Then I went through a period of difficulty
and didn't love myself.
And my poetry went back up to my mind to some extent.
And I began working on--
to get out of that I began working on association,
trying to search around my mind finding where was I, how
I could get out of that box.
So this is a note--
then from now on everything I'll be reading
is unpublished works from about 1961 on.
I wish also to say I have not published anything,
because before I came here for several weeks
though I had no idea whether this was--
what this was, what I was writing
and I was very depressed in fact, I felt that.
I didn't know who I was or what I was
and this was just scratching around.
Some evidence comes through now to me,
I began to discover what I was doing.
And is the first time I've been able--
I've read this aloud, so I must apologize for the fact
that I haven't revised it entirely properly.
I haven't presented it, collected it
beside of what it is, so I we'll be discovering what this is.
And there may be false notes here and there which
you'll have to forgive me.