00:00:11.580 align:middle line:90% It's about a murder. 00:00:11.580 --> 00:00:15.150 align:middle line:84% And it coincides with the filming of a very-- 00:00:15.150 --> 00:00:18.270 align:middle line:84% sort of insignificant part of Psycho. 00:00:18.270 --> 00:00:21.430 align:middle line:84% But the parallel is pretty much in there. 00:00:21.430 --> 00:00:23.860 align:middle line:84% I privilege the people who are made up here. 00:00:23.860 --> 00:00:27.390 align:middle line:84% And one of them is a young shoe clerk 00:00:27.390 --> 00:00:30.600 align:middle line:84% named Candy because she appears here before "you." 00:00:30.600 --> 00:00:33.030 align:middle line:90% And the second person is "you." 00:00:33.030 --> 00:00:37.140 align:middle line:84% And this takes place at a drive-in. 00:00:37.140 --> 00:00:41.310 align:middle line:84% And Michael Silverblatt on Bookworm told me. 00:00:41.310 --> 00:00:44.940 align:middle line:84% He said, you know, drive-ins were called passion pits. 00:00:44.940 --> 00:00:50.550 align:middle line:84% And I was so glad that he used that phrase because it is sexy. 00:00:50.550 --> 00:00:53.820 align:middle line:84% So it might not just be the room or the heat 00:00:53.820 --> 00:00:59.723 align:middle line:84% but I just hope I don't end up sounding like Piper Laurie 00:00:59.723 --> 00:01:01.140 align:middle line:84% and Carrie when she starts talking 00:01:01.140 --> 00:01:02.557 align:middle line:84% about the cheap Roadhouse whiskey. 00:01:02.557 --> 00:01:08.538 align:middle line:90% 00:01:08.538 --> 00:01:09.496 align:middle line:90% All right. 00:01:09.496 --> 00:01:12.850 align:middle line:90% 00:01:12.850 --> 00:01:15.970 align:middle line:84% "Just a little west of Bakersfield, 00:01:15.970 --> 00:01:18.520 align:middle line:84% just far enough away from the city 00:01:18.520 --> 00:01:22.420 align:middle line:84% lights is the local drive-in theater, 00:01:22.420 --> 00:01:27.610 align:middle line:84% a line of cars idling at the dusty entrance at sundown. 00:01:27.610 --> 00:01:30.250 align:middle line:84% A concession stand sits in the middle. 00:01:30.250 --> 00:01:33.520 align:middle line:84% And everyone goes there for big striped boxes 00:01:33.520 --> 00:01:36.490 align:middle line:84% of popcorn and hot dogs and candy, 00:01:36.490 --> 00:01:41.740 align:middle line:84% cradling everything close so only one trip is necessary. 00:01:41.740 --> 00:01:44.890 align:middle line:84% Horns beep whenever a car pulls in with its lights 00:01:44.890 --> 00:01:48.040 align:middle line:84% on even though the sky is still lit 00:01:48.040 --> 00:01:51.700 align:middle line:84% orange with sundown and the double bill 00:01:51.700 --> 00:01:54.310 align:middle line:90% nowhere near beginning. 00:01:54.310 --> 00:01:58.120 align:middle line:84% Music comes in over the speakers, old big band numbers 00:01:58.120 --> 00:02:00.760 align:middle line:90% that no one listens to anymore. 00:02:00.760 --> 00:02:03.070 align:middle line:84% Some couples sit out on the hoods 00:02:03.070 --> 00:02:06.430 align:middle line:84% after the engines have cooled down. 00:02:06.430 --> 00:02:08.259 align:middle line:84% The people returning from the concession 00:02:08.259 --> 00:02:13.930 align:middle line:84% stand darkened to shadows as dusk finally breaks into night. 00:02:13.930 --> 00:02:16.750 align:middle line:84% And the first feature starts, always 00:02:16.750 --> 00:02:19.420 align:middle line:90% something of mild interest-- 00:02:19.420 --> 00:02:22.210 align:middle line:84% a monster movie with a beautiful blonde 00:02:22.210 --> 00:02:25.240 align:middle line:84% raising her hands to her ears and screaming. 