I think the first thing that I thought of
was in failure in my feet.
And that's because I've always had problems with my feet
as a child.
One of my feet was turned all the way in.
I had to wear a reverse last shoe and a brace, all
that good stuff.
And then I had surgery on my feet when I was a teenager.
And I had this bone stuff going on.
So in some ways, like I was thinking,
it feels like that's always been this kind of site of failure.
But then, I started thinking, well,
it feels like it's kind of in my left brain.
I have to just be really a materialist about the brain,
but it feels like it's there.
Because I've been working on being
open to the plasticity of my brain and kind of getting
rewired through acupuncture and meditation and letting things
go.
And in your right mind, your right brain,
is where there's all the spirituality.
I don't know.
Has anybody ever seen--
she gave a TED talk--
Jill Nolte Taylor?
Jill Bolte Taylor.
Bolte Taylor, right, right.
What is it called?
"My Stroke of Insight."
Oh, yeah.
Right?
So, when she had the stroke in her left brain,
her right brain is just wild, right?
And there's all this spirituality.
She's not attached to the illusion of the real
and that kind of concreteness.
And it's just all this space, and all this possibility,
and all this love, and all this joy.
And she didn't have all that the chatter from the other side
shutting that down.
And I feel like, you know what I'm talking about,
it's in my feet.
And there's that memory and everything.
But it's in that particular place
where, if I keep reworking those synapses
and re-feeding that information there,
then it gets more solidified.
I've been working on releasing that.
And so that goes with the idea of the empty moments
and the no-mind and the release and the surrender
on the other side, and that balance.
And that's really what I'm working
to be open, really open to.
And there's the ambitious failures, which
are all about possibility.
Which I feel like I was really grateful to be
able to experience those.
Not saying with you guys, that you were ambitiously failing.
Maybe you were ambitiously succeeding.
But I feel like I definitely did some ambitious failing
last night.
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And often.
Those are such beautiful answers.
If anybody ever asks us why we need artists,
they can spin failure into redemption on a dime.
Right?
Magic.
So beautiful.
All right, so one last question here for us.
If you're writing is a gesture in the world,
what does this gesture look like?
So, you could posture that, if you want.
You could get up and leave, if you want.
You could turn your back to us all, if you want.
You can just write in silence.
Or just stand up and hold a pose, or talk to us.
Thank you.
That's often the gesture that is needed.
I'm not sure yet.
Doug always saves the day.
Ouw!
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