WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.510 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.510 --> 00:00:03.570 align:middle line:90% "Personal Concept." 00:00:03.570 --> 00:00:08.070 align:middle line:84% "In the rehab waiting room, Adam, sometimes Ah-dam-ah, 00:00:08.070 --> 00:00:11.880 align:middle line:84% one person, one name, cracks his knuckles, 00:00:11.880 --> 00:00:16.120 align:middle line:84% apologizes deeply for the car accident. 00:00:16.120 --> 00:00:19.230 align:middle line:90% Heck ow nai fann, heck toi. 00:00:19.230 --> 00:00:22.380 align:middle line:84% The man who did you wrong, my mother called it, 00:00:22.380 --> 00:00:25.230 align:middle line:84% the stepfather's plot, the child abuser, 00:00:25.230 --> 00:00:27.870 align:middle line:84% the sheer luck of being beside Adam 00:00:27.870 --> 00:00:30.450 align:middle line:84% when he drove into the dark-haired woman, 00:00:30.450 --> 00:00:33.390 align:middle line:90% may she rest in peace. 00:00:33.390 --> 00:00:37.530 align:middle line:84% I know the employability of my reconstructed hand, 00:00:37.530 --> 00:00:41.070 align:middle line:90% the thrill of anger in my arm. 00:00:41.070 --> 00:00:45.780 align:middle line:84% No need to temper the pain, it's only my body. 00:00:45.780 --> 00:00:48.480 align:middle line:84% When I write the unforgivable, the songs 00:00:48.480 --> 00:00:52.630 align:middle line:90% are the sensate part of my body. 00:00:52.630 --> 00:00:55.720 align:middle line:84% Simulated sunlight I'll drink at night. 00:00:55.720 --> 00:00:58.600 align:middle line:84% My body will head straight for the impulse 00:00:58.600 --> 00:01:02.440 align:middle line:84% to peer into windows, a private insecurity. 00:01:02.440 --> 00:01:04.900 align:middle line:84% I'll drink chicory at dusklight and come morn, 00:01:04.900 --> 00:01:07.300 align:middle line:84% my ears will call the coon songs that 00:01:07.300 --> 00:01:11.230 align:middle line:84% sutured Bessie's lyricism, a dark transcription 00:01:11.230 --> 00:01:14.620 align:middle line:90% of prideful racism. 00:01:14.620 --> 00:01:17.290 align:middle line:84% Your fingers transcribe dozens and dozens 00:01:17.290 --> 00:01:20.290 align:middle line:84% of pop songs whirring through your brain. 00:01:20.290 --> 00:01:22.370 align:middle line:84% You're writing enough for the both of us. 00:01:22.370 --> 00:01:26.200 align:middle line:84% I tap, I'm a hustling coon, to slow you down. 00:01:26.200 --> 00:01:28.240 align:middle line:90% Don't be racist, you say. 00:01:28.240 --> 00:01:32.320 align:middle line:84% Why would you write such derogatory music? 00:01:32.320 --> 00:01:38.110 align:middle line:84% In Pièces froides, Satie wrote, Cold, crooked dances, 00:01:38.110 --> 00:01:41.260 align:middle line:90% his predilection for ragtime. 00:01:41.260 --> 00:01:45.400 align:middle line:84% I believe the composer had to preface his own sadness, 00:01:45.400 --> 00:01:46.720 align:middle line:90% or at least leave the room. 00:01:46.720 --> 00:01:49.470 align:middle line:90% 00:01:49.470 --> 00:01:53.670 align:middle line:84% My hand can manage slivers of metal and 16 stitches, 00:01:53.670 --> 00:01:56.310 align:middle line:84% but there are other complications, 00:01:56.310 --> 00:01:59.370 align:middle line:84% and the man with the green eyes like mica chips, 00:01:59.370 --> 00:02:03.630 align:middle line:84% Adam, who did me wrong, asks if he can see me. 00:02:03.630 --> 00:02:07.680 align:middle line:84% He says I remain beautiful regardless of the accident. 00:02:07.680 --> 00:02:11.280 align:middle line:84% Violence always has to preface beauty. 00:02:11.280 --> 00:02:14.460 align:middle line:84% You hated that I wasn't wearing gloves all the time, 00:02:14.460 --> 00:02:18.300 align:middle line:84% that in this world of shame and counterfeit music, 00:02:18.300 --> 00:02:23.520 align:middle line:84% I would rather see the man who almost killed me than you. 00:02:23.520 --> 00:02:26.250 align:middle line:84% Transcribed: shame's counterpoint, 00:02:26.250 --> 00:02:29.100 align:middle line:90% or praise, praise, praise. 00:02:29.100 --> 00:02:33.100 align:middle line:90% Shove me into a think tank. 00:02:33.100 --> 00:02:34.960 align:middle line:84% The next time I hear of him, it's 00:02:34.960 --> 00:02:38.980 align:middle line:84% in news articles and the commemoration service. 00:02:38.980 --> 00:02:42.250 align:middle line:84% His Facebook says to wear a smile all the time, 00:02:42.250 --> 00:02:45.910 align:middle line:84% like this would prevent his first degree murder. 00:02:45.910 --> 00:02:49.930 align:middle line:84% Then you say, your hand feels better without him. 00:02:49.930 --> 00:02:53.170 align:middle line:84% But I'll never forget my first love. 00:02:53.170 --> 00:02:57.220 align:middle line:84% Must feel like Satie tapping on every 13 white keys 00:02:57.220 --> 00:02:58.990 align:middle line:90% to nine black. 00:02:58.990 --> 00:03:04.220 align:middle line:84% But my hand will never again hold the glass of whiskey. 00:03:04.220 --> 00:03:08.360 align:middle line:84% Adam, what damage I'll temper the world the world will 00:03:08.360 --> 00:03:11.780 align:middle line:84% shudder back, long after bullets have 00:03:11.780 --> 00:03:14.360 align:middle line:90% been pumped into our bodies." 00:03:14.360 --> 00:03:16.150 align:middle line:90% Thank you.