00:02:25.240 --> 00:02:27.400 align:middle line:84% Then in pursuit, with gunfire popping 00:02:27.400 --> 00:02:31.840 align:middle line:84% through the speakers all up and down the drive-in lot. 00:02:31.840 --> 00:02:34.750 align:middle line:84% Laughter carries across several cars, 00:02:34.750 --> 00:02:36.520 align:middle line:84% friends having spotted each other 00:02:36.520 --> 00:02:39.070 align:middle line:90% and walking over to say hello. 00:02:39.070 --> 00:02:44.260 align:middle line:84% Car trunks pop open quickly for six packs to be brought out. 00:02:44.260 --> 00:02:49.690 align:middle line:84% By the end of the first film, night has settled indeed. 00:02:49.690 --> 00:02:53.500 align:middle line:84% And the drive-in lights lights up once more to help people 00:02:53.500 --> 00:02:56.920 align:middle line:84% make their way to the concession stand and the bathrooms, 00:02:56.920 --> 00:03:00.910 align:middle line:84% where the girls walk together in 3's and edge for space 00:03:00.910 --> 00:03:01.990 align:middle line:90% at the mirrors-- 00:03:01.990 --> 00:03:07.300 align:middle line:84% everyone finding out who came with whom. 00:03:07.300 --> 00:03:09.370 align:middle line:90% She's there. 00:03:09.370 --> 00:03:11.320 align:middle line:90% That girl. 00:03:11.320 --> 00:03:14.590 align:middle line:84% You looked for her among the faces surrounding the bathroom 00:03:14.590 --> 00:03:17.710 align:middle line:84% mirrors but she was nowhere to be found. 00:03:17.710 --> 00:03:20.410 align:middle line:90% But you know she's there. 00:03:20.410 --> 00:03:24.850 align:middle line:84% You spotted Dan Watson's beautiful form 00:03:24.850 --> 00:03:29.410 align:middle line:84% gliding across the dusty lane toward the concession stand. 00:03:29.410 --> 00:03:32.890 align:middle line:84% He returns now to his pickup just ahead, 00:03:32.890 --> 00:03:37.960 align:middle line:84% holding a box of popcorn in his hand and sporting a cowboy hat. 00:03:37.960 --> 00:03:43.480 align:middle line:84% His jeans taunt, everything lean and hard-- 00:03:43.480 --> 00:03:48.520 align:middle line:84% the way he glides from one end of the windshield to the other 00:03:48.520 --> 00:03:52.570 align:middle line:84% before disappearing into the cab of that truck. 00:03:52.570 --> 00:03:56.200 align:middle line:90% That girl is the other shadow. 00:03:56.200 --> 00:03:59.080 align:middle line:90% He is handing her the box. 00:03:59.080 --> 00:04:02.410 align:middle line:84% Ten minutes later, the lot darkens and the second feature 00:04:02.410 --> 00:04:03.640 align:middle line:90% begins-- 00:04:03.640 --> 00:04:05.620 align:middle line:90% a detective story. 00:04:05.620 --> 00:04:08.890 align:middle line:84% You can tell by the hat the lead actor is wearing. 00:04:08.890 --> 00:04:11.890 align:middle line:84% No one wears hats like that around here 00:04:11.890 --> 00:04:14.200 align:middle line:90% unless you're from Los Angeles. 00:04:14.200 --> 00:04:16.959 align:middle line:84% On screen, a beautiful girl screams 00:04:16.959 --> 00:04:20.709 align:middle line:84% for a pair of anonymous hands, clothes around her neck. 00:04:20.709 --> 00:04:26.340 align:middle line:84% And she collapses as if struck with a sudden urge to sleep. 00:04:26.340 --> 00:04:29.790 align:middle line:84% She did not scream as terribly as the beautiful blonde 00:04:29.790 --> 00:04:32.520 align:middle line:84% who was attacked by the monster in that other movie. 