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This next piece is--

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I always like to tell people
that this piece, I think,

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is sort of, at least for me,
a reminder of this big money

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that I had that came very fast.

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As Tony mentioned,
a few years ago,

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I got this fancy award called
The MacArthur Fellowship award.

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They just send you money every--

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I think it's every-- it was
every six months or something,

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you got a big check
in the mail, and you

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do whatever you wanted with it.

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That was very fortuitous.

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At that time, we had just
moved to this older house

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that needed a lot of work.

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And one of the first
things that I did

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was I changed over my kitchen
to something a little bit

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more modern and also to suit my
disabilities with my arthritis.

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So I had a lot of
sliding cabinets built in

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and things like that.

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But anyway, so this piece
came around that time

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when they were doing
construction in that kitchen.

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And it was during the
summer time, which

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is sort of like the worst time
to try and do construction,

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because they gutted
the whole place,

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and half the time, the
electricity was off.

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So it-- this sort of speaks
to that event and then

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some other events that
I saw while all of this

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was going on at the same time.

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It's just called
"Trapped Air" because you

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know how when things get
gutted, the buildings,

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there's a certain smell
that starts to come out

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of those spaces
and things that you

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imagine might have been there.

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"Trapped Air".

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"Old ceilings ripped
out, exposing rafters,

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beams, dirt, old
compressed insulation,

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electrical wires
that go nowhere,

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heat from long-ago summers.

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The opening expose
lost, forgotten dreams

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that must have gone there
when the dreamer turned

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his back for just a second.

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These old ceilings are
where I imagine nightmares

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hide once a mother comforts
a crying child disturbed

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by bad dreams.

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Dust filters through
the sunlight.

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It settles on the sweat
of a hot August day.

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It sticks to the blood of
the floor and wall, an injury

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during construction.

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At the end of the
evolution of construction,

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there is a shiny glass--

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there's a shiny glass-top stove.

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The first time I
cook on it, I realize

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I need to hold the
handle of the pot

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when I cook on this surface.

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A one-armed woman cannot
cook on this stove.

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I watched the woman
in the restaurant.

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She has a full cast
on her right arm.

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Her breakfast arrives, pancakes.

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Watching her, I
realize eating pancakes

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is a two-handed job, at
least, a right-handed one.

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In her efforts to
eat, she manages

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to knock over a glass of water.

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After a while, it is the
little pitcher of syrup.

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The waitress smiles at
her with every cleanup.

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Her husband comes over
to her side of the table,

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cuts a few slices
of pancakes for her

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just once, as if showing
her will make it easier.

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After a while, she gives up.

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I imagine this woman
having nightmares

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brought on by her
encased arm and how

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it weighs on her in so many
ways and by her hunger.

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She has frustrating dreams of
a pancake breakfast gone wrong.

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Once she wakes
from her nightmare,

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bits of the bad dream collect
in the dark corners and crawl

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spaces of her house."

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