Chimps and such.
I can wave my hand in front of my face.
And it's real trippy.
The chimp does that sometimes.
And sometimes we do it together until a baby cries.
A baby always cries.
That's when I scream, I hate babies.
It's hard thinking of you.
Sometimes I leave my forehead against glass penguins
in the distance.
Somebody painted a sky on the wall.
And the penguins stand and stare at that sky all day.
And I do too pretending I'm a penguin in an enclosed room.
The sky is sad as me.
I try to tell them all about waving
a hand in front of my face.
I tell the baby that too.
But it's scary being a baby.
So I stand facing that wall that looks like sky in Antarctica.
Sometimes the baby crawled out of its stroller and joins me.
Sometimes I put on sunglasses and we both stand and stare
at Antarctica together.
Those are nice things.
I wonder what a chimp would do in Antarctica waving
its hand in front of its face.
The chimp scare me sometimes.
Remember that story about the chimp biting off
that woman's face?
That is a scary story.
And when I tell it sometimes, the baby cries.
That's when I try to make it laugh
by waving my hand in front of its face saying trippy.
You used to hold me in your arms like a baby when I cry.
That's how I remember it anyway.
The thing about the penguins is that they never see me.
All those days standing with my head against the glass.
And they'd rather stare that sad pane
I doubt they've even ever been to Antarctica.
I painted the wall in my living room blue like sky,
painted icebergs too.
Painted penguins facing away from me, painted you.
Remember that lady with the chimp, the one
whose friend lost her face?
I wonder who she holds like a baby.
Wonder what zoo she gave her chimp too.
wonder who cries when she waves her hand in front of her face.