00:04:32.520 --> 00:04:38.010 align:middle line:84% But somehow, it was more real, more probable, and enough 00:04:38.010 --> 00:04:41.310 align:middle line:84% to make you turn your head away and look out 00:04:41.310 --> 00:04:44.190 align:middle line:84% past the edge of the drive-in's lot. 00:04:44.190 --> 00:04:46.920 align:middle line:84% The stretch of oil fields, the ring 00:04:46.920 --> 00:04:49.140 align:middle line:84% of mountains to the south and east 00:04:49.140 --> 00:04:52.800 align:middle line:90% of Bakersfield to Los Angeles-- 00:04:52.800 --> 00:04:57.360 align:middle line:84% is that where the movie is set where something like this 00:04:57.360 --> 00:04:59.980 align:middle line:90% could happen? 00:04:59.980 --> 00:05:03.660 align:middle line:84% No one seems to care about questions like that, 00:05:03.660 --> 00:05:06.750 align:middle line:84% not by how the shadows in the cars 00:05:06.750 --> 00:05:10.920 align:middle line:84% begin to blend together one by one. 00:05:10.920 --> 00:05:12.720 align:middle line:90% Some stay separate. 00:05:12.720 --> 00:05:15.750 align:middle line:90% But most don't. 00:05:15.750 --> 00:05:20.910 align:middle line:84% There's been beer and slugs of whiskey and lipstick applied 00:05:20.910 --> 00:05:26.220 align:middle line:84% in the bathroom mirror and cigarettes and sweet talk, 00:05:26.220 --> 00:05:30.330 align:middle line:84% hands on knees and short whispers and legs 00:05:30.330 --> 00:05:34.410 align:middle line:84% shaved that evening, baby smooth. 00:05:34.410 --> 00:05:40.260 align:middle line:84% All over town, getting ready, everyone knowing or hoping 00:05:40.260 --> 00:05:43.410 align:middle line:90% the evening would come to this-- 00:05:43.410 --> 00:05:46.950 align:middle line:84% a lot of sweet talk in a dark car 00:05:46.950 --> 00:05:51.450 align:middle line:84% and the squeak of the vinyl as your polite date 00:05:51.450 --> 00:05:57.050 align:middle line:84% slides over, the taste of the beer in his mouth, 00:05:57.050 --> 00:06:03.140 align:middle line:84% slightly bitter but sweet, too, the surprise 00:06:03.140 --> 00:06:07.520 align:middle line:90% that men taste sweet inside. 00:06:07.520 --> 00:06:12.290 align:middle line:90% All of them, rough and sweet. 00:06:12.290 --> 00:06:16.010 align:middle line:84% Your hand on his cheek to feel the itch of his whiskers, which 00:06:16.010 --> 00:06:18.470 align:middle line:90% you can't see but can feel. 00:06:18.470 --> 00:06:20.960 align:middle line:90% Forceful but sweet. 00:06:20.960 --> 00:06:23.960 align:middle line:84% And it's that sweetness that calms the alarm about where 00:06:23.960 --> 00:06:25.160 align:middle line:90% his hands move-- 00:06:25.160 --> 00:06:28.250 align:middle line:84% sometimes above the knee or underneath the hem 00:06:28.250 --> 00:06:30.680 align:middle line:84% at the back of your blouse, just two 00:06:30.680 --> 00:06:35.810 align:middle line:84% fingertips in that hollow space at the bottom of the spine. 00:06:35.810 --> 00:06:39.530 align:middle line:84% Forceful but gentle at the same time, 00:06:39.530 --> 00:06:42.710 align:middle line:90% his mouth moving to your neck. 00:06:42.710 --> 00:06:48.710 align:middle line:84% The smell of his hair, Prell shampoo, just like your room. 00:06:48.710 --> 00:06:52.370 align:middle line:84% A moan escapes from your mouth, uncontrollable 00:06:52.370 --> 00:06:55.430 align:middle line:90% because his weight is delicious. 00:06:55.430 --> 00:06:58.670 align:middle line:84% And so is the thought that he's leaving that sweet taste 00:06:58.670 --> 00:07:02.060 align:middle line:90% in his mouth on your skin. 00:07:02.060 --> 00:07:05.420 align:middle line:84% He reaches over to turn the knob down on the speaker. 00:07:05.420 --> 00:07:07.400 align:middle line:90% And the movie goes mute. 00:07:07.400 --> 00:07:10.460 align:middle line:84% And you watch the screen while he's occupied-- 00:07:10.460 --> 00:07:14.840 align:middle line:84% the detective at a desk, saying something into a phone, 00:07:14.840 --> 00:07:17.240 align:middle line:84% how you have to guess what he's saying, 00:07:17.240 --> 00:07:20.930 align:middle line:84% the way you have to guess at everything in life-- 00:07:20.930 --> 00:07:25.520 align:middle line:84% what you see and what you make of it, what you know for sure 00:07:25.520 --> 00:07:29.120 align:middle line:84% and what you have to experience, what others tell you 00:07:29.120 --> 00:07:33.080 align:middle line:90% and what gets confirmed. 00:07:33.080 --> 00:07:36.920 align:middle line:84% You can see Dan over in his pickup truck. 00:07:36.920 --> 00:07:41.990 align:middle line:84% His shadow has merged with the other one, 00:07:41.990 --> 00:07:44.510 align:middle line:90% slipped into the same space-- 00:07:44.510 --> 00:07:47.790 align:middle line:90% the passenger side of the cab. 00:07:47.790 --> 00:07:49.760 align:middle line:90% It is that girl. 00:07:49.760 --> 00:07:51.590 align:middle line:90% It must be. 00:07:51.590 --> 00:07:56.240 align:middle line:84% She knows that sweet taste, too, what 00:07:56.240 --> 00:08:01.460 align:middle line:84% that space in the hollow of his back feels like. 00:08:01.460 --> 00:08:06.020 align:middle line:84% A moan comes out of your mouth just from thinking about him. 00:08:06.020 --> 00:08:11.780 align:middle line:84% And here, in this car, this boy, earnest but inconsequential, 00:08:11.780 --> 00:08:15.320 align:middle line:84% strong but too sweet, hears your moan 00:08:15.320 --> 00:08:20.060 align:middle line:84% and lets his hands glide up, cautious to the unworkable 00:08:20.060 --> 00:08:23.050 align:middle line:90% bridge of the bra hooks. 00:08:23.050 --> 00:08:25.360 align:middle line:84% There is patience and inexperience 00:08:25.360 --> 00:08:27.190 align:middle line:90% all over the drive-in. 00:08:27.190 --> 00:08:29.500 align:middle line:90% Some hands retreating in defeat. 00:08:29.500 --> 00:08:33.280 align:middle line:84% And then there are others like this that manage and move 00:08:33.280 --> 00:08:37.390 align:middle line:90% quickly before being denied. 00:08:37.390 --> 00:08:41.350 align:middle line:84% On screen, the detective lights a cigarette 00:08:41.350 --> 00:08:45.410 align:middle line:84% and seems to look out at all the cars. 00:08:45.410 --> 00:08:47.200 align:middle line:84% There is a woman whom the detective loves. 00:08:47.200 --> 00:08:49.150 align:middle line:84% But in the movie, you already know 00:08:49.150 --> 00:08:51.700 align:middle line:84% he's going to have to wait to get her. 00:08:51.700 --> 00:08:55.420 align:middle line:90% And still, it won't be this-- 00:08:55.420 --> 00:08:58.000 align:middle line:84% an earnest but inconsequential boy 00:08:58.000 --> 00:09:02.590 align:middle line:84% who was sweating at the brow from nerves and delirium, 00:09:02.590 --> 00:09:06.460 align:middle line:84% his mouth impatient at each nipple. 00:09:06.460 --> 00:09:10.960 align:middle line:84% He has never felt a pair of breasts before, not by the way 00:09:10.960 --> 00:09:13.960 align:middle line:84% his hands clamor underneath your bra. 00:09:13.960 --> 00:09:17.500 align:middle line:84% He has to learn to open the blouse completely first, 00:09:17.500 --> 00:09:19.570 align:middle line:90% how to caress buttons. 00:09:19.570 --> 00:09:23.920 align:middle line:84% He has to learn to be gentle and enjoy the feel of skin, 00:09:23.920 --> 00:09:27.310 align:middle line:84% give pleasure instead of just taking it. 00:09:27.310 --> 00:09:33.640 align:middle line:84% But right now, his eyes round out, dewy and unblinking 00:09:33.640 --> 00:09:37.930 align:middle line:84% at his first sight of rosy nipples. 00:09:37.930 --> 00:09:41.890 align:middle line:90% He is 23 but still a boy. 00:09:41.890 --> 00:09:43.870 align:middle line:84% He puts his mouth on each nipple and has 00:09:43.870 --> 00:09:47.680 align:middle line:84% to have his hand guided to your other breast. 00:09:47.680 --> 00:09:49.690 align:middle line:84% You reach down to feel him because this is 00:09:49.690 --> 00:09:52.210 align:middle line:90% what he wants, what he needs. 00:09:52.210 --> 00:09:55.600 align:middle line:84% And there's just the sound now of months and months 00:09:55.600 --> 00:09:59.380 align:middle line:84% of his desires finally being met. 00:09:59.380 --> 00:10:02.140 align:middle line:90% He's doing the moaning now. 00:10:02.140 --> 00:10:04.450 align:middle line:84% The teenage voice from years ago stuck 00:10:04.450 --> 00:10:07.810 align:middle line:84% in his throat as his thick cowboy belt buckle 00:10:07.810 --> 00:10:13.240 align:middle line:84% gets undone for him and the top button released. 00:10:13.240 --> 00:10:17.830 align:middle line:90% He wore brand new underwear. 00:10:17.830 --> 00:10:20.560 align:middle line:90% The elastic is too tight. 00:10:20.560 --> 00:10:24.910 align:middle line:84% And there is this warm thickness. 00:10:24.910 --> 00:10:28.360 align:middle line:84% It's enormous and probably beautiful. 00:10:28.360 --> 00:10:32.950 align:middle line:84% But he's too young and inexperienced to know that yet. 00:10:32.950 --> 00:10:35.860 align:middle line:84% His stomach is coated with a familiar stickiness 00:10:35.860 --> 00:10:38.230 align:middle line:84% and he rests his forehead on the car door 00:10:38.230 --> 00:10:40.570 align:middle line:90% while he's being fondled. 00:10:40.570 --> 00:10:42.970 align:middle line:84% Who can tell what he is thinking? 00:10:42.970 --> 00:10:46.000 align:middle line:84% A soft hand stroking him hard enough that he actually 00:10:46.000 --> 00:10:49.510 align:middle line:84% has to pull away but keeping his forehead on the door 00:10:49.510 --> 00:10:51.730 align:middle line:90% as if he's ashamed. 00:10:51.730 --> 00:10:54.190 align:middle line:84% The detective on the screen is giving chase 00:10:54.190 --> 00:10:57.640 align:middle line:84% along the dark streets of a city but no one cares 00:10:57.640 --> 00:11:00.300 align:middle line:90% about the pursuit. 00:11:00.300 --> 00:11:04.650 align:middle line:84% A car just ahead is bobbing ever so slightly. 00:11:04.650 --> 00:11:07.380 align:middle line:90% 00:11:07.380 --> 00:11:11.100 align:middle line:84% There is nothing wrong with wanting 00:11:11.100 --> 00:11:16.300 align:middle line:84% like this, even better with a young man of 23, 00:11:16.300 --> 00:11:18.450 align:middle line:90% still mired in shame. 00:11:18.450 --> 00:11:20.940 align:middle line:84% He won't be bragging to anyone, still thinking 00:11:20.940 --> 00:11:23.100 align:middle line:90% what he's doing is dirty. 00:11:23.100 --> 00:11:26.820 align:middle line:84% And you can go back to work at the shoe store 00:11:26.820 --> 00:11:31.470 align:middle line:84% with no one ever gossiping about you. 00:11:31.470 --> 00:11:34.560 align:middle line:84% His hands have to be brought down to the wet warmth 00:11:34.560 --> 00:11:39.150 align:middle line:84% that he's never even come close to, even in his imagination. 00:11:39.150 --> 00:11:43.410 align:middle line:84% His hands guided around and inside. 00:11:43.410 --> 00:11:45.100 align:middle line:90% He's a sweet boy. 00:11:45.100 --> 00:11:48.060 align:middle line:84% We do know after he drops you off 00:11:48.060 --> 00:11:53.400 align:middle line:84% that he'll be smelling those fingers all the way home. 00:11:53.400 --> 00:11:57.210 align:middle line:84% The pickup truck is absolutely still. 00:11:57.210 --> 00:11:59.280 align:middle line:90% Or is it moving? 00:11:59.280 --> 00:12:03.240 align:middle line:84% There is no telling what they are or not doing in there. 00:12:03.240 --> 00:12:07.410 align:middle line:84% But who could push away Dan Watson? 00:12:07.410 --> 00:12:11.130 align:middle line:84% Because the speaker is off, from way over in the distance, 00:12:11.130 --> 00:12:15.690 align:middle line:84% a girl's furious moans carry along the dirt lane, then 00:12:15.690 --> 00:12:18.780 align:middle line:84% some quiet laughter from people sitting on their hoods, 00:12:18.780 --> 00:12:20.700 align:middle line:90% watching the movie. 00:12:20.700 --> 00:12:23.610 align:middle line:84% Whoever heard that laughter, how people 00:12:23.610 --> 00:12:27.630 align:middle line:84% react when exposed to that kind of desire 00:12:27.630 --> 00:12:31.110 align:middle line:84% with laughter or disgust or disapproval, 00:12:31.110 --> 00:12:33.400 align:middle line:90% might stop what they were doing. 00:12:33.400 --> 00:12:37.470 align:middle line:84% But it's happening all across this darkness-- 00:12:37.470 --> 00:12:41.550 align:middle line:84% panties slipping off and resting playfully on the gearshift, 00:12:41.550 --> 00:12:43.170 align:middle line:90% on the radio knob. 00:12:43.170 --> 00:12:46.680 align:middle line:84% Yours is 23 and doesn't know what he's doing. 00:12:46.680 --> 00:12:50.940 align:middle line:84% And he admits that he's a virgin in a terrified voice. 00:12:50.940 --> 00:12:55.410 align:middle line:84% His thrusts-- it feels good, only because you 00:12:55.410 --> 00:12:58.290 align:middle line:84% close your eyes and picture yourself 00:12:58.290 --> 00:13:01.470 align:middle line:84% in the pickup truck instead, the way Dan 00:13:01.470 --> 00:13:04.740 align:middle line:84% walks, the waitresses who feel dirty for thinking 00:13:04.740 --> 00:13:06.840 align:middle line:84% of him that way because they knew him 00:13:06.840 --> 00:13:09.360 align:middle line:90% when he was a little boy. 00:13:09.360 --> 00:13:10.890 align:middle line:90% They know his mother. 00:13:10.890 --> 00:13:13.500 align:middle line:84% You close your eyes and think of Dan 00:13:13.500 --> 00:13:16.560 align:middle line:84% but concentrate on this boy, holding him 00:13:16.560 --> 00:13:19.470 align:middle line:84% at the hips when he begins walking too fast, 00:13:19.470 --> 00:13:22.170 align:middle line:84% getting carried away to a point where he won't 00:13:22.170 --> 00:13:24.300 align:middle line:90% be able to control himself. 00:13:24.300 --> 00:13:26.850 align:middle line:90% He's sweet in his earnestness. 00:13:26.850 --> 00:13:27.990 align:middle line:90% He truly is. 00:13:27.990 --> 00:13:30.750 align:middle line:84% And he stops when you tell him to do so. 00:13:30.750 --> 00:13:37.710 align:middle line:84% His face covered in sweat, he looks like he's about to cry. 00:13:37.710 --> 00:13:39.990 align:middle line:84% Car engines begin to turn on even 00:13:39.990 --> 00:13:44.550 align:middle line:84% before the movie is over and horns blast at the disorder. 00:13:44.550 --> 00:13:46.710 align:middle line:84% Some people want to know who committed 00:13:46.710 --> 00:13:49.710 align:middle line:84% the murder, who made the beautiful girl 00:13:49.710 --> 00:13:51.750 align:middle line:90% scream like that. 00:13:51.750 --> 00:13:55.560 align:middle line:84% The pickup truck stands absolutely still, 00:13:55.560 --> 00:13:59.130 align:middle line:84% the silhouettes hard to pick out now because of the shifting 00:13:59.130 --> 00:14:01.080 align:middle line:90% lights and shadows. 00:14:01.080 --> 00:14:04.140 align:middle line:84% It's time to sit up back in the seat 00:14:04.140 --> 00:14:08.820 align:middle line:84% since people are watching now and adjust bras, clothes, 00:14:08.820 --> 00:14:10.080 align:middle line:90% blouses. 00:14:10.080 --> 00:14:12.960 align:middle line:84% More and more cars begin to pull out, 00:14:12.960 --> 00:14:16.170 align:middle line:84% so many there's actually a line for the exit. 00:14:16.170 --> 00:14:18.300 align:middle line:90% It is better to wait. 00:14:18.300 --> 00:14:21.840 align:middle line:90% The 23-year-old boy is in love. 00:14:21.840 --> 00:14:25.200 align:middle line:84% You can tell by the way he sits there, his pants back 00:14:25.200 --> 00:14:28.140 align:middle line:90% on but the bulge straining. 00:14:28.140 --> 00:14:30.850 align:middle line:90% He wants a kiss. 00:14:30.850 --> 00:14:37.090 align:middle line:84% That's the difference between him and a man like Dan. 00:14:37.090 --> 00:14:43.100 align:middle line:84% This boy hasn't yet learned the power of wielding his body, 00:14:43.100 --> 00:14:47.470 align:middle line:84% giving it over like a little boat on an ocean, 00:14:47.470 --> 00:14:52.300 align:middle line:84% the thing you cling to getting rocked to sleep by the waves. 00:14:52.300 --> 00:14:55.450 align:middle line:90% He thinks he's in love. 00:14:55.450 --> 00:14:58.900 align:middle line:84% And why shouldn't he after a night like that? 00:14:58.900 --> 00:15:00.730 align:middle line:84% It's easy to think that's what love 00:15:00.730 --> 00:15:05.080 align:middle line:84% is after being naked in front of someone for the first time 00:15:05.080 --> 00:15:10.150 align:middle line:84% as if it truly were an act of tenderness of secret honor. 00:15:10.150 --> 00:15:14.560 align:middle line:84% In truth, love crumbles into something else-- 00:15:14.560 --> 00:15:18.190 align:middle line:84% an answer to lying awake at 2:00 in the morning 00:15:18.190 --> 00:15:24.970 align:middle line:84% when the body demands one thing and one thing only. 00:15:24.970 --> 00:15:29.020 align:middle line:84% The cars drive back into the sleepy streets of Bakersfield, 00:15:29.020 --> 00:15:30.890 align:middle line:84% letting off dates at the porch lit 00:15:30.890 --> 00:15:34.570 align:middle line:84% houses, last kisses before the neighborhood dogs begin 00:15:34.570 --> 00:15:36.820 align:middle line:90% to bark at the idling engines. 00:15:36.820 --> 00:15:41.650 align:middle line:84% Soon, the boy will start the hand-holding and the flowers-- 00:15:41.650 --> 00:15:44.740 align:middle line:84% cheap grocery store flowers, not holidays 00:15:44.740 --> 00:15:47.470 align:middle line:84% flower shop but flowers, nonetheless, 00:15:47.470 --> 00:15:52.080 align:middle line:84% because that's what sweet, earnest boys do." 00:15:52.080 --> 00:16:08.000 align:middle line:90%